Novel & Cerita Sadly Yes But I Lived

Amber I was not living my best life, but I definitely did not want to die yet. My life was miserable and there were lots of times when I wished to die. But it was simply not the time for me to die yet. I had a family. What would happen to my mother and siblings? They still needed me.

"To kidnapped is not a fun sight Diego, especially at that age. Please just let me try..." "And kill yourself? you want to kill yourself?!!" "I worth it", I said. "And you feel like you don't have a worth , your life doesn't have a worth?". I shrugged sadly, "I don't anything to live for honestly so why not ", I said in a sad whisper.

I just want to hit rewind and stop time and stay at the moment where we are all celebrating life. I already told the doctor that I don't want to undergo any treatment. At first, he was trying to convince me that surgeries, chemotherapies are the best for me. Until I told him my side. I remembered how he took a deep sigh and spoke to me, ' Live your days. I'm happy to meet you in this lifetime.' And honestly, it hurts like hell. He is just a doctor to me, but his words left a scar in my heart.

ERICA Some people say the happiest moments come after you’ve lived the saddest ones. And for sure I have had my fair share of sad moments in my life so I guess my husband here was a god’s gift for all those tears and heartache I suffered. And if someone asked me now if I was given a choice to suffer through the same things, same monsters, if it meant getting him at the end of that dark tunnel then I wasn’t sure if my answer would be a no.

Is has been 19days now since I went through surgery. I was getting better every morning. It seems am actually going to live longer than predicted. I feel so happy. Happy that am going to spend more time with Mike, happy that am not dying anytime soon, happy that am not dying again. Happy that am finally going to live normal like others again. Immediately having kids came to my mind. Finally an going to live a normal life and have kids.

I wish I put them down exactly as he said them. *** “No! It didn’t happen that way! They couldn’t have died if I had!” “Ady, calm down...” I looked at Grandma. With both hands over her mouth, she was crying as she stood in front of me. “Granny, I’m still alive, so my dad and mom are alive, too." I couldn’t hold back anymore. I started crying on the ground. “Daddy... mom...” I’m not old enough to be living alone. Why did I get to live while they didn’t? What happened?

until we both cry in each other's arms. "I drank pills, I cut myself, and I even went to get lost in the wilderness. And when each one of my efforts kept grounding me back to reality, that was when I finally gave up. That was when I decided to live with it, to live with the pain. Since then, I have taken one step in front of the other, trying daily to just live my life. It used to suck but now I have you and baby Jules."

I want to shift often, train with wolves and experience the life I only got to read about. ‘You must have lived an awful life. It’s nothing I can imagine, I’m sorry,’ she said. ‘It’s not a life I would wish on even my worst enemy,’ I muttered, thinking back to the numerous spots on my skin from where different injections had pricked my skin. ‘The pain and hope, the suffering and optimism that things may be better, the agony and the tears, I would be cruel to wish that on anyone. It was a life not worth living but it was the only life I had so I held on with everything in me.’

I'm sorry, but I can't live anymore because of what I've gone through. Please forgive me if I abandoned you and Mother Esme. You are the reason I have lived for eighteen years. You are the reason I endured my own family's pain; I apologize if I go before you. That's something I can't do anymore. I can't take the pain and grief any longer. I apologize for giving up. The longer I live, the more I recall everything that has happened to me. I hope you understand my decision. "It's a good thing you regained consciousness, "

and the next sound I heard was the door banging sound, he closed it the same loud way he closed himself again, and out of my life I couldn't cry, I was far beyond crying, but the most saddest part of it all was that at that very point, I could literally no longer feel my heart anymore, cause it was dead... I was the living dead