Toxic Love Novels & Stories

It's like alcohol is a complete aphrodisiac that has driven us to things that we should not do. We are both now lying on the bed, covering ourselves with the blanket, staring at the ceiling. Reflecting on what has just happened. I'll be honest, I don't regret it. I'm just really worried on what Elise may think on me. This might sound selfish but the thought of Elise being fully mine after this night is making me feel like I am in ecstasy. "Topher, do you love me?" Tumagilid ako paharap kay Elise at tinigna siya sa mata.

Dinungaw ni Jaewon ang kamay ko. Nagitla ako dahil napansin pala nito ang hawak kong kwintas na may pendant ng rosas. "Napulot ko lang." Mabilis ko iyong itinago sa bulsa. After being separated with my mom and my little sister, I knew how a toxic love could inflict irreversible pain and damage. I don't want to be stuck in a toxic relationship. Maaga pa lang gusto ko na itong tapusin upang hindi na makagawa pa ng sakit.

I wanted to believe he could love me—that the endless waiting, the aching hunger, would bloom into something real. But all I've earned is his loathing. And even as my chest shatters and tears carve burning paths down my cheeks, part of me craves the pain. I crave the sting of rejection, the jagged edge of his disdain—because it means I'm still here. Still occupying the shattered corners of his life, no matter how broken or toxic. I'm drawn to the torment, the bitter taste of being unwanted yet unable to escape. I'm a masochist drowning in a love that kills. I would rather bleed a thousand times than live in a world without him—even if it means I'll never be loved.

Hindi na nanlalamig, e. “Para sa ‘kin? I think… from what I saw around me, love is a courageous, tragic necessity. The voluntary surrender of self-sufficiency to another person, knowing that this deep, interdependent connection grants them the exclusive power to inflict profound, lasting emotional harm. You take risks. You get hurt.” Mahina siyang natawa. “And I don’t want that.” Kumunot ang noo ng kanyang kapatid. “What do you mean you don’t want that?”

Natawa siya nang makita niya ang naging reaction ko. “I mean, hindi naman kami lagi nag-aaway ng asawa ko. Pero no’ng bago pa lang kami nagkabalikan ulit, ang toxic namin dalawa.” “Paano pong toxic, doc?” “Hmm. It’s hard to explain dahil iba kasi ang background naming dalawa.. My husband was really toxic as in toxic na toxic. Lahat gagawin niya just to get my attention to the point na halos ilagay niya ang sarili niya sa kapahamakan para lang mapansin ko siya.”

Hindi niya na alam kung paano haharapin ang kaniyang kaibigan. Kung hindi lang sana ginulo ni Zeil ang kaniyang buhay ay baka may pag-asa pa sila ni Kian. Mula pagkabata ay may pagtingin na rin siya sa lalaki. Inililihim niya lamang ito noon dahil ayaw niyang masira ang pagkakaibigan nila ni Kian. Siya ang unang lalaking nakilala niya at minahal pero nagbago ang lahat dahil kay Zeil. Hindi niya rin maunawaan ang kaniyang sarili kung bakit si Zeil pa ang kaniyang minahal sa kabila ng pananakit na ginagawa nito sa kaniya at sa sakit na idinudulot nito sa kaniya.

"Siguro dahil fresh pa ang lahat. Kakakamit mo lang ang hustisya. In time magiging maayos ka din. Makakahanap ka din ng totoong tao na magmamahal sa'yo." She doubt it. Hindi niya alam kung kaya pa niyang magtiwala ulit. Sometimes a woman who came from a very toxic relationship and break ups are broken. At ang trauma nila ay madadala nila sa susunod na karelasyon nila. Kung may lalake mang dumating at mamahalin siya after how many years, hindi din ito magiging masaya. He'll eventually leave her and she will be left alone again.

Umigting ang kanyang panga. "A failure." Narinig kong sinabi ng isa. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niyang nakahawak sa akin. Namuhay siya na pasan niya ang Iahat at ngayon ay ganito ang matatanggap niya galing sa kanyang pamilya. Naiinis ako na ako ang dahilan kung bakit siya nasasaktan. Loving me was toxic to him. Loving me is his hell. Loving me is his failure.

Pinagsiklop ko ang mga kamay namin at hinalikan niya naman ako sa pisngi at buhok. "I love you," bulong niya. Napangiti naman ako at sinagot ko rin naman siya. "I love you too, baby." Pero napairap ako dahil naalala ko ang sinabi ni Deniece na may nangyari sa kanilang dalawa. Kailangan naming mag-usap tungkol do'n. "ero may kasalanan ka sa 'kin, sinabi ni Deniece na may nangyari sa inyo! Totoo ba?" asik ko na saglit naman niyang kinatigil.

naguguluhan kong tanong. “The day your lover went out from your door step, it’s the worst feeling ever. It’s suffocating. The jealousy you felt is something like you badly want to kill someone. The pain when you found your lover being happy with other person than you.” He took a deep breath and puts down the bottle he’s holding on the sand. “Love is confusing, and love is something you don’t want to enter.” Napangiti ako dito nang ngumiti ito. I drank my soju ‘til the very last drop and drops the bottle on the sand.