12 Am Thoughts Novels & Stories

“Did I worth nothing to them?” I was very much submerged in my thoughts when my alarm buzzed again after half an hour. I couldn’t believe I wasted my precious time again remembering the distressing events of my life. In my usual morning, I could have been in my office clothes at this hour. I could only shake my head at how I pondered my past in the early morning. With that, I swiftly ran to my bathroom and took a bath.

But this morning's quiet feels different. I'm sitting at my desk in the grey pre-dawn light, lamp turned low. There's a file in front of me. The yard below is dark and still. I don't open the file right away. I just sit with my hands flat on the cover, staring at the wall, thinking about twelve minutes. Twelve minutes.

Trying to clear my thoughts. The air felt more colder. The streets were quiet than before. Everyone were probably asleep by then. I checked the time on my phone. Eleven o'clock. It's almost midnight. I sighed and looked around, hoping to distract myself from everything that has been going on in my life. I felt like a walking corpse seeing that I have experienced both life and death. My head felt heavy, like a burden. I kept thinking of James. How would he be feeling right now?

It is a beautiful Sunday morning. My watch says it is 6:35 AM, and the perfect time for me to take a walk and relax. I need this, too, sometimes, you know? There is a lot going on my mind right now, but today I just want to shut it all off and live for a moment.. I deserve this. We all do.

Thіnkіng ѕtорѕ hарреnіng when I’m аrоund hіm. I need to stop there and start thіnkіng for mуѕеlf and bеіng a gооd friend tо Aрrіl. It’ѕ tіmе to hоnоr my thoughts аnd walk away frоm this mеѕѕ wіth a ѕhrеd оf dіgnіtу.

I replied after I finished tying up my shoelace, then I give her a peck, I checked my wristwatch and it was 6:30 am. I was glad, I had to leave so early for two reasons. One, I had to whoop someone's ass, two I didn't want to go with Mrs Smith this morning, I have to sort myself out I have to know what exactly my feelings are...but I can't with Adrian around me, I got to school at 6:45, satisfied with the time, I head for class and the next minute I was smiling at the board glad how my handwriting makes a big deal out of it, then I left to read some books in my favourite spot, I couldn't help but remember when Adrian collected my book to help me with it, I shove away the thoughts and concent

So, I tell myself to think of the positives. "I'm seeing Sebastian today," I tell myself; a smile appears in front of the bathroom mirror. "That's a definite positive." I get to the building where the meeting is to be held at around 11:30AM. The meeting is at 11:40, so I am a little late

It was a good thing no life was lost. My eyes inadvertently darted to the traffic light and it was now showing amber. They darted next to my Philip Patek wristwatch Claire had gotten me during one of her shopping sprees. The time read 1:46 pm. The sun shone brightly against the glass of the car but I couldn't feel any heat because of the air conditioner which blew inside the car. Noises from my sister's game seemed to distract me from my thoughts and for a moment, I appreciated it. I was a critical overthinker and it wasn't healthy.

Isla laughing with Bear. “Not stupid,” I said. “It’s grief. It doesn’t check a schedule. It shows up at 9:17 AM on a Tuesday.” Chloe breathed. Shaky. “So what’s the move,” Chloe said. Alex thought. CREW hat pulled low. “Move is: no 2:47 PM today,” Alex said. “Move is: we do 9:25 AM instead. Right now. All of us. Eyes closed. 11 seconds. For right now. Not for March 14th. Not for December 31st. For right now.”

Claire’s POV I’d seated on the couch for hours, paced the entire house countless times, yet my mind had not been at rest. “Could it be it?” “Am I overthinking this?” Different thoughts crossed my mind one after another, refusing to let me breathe properly. At this moment, I darted my eyes toward the wall clock again. 12am. Lucas should have been back home since 10pm, but even at midnight, he was still nowhere to be found.