My Life Would Suck Without You Novels & Stories

It’s not even real laughter—it’s that hollow, bitter kind that comes from knowing you’re utterly, spectacularly fucked. I press my hand over my face, exhaling a shaky breath. “This is how every day is gonna feel like without him, isn’t it?” Empty. Reckless. Fucking unbearable. I already know the answer. And I already know what I have to do. I needed my prettyboy.

he asked, and I took a deep breath before looking him in the eyes. “I’m just grateful for how my life has turned out thanks to meeting you, Mum, and my amazing friends. I kept wondering what my life would have been like without you all. I would have been miserable and helpless, if not dead. Thank you, dad, I love you,” I said.

"You don't mean that. You can't mean that." "Don't I?" I leaned in closer, closer, so close I could feel her breath on my face, see the gold specks I’d never seen before in her blue eyes — the most unholy thing of all. “What if I told you that when I think of a life without you the feeling is so gut-wrenching I can’t breathe? And what if I told you that I walk around every day feeling like I’m in somebody else’s life?”

I couldn’t finish the sentence, not when just the thought would kill me. He looked away again, like he’d just stepped into the ring for another round. “But I can live without children.” I could live without a reality that I’d never had. Live without something that hadn’t come true. Because my love for Bastien and my life with him had completed me since the moment we’d met. “But I can’t live without you.”

Even his closest friend, Richard Bruno, had told me, "Tony's harsh words don't mean anything. He's soft on the inside. If he didn't care for you, why would he keep saving your life?" I had believed them. I had believed in him. I walked down the aisle filled with hope. But when Elma died, I finally understood the truth. He had never loved me at all. His final words—"In the next life, I never want to meet you again"—were a blade I would carry in my heart forever. Now, with this second chance, I decided to honor that wish. He had saved me enough for one lifetime. I only hoped he would live longer this time. And perhaps... I could finally see what my life could be without him in it.

He needed to stay because I didn't know what I would do without him. "Please wake up, because I can't imagine my life without you. I've been alone all my life, until you. I don't want to live without you, I don't, so please wake up", I begged him mercilessly. I needed him to be okay, I needed him in my life every day because he made it better.

He said in desperation, making me turn swiftly just to see what he was about to do. "I cannot function without you, speak without you, I can't live without you in my life. I need you so much like I need air and I'm not even trying to exaggerate right now. I can't just take it that you do not want to see me anymore. How did we get to this point?"

You did nothing wrong. 'I don't know. I just feel the need to.' 'You don't have to. You're not dad who couldn't keep pants up.' I nodded slowly, thinking about the situation. If dad hadn't cheated on mom, there wouldn't have been Zee. How would my life without Zee? Who'll I be? What will I be?' 'But it's really crazy, isn't it? I mean I just woke up one day and discovered my whole life was a lie.' She laughed mitlessky, It's like walking into Hollywood.'

How would life without Blake be like? Splendid! I can tell you this confidently because it has only been a week without him and everything is going well. No guilt, no temptation, no lust, everything is going accordingly. The best part of it all is the bond that Jack and I have. It's so crazy how within a week a person can know so much about another person. It really feels as if I've known Jack for a lifetime. Even though work comes in the way sometimes, we are always together when we have free time, like now.

I need a life without you in it. “ Go to hell.” I typed back swiftly and switched off my phone.