Romans & histoires I Know I Deserve More I Just Never Said It

"I'm sorry for ever asking more than I deserve, I just don't want to bother you that's why I left unannounced," All this time I was talking, Jayce stared at me silently, maybe my words are not convincing enough for him or anyone to believe but from a small age. I have learned from my experience to never hope for more than I deserve, cause it's only me who is going to get hurt by my expectations.

My heart melts when she gives me that look, the twinkle in her eyes. I am snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of her voice, “I don’t deserve you”. That is the farthest from true. If anything, I don’t deserve her. After everything I’ve done, I somehow ended up with this girl. The girl I love more than anything. I got her.

He trails off with a pained strain in his voice. "I know that you didn't mean it like that, it's just that... I already feel like I don't deserve you, and it made me think that... Maybe you agreed that I wasn't good enough." I say, rushing to the end, so he doesn't have time to interupt.

“Love, please don’t cry. You are breaking my heart, damn it. Those are just my parents being my parents and you have got to accept them the way that they are.” “No…..I don’t deserve you . You are too good for me to have and to hold. And the funniest thing is that they are right about every single thing that they said. I am taking and taking so much from you without returning. How am I supposed to be happy with myself?”

Maybe a little afraid. But I was also ready. To leave. To begin. To find out who I was when I wasn’t afraid of being seen anymore. And in the quiet, I whispered the one truth I hadn’t said aloud: “I deserve this.”

We have missed enough moments in our lives apart, and there’s no way we are going to wait or miss anymore. This is my forever happy, and it turns out…. I do deserve it. I do deserve her. Mikey was right.

You intimate me I swear to God, you don't deserve me, you don't deserve this life, you deserve better than this person. And I don't want to be this person, I'm tired of being this person, I want to be happy but I can't, because I will always be hunted by my past and every damn guilty and innocent blood on my hands". I didn't say anything, I didn't know what to say. Seeing Amber in this gullible state breaks me into tiny pieces. "I don't deserve you..." "Neither do I", I said and pulled away from the hug. I looked him straight in the eyes.

Stacie's words broke me. To build that app and push Frostward Corporation toward an IPO, I had spent three straight months barely sleeping more than three hours a night. After pulling all-nighters daily like a night watchman, I had landed myself in the hospital more than ten times. But to her, all of that meant less than a man who talked pretty and took credit for other people's work. Just as I opened my mouth to argue, my phone suddenly rang. When I picked up, Mom's desperate pleas came from the other end of the line.

"None that ever mattered. I'm ashamed to say it, but I don't even think about it when I'm with somebody else. No matter how good or how fun it is. It's just sex. This time, I thought about you all the time, and what I was doing to you. And I did it anyway. Now do you understand why I don't deserve you?" "Don't. I thought we were past that. Don't ever say that to me again." She pulled my hips against her, stilling me. "Please, don't. You must know that I don't feel like I deserve you, after all I've been through. You're a Godsend, more than I'd ever dreamed for. Every time you say it, it makes me feel more and more like I'm the one that's not worthy. So please stop. For me."

“I… I don’t deserve this.” I gave him a deadpan look, forcing myself to remain composed. “You’re right. You don’t deserve any of this. But it’s not about what you deserve, it’s never about what you deserve, Alpha. It’s about them. Do so quickly before I change my mind.”