As Messed Up As Me Novels & Stories

and my reply was "I'm a dumb ass bi*ch" Yes— I was a dumb ass bit*ch. I was actually glad I told myself the truth, just sad that I didn't do it sooner enough because what I went through wouldn't have happened at all and I wouldn't have gone through the next shitty five years and homeless two years that I went through.

I embarrassed her in front of the person who was behind all of the mishaps. I rubbed my forehead in frustration with my index finger and thumb. I'm going to go crazy at this pace. It's been only a week and I feel depressed! I really need to get a hold of myself! I can't let just any girl do that to me! But she isn't any girl, now is she? My inner voice questioned.

But instead, all I can think is what a fucking mess everything is. How the fuck did I end up here?

I'm so fucked. *****************************************

"What’s gonna be a mess?" "My life." I responded tears welling up in my eyes "My whole fucking life." "Everything around me seems to be a mess. What I do, what I want, every single thing is a mess. No one wants to be with me, everyone wants to get away from me and I understand that because I’m a loser." I sniffed the tears that were threatening to fall "No one wants to be with a loser. I know you don’t Ashton so please." I begged him as try not to cry in front of him.

Colour me shocked. We're well on our way home when he finally speaks and it's strained, his voice enveloping the silence in the car. "Keep the shirt, good girl." Do not squeeze your legs shut, Amelia. Whatever you do, do not squeeze your legs shut. I say the two words I've been singing since Miguel Angel Sanchez entered my life. I'm screwed. BeeMiles: Do you still own a functioning I*******m account? Me: I'm insulted. BeeMiles: I'll take that as a yes.

Everything and everyone around me, had been acting weirdly lately, especially bloody ME ! Gawwwddd. Please help me keep my sanity. I think I am gonna lose it any time now !! Hmfph !

Damn Shit. I feel completely trapped here. I look around me with no words to say and chuckle softly and nervously in my position thinking of a very quick way to persuade him and calm him down a little bit. My God this is the absolute biggest fuck up of my life. This is a very huge mess up. If only I can find a way out of this.

Asher hurriedly walked out of Maggie's apartment. He can't believe what he just did was so lame. "Fuck me! I shouldn't have answered that call in the first place. I'm total rubbish. She hurt me and dumped me a long time ago. What else is to get back together?", he was whispering to himself while hopping inside his car. He took a deep breath and get a grip on the steering wheel of his car. " I need to go home. This is crazy!", he mumbled again and set his engine to go.

All because of one mistake I didn't even do. Now, all I have left is myself. I became a bitch, a slut as most call it. A whore who sells herself for drugs to keep me sane. The Mansion I once lived now turned into a sewage-like place. Nothing but scraps on the table, waking up every day and feeling the same. Asking myself over and over, "When did my life become such a mess?". The beauty men once adored is now slowly fading.