What Would I Do Without Your Smart Novels & Stories

What ifs were just running in my head. "You have to calm down" Serena and Lena said. They were here with me to keep me company. "What do you mean? I am calm" I said while pacing around the room. "How are you calm when you are walking in circles, you are making me dizzy" Serena said. "What if something happens tomorrow? What if Vincent does not show up?" I said "He will, don't think that way" Lena assured me. Vincent and I had not spoken since the day on the beach when he dropped me off. I was scared to call him first because I thought I did something wrong to him.

"I can't say I do without you." Those letters made my chest ache even more. Wouldn’t this occur if we chose one another? Is she correct when she said, "Perhaps my fate was to meet you but not be with you?"

School on Monday will be even messier. I wanted to disable any internet connections on my phone, that way I will not have to run into any shitty thing about my supposed husband on the internet that will hurt me so badly. But then, even if I do so, the world will not follow suit, which means that I will not be aware, but others will, and it will even make me look more stupid than I have ever been. Eventually, I started to cry. Worst still, I do not have anyone to really go to. Granted, I have been gifted a friendship in Tia, but there are just some moments where I desire real friends, like the ones I had already begun building in my first college.

Nigel, the older brother, always had the polished charm of a gentleman—warm on the surface but ruthless underneath. Shawn, the younger brother, came off like a spoiled playboy, but in truth, he was just as cruel. Never in my life did I think they'd use those very tactics against me. "I did nothing wrong. If you want to come after me, go ahead." I had nothing left to fear. They didn't need to chase me away. I would stay far away from them on my own. And as for the peaceful days he mentioned? I never had any to begin with.

I don't complain about the life I lead, even though I don't know my parents, they are a happy woman, with a career in between, with a supernatural intelligence and with a unique beauty; those last words spoken by the Mother Superior. I get in the car and look at the clock, still a few minutes away from the meeting I called to make way for my new boss. I admit that it makes me extremely nervous to have to work with him, but I want to show him that I am an intelligent, capable, and responsible woman, for some reason his father has left me in charge of the company in recent years.

“I guess you have to enjoy life without technology then.” The call suddenly cut off and my phone screen played a countdown for 7pm - probably the time I was meant to be picked up by the car Eliana was meant to be sending. I swiped frantically at my screen but it did nothing, the timer slowly ticking down the time to the impending dinner. This was definitely the downside of having a genius hacker as a best friend. “Fuck my life,” I whispered to myself, realising I had no other choice. Either I went, or I lived technology free for the rest of my miserable life.

“That's what I thought.” “I'm not done. Yes, I want babies. But I love you. You are my mate and I am yours. I want to spend my life with you, with or without children. I decided that I can live without having kids. Yeah, it will suck. I can't so that there won't be times when I'm a litle saddened by it, but I will try not to dwell on what I am missing. I will be more than happy with everything that I do have."

"How can you be so smart?" "Classmates are good, but they can't be chatted with in the community. It's kind of like... what, they have their own world, and I also have my own world. And our world can't be unified." Alsava sat leaning on a park bench, as if looking for pieces of the cloud that had disappeared from the sky in the corners of the grove of trees. "I'm smart because I have to be smart. If I'm stupid, I can embarrass my mother and the whole family."

I whispered to myself as the city rolled by: “You’re not weak. You’re smart. You’re about to be unstoppable.” And when I closed my eyes, I imagined the board clearing. One distraction at a time.

"Well, it felt like it. But seriously, it's nothing. Just the usual stress, I guess." Ryder doesn’t seem convinced, but he lets it slide. "Alright, if you say so. Just remember, I'm here to give your lazy ass some motivational quotes whenever you need 'em." Ryder is one of a kind. I nod, grateful for his understanding. "Thanks, Ryder. I appreciate it. I'm just wondering what I would do without you." He smiles, clapping a hand on my shoulder. "Dear Alpha Trix, you would die. You would die without me, man." He says.