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"It only took one second, one look, for both's hearts to betray them." (Both male leads are biggest idols from a different biggest boys band in Seoul city, Korea.) The backstage area of award shows was always chaos,stylists rushing with last minute touch ups, managers whispering reminders, idols trying to stay calm while waiting for their turn under the blinding stage lights. Felix had grown used to it. With Stray Kids rising higher each year, he knew the routine well, smile, bow, perform, and keep his voice steady in interviews. Still, a part of him always feltt small in these big arenas like he was surrounded by stars he wasn't sure he could ever reach. Tonight, the stadium was filled with idols he admired from afar, but there was one name that made his heart beat a little faster whenever he heard it. Park Jimin. Felix had been a trainee when BTS was at their peak, and Jimin had always been his inspiration. Not just because of the flawless dancing and angelic voice, but because of that warmth Jimin seemed to carry wherever he went. Even through a screen, Felix had felt it like Jimin's presence alone could lift the weight of a bad day. And now... they were under the same roof. "Felix, let's move," his manager nudged him. The group lined up, ready to be escorted to their seats near the front row. Felix adjusted his blazer nervously, his freckles barely hidden by makeup. He inhaled deeply. Just another award show. But fate had other plans. As Stray Kids group were guided past BTS's row, Felix's gaze accidentally lifted and landed right on jimin Felix said "Damn,..he's more beautiful in person than I've ever imagined. His skin glowed under the soft lights, his eyes kind yet sharp, his smile gentle but powerful enough to disarm anyone who looked too long, fuck why does it feels like I've never seen him before, he looks so different tonight" . And in that exact moment, Jimin looked up also. Their eyes met. It wasn't supposed to mean anything. Just a quick glance. But Felix felt it like a jolt of electricity ran through his body. He froze, his lips parting slightly, his chest tightening as though the air had suddenly grown too thin. Jimin tilted his head the slightest bit, curiosity sparking in his gaze. And then, to Felix's utter shock, Jimin smiled. Not the polished stage smile, but something softer. Personal. Directed only at him. Felix's ears turned red instantly. He bowed quickly, almost too deep, before moving along with his members, heart pounding so loudly he could barely hear the cheers from the audience anymore. Sitting down, he tried to calm himself, but the image of Jimin's eyes lingered stubbornly. "Hyung(Big brother)," I.N whispered beside him, "why are you so red? You okay?" Felix gave a weak laugh. "Yeah... just hot in here." But inside, he knew the truth. That single look, that smile, it felt like the beginning of something he couldn't explain. Maybe love really could happen at first sight. The performance ended, but Felix's heart hadn't calmed down. He bowed with his group, waved at the fans, and sat back down, but his mind kept drifting to one thing,..one person. Jimin. Every time he closed his eyes, Felix saw the way Jimin's gaze had pinned him in place. It wasn't just kind. It wasn't just soft. There had been something else hiding beneath it, something that made Felix's skin prickle with both fear and desire. Later, backstage, Stray Kids and BTS crossed paths again. The hallways were tight, crowded with staff, yet somehow Felix felt the air grow heavy as soon as Jimin appeared at the other end. Jimin's presence was different up close calmer than the noise around him, but unnervingly magnetic. He wasnt smiling now. His expression was unreadable, his sharp eyes scanning the hallway until they landed on Felix. Felix's breath hitched. He looked away too quickly, pretending to check his phone, but he felt it, and Jimin's gaze burning into him watching. "Hyung," Han nudged him. "Spacing out again?" Felix shook his head, forcing a small smile, but his hands trembled slightly. When they turned the corner, Felix thought it was over. But then he heard it. A voice, low and smooth, calling his name. "Felix." He froze. Slowly, he turned. Jimin stood there alone, just a few feet away, separated from the others as if the world had parted for the two of them. His expression was calm, but his eyes carried a darkness Felix couldn't quite name. "You're... Felix, right?" Jimin asked, stepping closer. Felix nodded quickly, bowing. "Y-yes, sunbaenim(sir)." His voice cracked slightly, betraying his nerves. jimin said "Why am I even asking, of course I know you so well" Jimin's lips curled into the faintest smirk. "The boy with the deep voice and the freckles." Felix's cheeks heated. He hadn't expected someone like Jimin to notice details like that. But before he could respond, Jimin leaned in so slightly, his voice dropping to a whisper only Felix could hear. "You shouldn't look at people the way you looked at me earlier." Felix blinked, stunned. "IāI didn'tāš„ŗ.