LOGINMaddie
I stared at myself after I was done weaving my long chestnut hair into braids. Using my scrunchie I tag them at the end of the braid. Will Carlson love this? I found myself asking. Why do I have to do the things he loves? It should be Jamie dumpass. I corrected my backpack, and I locked up my door before leaving. It's been three days since I missed school, not after what happened at the party. Carlson has been a good friend not friends, tutor who has been helping to cheer me up and give me updates based on things taught in the class. Carlson asked me to have a coffee with him at my favorite coffee shop. It's so simple since an an A student missing a few classes isn't going to stop me from achieving my academic pursuit. The moment I stepped out I met Veronica with her squad who blocked my path. I cursed hoping she didn't come to cause trouble again. I'm already tired of her. “Going somewhere desperate virgin” I rolled my eyes and tried to walk out but she drags me back and have her girls hold me in place side by side. I tried to get free from them but its difficult having two persons hold me side by side. Veronica brought out her phone and began to stream me again. “Let's see what she have beneath those old gumpy cardigan of hers” She wants to strip me again, they all laughed as my favorite cardigan from my mother was ripped apart. Anger soured inside of me. I have promised to cherish that gift forever, I didn't care if Veronica thinks it will suit her great grandmother. She has crossed the line and I'm going to show her what it feels like to step on my toes. Carlson's words rang in my head. “If you can't verbally abuse her, punch on to the face” My hand had the mind of its own as my bulge hand flew to her nose. A metallic scent filled the room. Veronica’s eyes filled with horror of both surprise and shock touch the bridge of her nose as the red dripped down. “What do you just do?” She asked, shocked enough her squad freed me scared of having a bleeding nose just like Veronica. I sprinted out running till I got to the cafe, my heart beating so fast. I have never been so brave to kick someone's ass. Before stepping into the cafe, I took a deep breath calming myself down with a bright smile that spread on my face. The place wasn't much filled, I spotted Carlson sitting alone at the far end of the cafe. He stood up when he saw me coming. “Hey, sorry am late” “It's cool, anything for you” “Take a seat” he gestures for me to take a seat right in front of him. “She's in here, I'm sure of that” Veronica's voice, she walked in with not just her squad this time but with a huge looking fat cop. Veronica had a hankie on her nose exerting pressure on her bleeding nose. “She's the one” Veronica points accusing finger at me and for some reason I didn't feel scared probably because I'm with Carlson. He has been my peaceful place. “Maddie Malone, you have been reported causing violence, you have the right to remain silent or whatever you say will be held against you in the court of law. Put your hands in the air and turn around” I did exactly as she said, she drags my hands down like a criminal and cuffs it. “Wait wait, what is going on here” “Maddie punch me on the face” “Really, she did that. But she won't if you didn't cross the line. You have been bullying Maddie recently. I'm sure you must have a video of Maddie on your phone” “Hold on, are you the quarterback?” The cop asked. “Yes, you have been to one of my games. I have seen you few times” “Yeah dude, you're really hitting it hard. I can't wait for the next match. I'm a fan” “I will have a space for you” “I appreciate man, peace” The cop turns to Veronica. “Maddie here was only trying to defend herself from Veronica” “Young lady, could you please hand over your phone” but Veronica never did. “I'm sorry for the interruptions. You have a nice day” the cop freed my hands and walked away right out of the door. Veronica yells. “This isn't over yet, I will make sure to deal with you” This time I won't take her threat for granted. She walked out leaving me behind with Carlson. “You did it,” Carlson cheered on. I haven't seen a big fan like Carlson. He drives me to be a better version of myself. He sees me for who I am. “You just passed Defence 101. Congratulations. I'm sure Veronica won't be crawling on your skin anymore” We got done from the cafe, Carlson took me shopping. To my favorite online shopping. Shein “Why are we here?” “Changing your wardrobe should be another strategy. You don't go about wearing baggy clothes. You need to show Jamie what you got” I squeal in excitement. “Yes” “I'm sure he will like to see you look hot” I went on to try more clothes which Carlson had to approve of. It felt like I'm on a date with him. Carlson steps out to answer a call when my eyes fell on Jamie walking in, he wasn't alone but had someone by his side. Not Veronica but a different girl. Can I really meet up with this?Maddie It's been two days since I last saw Carlson. He didn't call me back nor did he come to look for me. It seems I didn't exist in his world.I checked his Instagram and he hasn't updated anything yet except for just our picture on camp night and the other when we went out to the beach.I laid on the bed face on the ceiling as millions of thoughts came into my head. I wanted to confront him but then I realized it was my fault initially.You don't really know how hurt you will be for a game you started yourself. I thought speaking to others will relieve me of thinking about Carlson a lot but I was wrong.I was running away from my emotions instead of embracing it. Every top up notification I'm quick to rush to my phone with Carlson in mind.But it wasn't him.An invite to the school party shown on our group chat. I want to ignore it but staying alone in my room all day wasn't helping either. I needed to get out.I needed a drink.It was tonight and luckily I still have one dress w
