Novel & Cerita I Know I Deserve More I Just Never Said It

“You don’t deserve this.” I didn’t look back. Because if I did, I’d break. I knew I’d break.

I look at her. This woman who walked into my life and turned everything upside down, this woman who nearly died today because of a bond she never asked for, this woman I love more than I've ever loved anything. "I don't deserve you," I say. "No." She almost smiles. "But you're stuck with me anyway."

Just the man I loved. "Because I want to do this right," he said. "You deserve more than a stolen kiss in the dark. You deserve the moon. You deserve the pack bearing witness. You deserve a claiming that means something. You deserve everything. You deserve the world. You deserve all of me. You deserve the best of me." I let out a breath, half laugh, half sigh. "That's romantic."

“I know you do. I’ve always known that part, even when I was angriest.” “I don’t deserve you,” he said, his voice cracking again. “I know that. I don’t deserve a second chance. I don’t deserve anything from you. But I’m going to try. I’m going to spend every day trying to deserve you. For the rest of my life, if you’ll let me.”

This was not the life I wanted. Perhaps, I was beginning to deserve better than I did few months back. I sighed. “You've always deserved better. Maybe you've never really allowed yourself think that way, but you actually do.” My wolf said in a small tone. I straightened my back. “I should say it now when I wake up every morning. I deserve better, and that would come to me in due time,” I said.

“That’s not true. I love you, Ella. I always have. I know I don’t deserve you, but let me try. Let me show you I can be the man you deserve.” I took a deep breath, trying to calm the turmoil in my chest. “Marcus, I deserve more than that. I deserve someone who doesn’t cheat on me, who doesn’t make me doubt myself. I deserve to be happy. And I can’t be happy with you. Not anymore.”

Realizing that I could not win over him, I told him, "Okay..Will you give me your phone now ?? " "Ofcourse shaky..I will give you but before that you have to say I love you rakshith.." I got furious after hearing his words..Is he thinking I was a toy ??..I'm not a puppet to act like he says..Yes..I loved him and still loving him but I don't allow him to use me as he wish..I will not say that word to him because he don't deserve it..He don't deserve my love..He don't deserve my selfless love..I even went to work as a cleaner for him but in return he used me like an tissue paper and threw it away..I got more angry while remembering all his insult words..I shouted to him,

He asked and I stared at him. “You don’t deserve me even though you are the best person I have ever met. You are a great family guy and you have values and everything. But I can’t do this and that too because of already many disappointments in the bag to even bear a small one.” I replied and felt his hands leaving my face. “Good bye!” I mumbled and started walking towards the stairs. “Just give us a small chance.” I heard his whisper which I ignored completely reaching my room and locked the door.

We communicated effectively. Yet, as I stood before them, I wanted to cry, since I feel like I didn't deserve either of them. Really and truly, I thought that they would never want someone like me for whatever reason. "I feel like..." I said humiliated, trying to form words cohesively. "I don't deserve either of you." They both tsked me in unison, knowing the difference. "We want you. We always have. We just didn't want to tell you."

"I will never touch you, not unless you want me to; I will never hurt you, not again, not ever." "Now you want to be good; after you've taken everything I loved and everything I am away, you want to be a better person, and you expect me to do what? Jump into your arms and declare my undying love for you? I would never love you; you don't deserve to be loved." I was in tears now; even if I wanted to be strong, all the memories were just too much. "...You deserve..."