Novel & Cerita If You So Desire My Despair

When wandering healer Elara Nightvale is dragged to the cursed court of the Dragon King, she expects death not the dangerous pull she feels toward the man everyone calls a monster. Gifted with forbidden healing magic that drains her life with every use, Elara has spent years hiding her power. But in the dark kingdom of Ashenrealm, her abilities awaken something ancient and deeply tied to the king himself. Verath Dravenor, ruler of the Ashen Throne, carries the soul of the last dragon and a curse that turns desire into destruction. The closer he grows to someone, the more unstable his power becomes. Lovers have died. Allies fear him. He has sworn never to want anyone again. Until Elara arrives. Her presence calms the dragon within him yet ignites an obsession he cannot control. Forced into proximity after an assassination attempt and rising rebellion, Elara and Verath become reluctant allies. She heals his wounds; he shields her from enemies who would exploit her rare bloodline. With every touch, their bond deepens, blurring the line between survival and forbidden attraction. But Ashenrealm is on the brink of war. Rival kingdoms plot to overthrow the Dragon King, while dark magic resurfaces, threatening to unleash an ancient power tied to Elara’s lineage. As Verath’s curse worsens, he must choose: push her away and lose control… or claim her and risk consuming her completely. When passion finally ignites, their magic intertwines in a soulbinding union that could break the curse or destroy the kingdom. In a world where love is dangerous and power demands sacrifice, Elara and Verath must decide if their bond will save Ashenrealm…or burn it to ashes.

Good and evil are just words. I don’t pretend to be the misunderstood hero—I’m the monster who tells the truth even when I shouldn’t. And the truth is, I should’ve walked away the moment she stepped into my bar. Bowen Fox cleans up other people’s messes for Boston’s most dangerous men. He kills, he hides, he buries—and he never feels a damn thing. Until a runaway with cherry-red hair and a fake name walks into his world, turning his carefully controlled life into chaos. Ripley Beretta—now Harley Beaumont—escaped the gilded cage of her mafia family and the arranged marriage that would have sealed her fate. Desperate to disappear, she takes a job at The Fox Hole, never expecting her new boss to be as infuriating as he is irresistible. But Bowen’s past and Ripley’s lies are bound by blood. He was hired to clean up her family’s mess… and she’s the one who made it. When desire turns to obsession, and secrets turn deadly, love becomes the most dangerous game of all. He was sent to destroy her. She might be his only salvation. And when the truth comes out—he’ll wish her hell.

BLURB Cassandra watched as her foster parents and pack were killed by her father and mother, she stared in agony wanting to get revenge on the person who is responsible for their death. The person is the brother of her foster father. She vowed to get revenge but she was just a kid, she was sent to work at a pack where she found out that her mate was the alpha of the pack. She was rejected and she ran away in pain. Her mate thought that she was a human but she wasn't but she was blessed with two wolves. It turned out that the killer of her pack was the one who changed her fate with dark magic, her fate was changed with that of a girl who works for her foster father. She was enraged and wanted to seek revenge but she was caught. She was thrown into an abyss by her uncle. She was enraged to find out that her real parents were killed by the killer of her pack. Will she be able to get out of the abyss alive? Will she be able to get revenge at the end? Will she give up her hope of living because of the torture she passed through in the hands of the people in the abyss?

Esther finally agrees to hang out with her friends after several "No" and "Next time" she decided to join at the bar and ends up getting laid with a woman named Amber, one-night stand leads to a relationship where pressure and conflicts arise and ruined everything as a couple but starts a good friendship which they will learn to see what they missed as Amber realized her feelings for Esther that is about to marry soon... Will she be able to admit it to her best friend/Ex-girlfriend Esther who begins to fall for her as well but keep her feelings hidden for the sake of friendship? A roller coaster ride of breakups, friendship and love the second time around that will satisfy your special kind of love story!

She is meant to forget the past, but she received a new job from her past fiancee a hundred years ago. Not knowing the real, she accepted the job. Your ex-fiancee asked you to kill his brother. But what if you met your hybrid mate and he was your fiance’s brother? Grab your popcorn! Read more about Lucy, Leon, and Cedric’s love triangle.