Maddie I never saw it coming. I hate to see myself in a confused state with no way out.My head was spinning, staring at my dorm room, which was in the most disoriented state. I was running to find a place to cool off, a place to think, and now this.This time I'm totally alone. There is no one coming. Carlson is like miles away from me, and our argument isn't something that will be resolved anytime soon.I stared down at my broken phone, which was in my hand, a bitter laugh escaping my lips.Could this be a sign?I had peace, but I chose chaos.Carlson has been good to me; he defended me and gave me everything, yet I couldn't appreciate him.I'm such a terrible person; probably I deserved what I'm getting.Tears burned the back of my eyelid. I wasn't going to run this time. It is time to fix things.I didn't have much money to book a motel tonight, and I still needed to fix my phone. I dropped my luggage and carefully stepped into the room.I stared at the threat for a moment.“Stay
Carlson At first I thought it was just my imagination or dilution of imagining things that aren't there but the message kept staring back at me.I'm tempted to scroll more to know more but I'm so weak to my bones reading shit from her phone.When did Maddie get to this level? She avoided any topic related sex at first. I thought she's all shy about it and I respect her decision of keeping it plane.We were once cool with each other but I noticed her attitude of not wanting me around her, not touching her, not holding hands with her.I got frustrated and concerned about what is going on, looking for the right time to know what went wrong. If I did anything to hurt her I didn't know of.I noticed she was trying to pull away from me but why. I don't know the reason for her to act that way.She was already sleeping and one of her leg was out so I went over to cover her up with the sheet when a notification popped up on her phone.The name is not familiar but I'm tempted to know who will
Maddie I don’t know how to keep my emotions in check especially when it comes to the people I love. Sometimes I end up ruining things or regretting them. “Of course,” Carlson answered, stretching his hand effortlessly and dropping some chicken onto my plate.He even asked if I wanted more. He tried to trick me into meeting his gaze, but I only nodded.He didn't act like he was angry, or maybe he didn't want to show it to everyone, but he was quite detached when you watched closely.I could feel everyone's gaze burning on me, but I chose to quietly eat my meal but I still felt uncomfortable and each bite felt tasteless in my mouth.Forgot to bring my phone along; it would be a great form of distraction.After a few minutes, I got up and announced I was done with my meal and would be in my room.Nobody questioned or said a word, so I walked quietly upstairs, and when I was about to shut the door, something prevented it.Carlson placed his leg, wedging the door from closing. What is h
Maddie “Mira, can you ask your brother why he is angry at me?”I placed a hand over my mouth the moment I said that. “Is it okay to ask for help sometimes?” She was still trying to arrange my clothes into the wardrobe. Even though I offered to assist her she declined.I laid on the bed with my face facing the ceiling. My thoughts were all about Carlson. What did I do wrong? Why is he so mad at me? I couldn't speak to him so Mira was my only option.Even though I don't want to involve her in adult stuff, she's so close to her brother and could get the truth out.“What did you do to him?” I'm going to tell her I overheard me moaning to myself.Bruh!!!!That's not going to happen. I lifted my weight, my hand still pressing down on the sheet.“I don't know, he haven't spoken to me since morning”“And you're worried about it?” I nod wondering where she's getting with the conversation.“Are you kind of in love with my brother?”Oh shit!I always told Mira Carlson and I are just best fr
Maddie I didn't move, and I didn't say a word but remained stiff for some seconds before he changed the channel to my favorite TV show.I removed the sheet slightly, and he was sitting up this time, his attention on the TV.I checked the time, and it was 4 am. I have been up all night and barely have time to sleep now. I wasn't even feeling sleepy.“Do you care?” Carlson's voice.How did he know I'm awake? He was munching on chips.“Umh… no… thanks.” I sat taking off the sheet completely, my attention completely drawn to the program on the TV. One of my favorites, and I can't just stay away from it.I sat on the bed this time, laughing and mumbling to myself like I had someone I was discussing.“Disey got it all wrong.” I love to talk when watching my favorite ones, and I enjoy having another person who vibes the same way as me, but too bad Carlson isn't like that either.He prefers to be quiet, while I'm the noisy one.The movie came to an end, and I fell back on the bed this time







