Hating Myself Quotes 소설 & 이야기

I hear him shout at me,not failing to hide the fact that he wad beginning to get frustrated about my present reaction. " ohh what the hell do you want me to do Williams" I suddenly say why flaring up,not being able hold the pent frustration in me anymore. "I mean,the only thing I do perfectly is chase those who love me far away from me" I continue as I took a pause to catch my breath,as I felt like if I continued to go on I would not be able to breath freely. " look what I did with you,and also Nessa, just thinking about my fucking self,a total asshole" I say while exhaling heavily feeling totally angry at myself.

He said taking back his cola. "I'm not saying you shouldn't hate me... I'm saying...you shouldn't hate yourself, you have the right to hate whoever you want, I'm not stopping you but hating yourself...is something. You shouldn't allow hate to do to you" I explained. "Hmm, are you hating yourself?" He asked all of a sudden. "I...I...donno" I stuttered not too sure...but I'm actually sure I am, I hate myself for not protecting Adrian.

But if I stay away from him, I languish. I HATE THESE CONDITIONS! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE EVERYTHING! I HATE, WHY ALWAYS IMMATURE AND CANNOT BE EXPRESS! My body trembled even more and sobbed stronger as I screamed in my heart. I want to give up. I'm sad again. Argh ... This man, mess up my life! The nasty comment from his mouth made me feel like ashes that had no price at all. Not once or twice, I experienced this. A thousand times, I experienced this. Again, I was faced with destiny; I couldn't stay away from it.

This isn’t fair… Why should I be the one suffering at the end when he was the one who made me to be like this…? This isn’t fair… This was truly unfair of you father. I hate you… But all along in my heart I knew, that I wasn’t true enough to myself all along. Because I didn’t hate my father. I hated myself. ----------- ------------- ------------- -Aysha

Each word was a blow, each blow the release of a poisoned memory. “I hate you for every night I spent waiting for a letter, a sign, anything from you, like an idiot! I hate you for never letting me forget the taste of your mouth, the sound of your voice… I hate this desire that corrodes me from the inside, that makes me tremble for you even knowing what you did!” My fists opened, my hands clutching his shoulders, not to push him away, but to dig the pain into him. “And I hate myself…” I sobbed, the most obscene confession slipping out like a cursed secret. “For not being able to truly hate you. Because even now, with your black soul inside me, it’s the only place that still feels… safe.”

Everything comes crashing in around you- And you feel even more darkness than before because it’s a whole life of darkness that swallows you alive. I felt tears drip down my face as I thought about everything I said to him at the Lake. “I’m worse than a terrible person… I just keep hurting you, Conor. With my words and cruel actions!” I whispered to him. “I love you, but I hate myself… You deserve better than this… Why am I such a failure…? Why can’t I just get it together…?” He shut me up with several more kisses. “I am! I don’t deserve to live.”

But the more I wiped, the more the tears fell. I hated this. I hated him. I hated myself. I hated the whole fucking world.

“... If you know what's good for you, you better stop hanging around us.” “Look. The only thing I hate, well I mean other than you are people who hate on themselves for nothing, which you are doing right now so that makes me hate you even more. Basically, that's a lot of hating but in the end, you get what I mean.” "It's horrible,” he said, staring into the cup. “Yeah I know, I don't like people ridiculing themselves and...” “No I mean your tea, it’s horrible.”

I know I can’t hate you and I know that if I don’t hate you I will hate myself. You made me have nightmares, you traumatized me, you put me in a dark position that I can not even begin to describe and you know what hurts more is when I think about that horrible memory, all the good memories I shared with you fade away like it was nothing and just like that I begin to feel hatred for myself because no matter how I try I can not hate you even though you are the reason behind my ten years of miseries.

I hate myself right now. I hate everyone!