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My chest aches—not from the wound, but from the weight of what I never said, what I never did. Her laugh. That stupid, beautiful laugh that used to make me forget everything else. Her eyes—the way they’d catch me staring at her like I was the only thing she could see. The nights I dreamed of telling her… I love you. I wanted to be the one who held her when the world went to hell. I wanted to be her calm, her constant. I was too late. A breath, shallow, weak. “Jewel…,” I whisper in the dark, a name I should’ve said every day. “I… I love you…”

Oh that wisdom might come when one doesn't realize he wants it but is in desperate need of it; as a heavy cloud over his head, plunging him in a downpour of wisdom. If i were asked what i'd have wanted to change of the past half hour ago, i'd say my manner of approach and convey of my thoughts. I never did think, even as i sat there by the edge or the river bank with my feet swaying in the cool water, that somethings were best left unsaid, words were one of the things one could never undo; once said it continued to sway and twirl in the air waiting for a time where it would be roused again, like unsettled dust.Strangely enough, i knew things would never be the same, whether it be from my out

But I would like him to know what whether it's a command or not, I'd gladly do that everytime we have a problem. But I can't still process everything in an instant. How much more for Benjamin's girlfriend? The more information she knows, the more it is going to stuck in her thoughts. It will haunt her. I've been there a lot of times. I've been blank and just want to disappear. It's like even if you want something, you couldn't have it. Kung gusto may paraan kung ayaw may dahilan. That saying doesn't work on me. There are some circumstances that even how badly you want it, you can't have it.

“I lost answers. I lost the truth.” I wanted to say something, anything, but the words didn’t come.

“I know you didn’t mean to.” “No, I…” I took a breath. “I never wanted to make you the last person to know. I just kept thinking that if I said one thing, everything else would come down with it. So I put it off. Then put it off again. Then…” I shook my head slightly. “I became very good at turning my own life into an unauthorized renovation project.” Adrian watched me with that soft expression that made me want to apologize again just because he could still be gentle right now.

Those things are happening which I never wanted to do in the first place because I closed those things of mine years ago in a subtle block of wooden! Though I never wanted to re-open them, however, things happen, and in the last, I didn't have any choice left. Today, I didn't waste any time on anything. Everything was getting smooth, like the way it was planned. I was going to do something extraordinary for myself. Whether I left it behind years ago, or not! Whatsoever, I'm gonna do it. And I know that I"ll be going in the third round at the end of the day.

As much as I could, I would want to avoid talking about the past. “I never wanted you gone, Jane…”

I just couldn't do a thing . #TBC

Promise :)* A part of me wants to say more, but I can't. Not now, at least.

making me forget the things she never meant to do. . . . #TBC