The Mother I Could Have Been Novelas e Histórias

Mokunfayo Badmus: You are not their mother, You are not my mother, You're not a mother, You can never be a mother… Weeks after the altercation with both Mike and my nephew, those words they'd left in wake of their cruelty still haunted me in both my sleep, my subconscious and even my wide-eyed consciousness.

*Flashback* ZERON "Zeron, I know that I haven't exactly been the best mother lately and I'm so sorry for that-" mother says to me and I narrow my eyes. "You're sorry, really? I can't believe I'm hearing this from my mother. Who are you and what did you do to the woman who birthed me?" I say, not liking the air of weariness and defeat that is around my mother.

Facing my lifeless body on the floor, it let out a harsh buzzing sound, saying, "Failed! No effort detected. Failed!" Only when the phone's final trace of battery drained did it suddenly fall silent with a soft click. My head rolled and struck the corner of the desk. A workbook that had been lying on the table slipped off and landed at my mom's feet. She lowered her head. The pages were filled with writing. [Mom, I really did try my best. I told you so many times… If there is another life, will you forgive me?] "Erwin!" my mom screamed. She collapsed onto the floor, shaking her head desperately as tears streamed down her face.

My mother could drug minds. Who was Mother?

Perhaps, to them, I was the scum trying to seduce my own father as Mom had claimed. Jenny stood frozen in shock. Her mother rushed out when she heard the noise. Seeing my pitiful state, she instinctively moved to help me up. But Mom yanked me right in front of her. She shouted, "Were you the one who had your daughter lead my daughter astray? Are you trying to help her seduce my husband? You're all trash!" The force of her tug made me stumble. I desperately lowered my head to hide my humiliation. Yet Mrs. Davis stepped in front of me, shielding me with her frail frame. I saw the pity and guilt reflecting in her eyes.

She didn’t want to meet me, but I begged the prison guard for the last visit. “Forget about me, Carys. Take good care of yourself. Don’t end up like me. I’ve made too many mistakes.” Her voice was gruff, and tears rolled down her cheeks. The weight in my chest held me back from saying anything. “You’ll always be my mother,” I said shakily. Mom burst out crying, releasing her innermost emotions. “Be a better person in your next life, Mom. Don’t make the same mistakes again.” She nodded and silently mouthed the words, “I love you”.

He should have stayed dead, and now he can truly be dead. “My mother was Suzu Ayako Yashida. She was a compassionate and beautiful woman inside and out. She was a woman who tried to see the good in everyone, even though it cost her more than once. My mom loved me from the moment she knew she was expecting till the day she was cruelly taken from me. She loved my father from the day they met to the day she died, even if she knew he wasn’t her soulmate.” I got a bit emotional, my voice raising an octave as I told this asshole where I come from.

I’ve failed as a mother. To be continued…

’ ‘We couldn't save the patient. These words keep echoing in my head and my whole body feels numb, my heart is aching and it feels like I'm drawn into an abyss. I can't even hear Wren who is wailing, I can't hear or feel Keiran who's moving my shoulders and probably calling my name. I can't hear anything but a loud ringing in my head. My mother is dead. I couldn't save her. I could not save her, she left me. “Where is my mother??” I don't know where the sudden courage came from. But I charge at the doctor and I grab his collar.

My mother was yelling through the phone. "I'm sorry, Mom, but I'm not giving you the address." I stood firm, although I was trembling to my core. "Oh, Manuela, you can be sure I'll find you, sooner or later, and when I do, I'll give you such a beating that you'll be soaking in brine for days, and just when you think it's over, I'll beat you again and drag you by your hair to the church to marry you to Mr. Calvin's son!" My mother seemed possessed by a demon - no mother should ever make such threats to their child.