ā Jimin's eyes glimmered with something dangerous, something Felix couldn't place between warning and invitation. He reached out, brushing his fingers lightly against Felix's wrist just a ghost of a touch, enough to leave Felix shivering. Then Jimin straightened, smile returning like nothing had happened. "See you around, Felix." Jimin walked away Felix said "Omg what just happened" with goosebumps all over his body. And just like that, jimin was gone, leaving Felix frozen in the hallway, pulse racing, his body caught between fear and an undeniable pull. For the first time in his life, Felix felt like he was standing at the edge of something he didn't fully understand. Something beautiful. Something dangerous.Later that night, after Felix had gone to his room, the dorm was filled with a tense silence. The remaining members gathered in the living room, each carrying the weight of what they had just heard.Hyunjin was the first to break it. His voice was low, uncertain."So... Felix is in love with Jimin hyung. Like, really in love. What does he even mean?"Changbin frowned, leaning forward on his elbows. "It means trouble. If this ever gets out, it could destroy his career. And ours. You know how fans are."Seungmin crossed his arms, his sharp gaze narrowing. "The bigger question is... does this mean Felix likes men all these while?"I.N shifted uncomfortably, his cheeks red. "He said he doesn't know. Just that he loves Jimin hyung."Bangchan leaned in and said. "I've noticed he likes men for so long". "Love is love, But still... Jimin? Of all people? He's... huge. BTS is on another level." Lee know muttered, though his voice lacked certainty. Changbin shook his head. "That's what scares
Jimin should've been afraid. He should've been careful. But he wasn't.Instead, he whispered into the quiet, "You've ruined me Lixie. I don't belong to myself anymore... I belong to you."That afternoon, practice with BTS felt different. His body was there, but his soul wasn't. Every move, every lyric Felix's face kept flashing in his mind. The way he whispered his name, the way he clung to him, the way he made Jimin feel alive and doomed at the same time.Finally, he couldn't hold it in anymore. During break, the room was filled with laughter and chatter, but Jimin's chest felt like it was going to explode. He stood suddenly, his voice sharp."Hyungs... I need to say something."The others went quiet, surprised at his serious tone. Namjoon tilted his head. "What is it, Jimin?"Jimin's fists clenched at his sides. His eyes burned as he looked at the floor, then back up. "I'm in love."Jungkook blinked. "With who?"Jimin swallowed, his voice trembling but fierce. "With Felix. From Stra
The next morning Jimin woke up and his eyes weren't on the city lights or the sunrise, They were glued to the boy laying right next to him, his hand brushing ever so slightly against his.Felix.The weight of his presence was heavy yet soft like velvet pressed against bare skin. The younger's laughter still echoed faintly in Jimin's ears, and Jimin couldn't remember when last anyone made him feel this light, this drunk, without a drop of alcohol.Felix woke up like a baby and he looked up to jimin and he smiled cutely and said with his deep voice "Good morning chicken š„"Jimin smile gently and started rubbing Felix's body and he kissed him on his forehead and said (hope you slept well little chicken š„?" Felix nodded and kissed his cheeks and went straight to the bathroom to freshen up and prepared to go back home before everyone starts waking up. Felix dressed up while Jimin helped him and said to him "don't worry okay, I will ask my trusted staffs to drop you home"Jimin and Fel
Felix never thought love could feel like thissoft, warm, and gentle.Not heavy chains, not fear. Just... comfort.It was past midnight, the city outside glowing with quiet lights. Felix sat cross-legged on Jimin's couch, a blanket wrapped around his shoulders, and that was his first time at Jimin mansion, it a little bit far to town, Jimin sat across from him, holding two mugs of hot tea."You don't sleep enough," Jimin teased lightly, passing him a mug.Felix laughed softly, his deep voice low and shy. "Neither do you, Park jimin" Jimin smile and said "call me that again""Park jimin" Felix said with deep voice. Jimin giggled and said "Good, now you are claiming me" They sipped in silence for a moment, the air calm. No rushing, no hiding. Just them.Felix broke the silence. "Do you ever wish we could just... tell the world?"Jimin set his mug down, his smile fading into something softer. "Every day, But then I remember what the world is like, What fans can be like."Felix's chest
The dorm was quiet. Everyone was asleep.Everyone except Felix.He slipped on his hoodie, tucked his phone in his pocket, and crept out of the room. His heart pounded with every step, terrified someone might wake up. But he couldn't stop.Jimin was waiting.The black car was parked a block away, tinted windows hiding everything inside. When Felix opened the door, Jimin was already there, smirking like he knew Felix would come. "You listened," Jimin said softly. His hand reached out, gripping Felix's chin, forcing him to look up. "Good boy."Felix's stomach twisted. He hated the way his body reacted to those words weak, needy, burning. "I didn't have a choice..." Felix whispered with smile Jimin leaned closer, his breath warm against Felix's ear. "You always have a choice. But every time, you choose me."Felix shivered. It was true. No matter how much he resisted during the day, the night always brought him back here. Back to Jimin.Hours later, when Felix finally returned to th
That night, Felix returned to the dorm long after everyone was asleep. He collapsed onto his bed, staring at his shaking hands.He told himself he'd stop. That this was the last time. But deep down, he knew he was already too far gone.Days blurred together.Schedules, rehearsals, interviews Felix went through them like a ghost. His smile was still there, his laugh still bright, but behind it was something else. Something gnawing at him from the inside.He craved Jimin. Not just the touches. Not just the stolen kisses. But everything. His voice, his presence, the way he looked at him like no one else ever had. Every hour apart felt unbearable. Every second with him felt like drowning and Felix didn't want to come up for air. "Felix, are you listening?" Chan's voice cut through the fog one afternoon during practice.Felix blinked, realizing he'd missed an entire cue. Sweat dampened his shirt, his chest heaving harder than it should have. "Sorry, hyung," he muttered quickly, forci