"Let go of me, can't you see I'm married?" Ashley Carter sacrificed everything for her marriage, believing in love that never truly existed. While she mourned the loss of their unborn child, her husband, Alex Donovan, was too busy warming the beds of other women to care. Grief stricken and trapped in a life of betrayal, Ashley thought she had no way out... until Author Claude entered her world. The mysterious, powerful, and utterly relentless Mr. Claude sees Ashley’s pain and refuses to let it consume her. He awakens the fire she thought had died, offering her not just escape, but a second chance at life, love, and revenge. As Claude shatters the chains holding her back, Ashley must decide... will she cling to the ruins of her past or risk everything for a future where she's truly cherished?

My boyfriend has always doted on me. However, after learning that I can't go to work at the bank after falling and injuring myself, he snaps at me. "Why didn't you tell me you switched shifts with someone else? That was a cheap move!" I don't refute him. Instead, I pull out a hospitalization record as I watch the bank descend into chaos. In my past life, I attended to a couple who wanted to deposit five million dollars into their account. Their child had been diagnosed with a rare illness. They'd gotten the money by selling their organs and mortgaging the home—it was to save their child's life and pay for the surgery the following day. However, the money was stolen the following day. I helped them check where the money was withdrawn, but the surveillance footage showed I was the one who did it. My best friend wept when the couple questioned me. "You shouldn't have stolen the money someone needed to save a life, no matter how materialistic and covetous you are!" My boyfriend hurried over and said, "I wondered why you suddenly had money to buy a car—you stole it! You're heartless!" The child died after failing to receive treatment in time, and the couple stabbed me to death on the streets out of devastation. When I open my eyes again, I think injuring myself will help me escape this. To my surprise, the surveillance cameras once again capture me stealing the money.

A million reasons why we can’t be together, but a billion more why we desire to be. Hikari Yi is a girl of a grim, fatalistic world, the love of a family was never one of her assets. Away from the fallen realm of her father’s menacing territory, she leads an independent life. Little did she know the world she was running away from, was advancing towards her at a pace faster than she was travelling at. Hikari admires a world famous boy band, the ORIONS, consisting of seven members. She somehow receives an offer to look after them as a manager or a caretaker. As unexpected as it looks, it isn't. The more time she spends around them, she grows infatuated with one of the seven. Are the feelings mutual? Is he the one to fill the void of solicitude in her life? Overtime, mysteries unfold, what was Hikari's past? What other plans does she have for the boyband she adore? What secrets has she locked? As it is, it isn’t just her. The Orions, too, have got their own darkness to unravel. ____________________________________ -"Tell me once you again that you love me" -"Reassure me once more that you'll stay forever, that you won't leave me alone." -"Who are you.. No... What are you exactly?" -"I want you Hikari. Now." -"Is that how you talk to your boss?" -"Your clothes are see-through" -"Yakuzas are the most feared mob group" -“This world won’t let us be.” ____________________________________ It's an enthralling, mystery, romance, action thriller. It has everything you've been looking for. High school romance? Office heated relations? Eternal love? Mafia? demons? Vampires? Boys? Best friends? Family? Action? Suspense? It's all there, read to indulge in the roller-coaster adventure!

"They say you cannot really look for love. It is love that finds you. But I had known him forever. Ever since we were little children. Was it not love? Were we not meant to be forever? But he is everything that I ever wanted... I have no other dream or desire. What am I supposed to do without him in my life? Will I survive without his touch?" Hi, I am Lea and this is my story... In a world of hidden truths, Jake and Lea's love is tested by fame, jealousy, and secrets from the past. When family, fame, and rivalry collide, can their love survive the relentless storm? Prepare for a rollercoaster of emotions, betrayal, and a vengeful plot that threatens to tear them apart. Dive into this gripping saga of love, sacrifice, and the ultimate fight for family.

Zephyra thought she had it all: a loving boyfriend, a promising career, and a bright future. But when Jovan dumps her over her reluctance to sleep with him, she seeks comfort in the arms of a mysterious stranger. Little does she know that the stranger is Lirael, the billionaire client she’s trying to impress. Her life turns upside down when she reconciles with Jovan and faces Lirael in a professional setting. Caught in a web of lies, lust, and betrayal, Zephyra must choose between her heart and her future. Will she find true love with Lirael, the man who ignited her passion and broke her trust? Or will she settle for a safe and comfortable life with Jovan, the man who cheated on her and took her for granted? Find out in this steamy and suspenseful romance novel, where nothing is as it seems and love comes at a price.