Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything Song の小説・ストーリー

Don't stay awake for too long Don't go to bed I'll make a cup of coffee for your head I'll get you up and going out of bed Yeah, I don't wanna fall asleep I don't wanna pass away I been thinking of our future 'cause I'll never see those days I don't know why this has happened But I probably deserve it I tried to do my best But you know that I'm not perfect I been praying for forgiveness You've been praying for my health When I leave this earth

I set my phone to Do Not Disturb and went over to the temple. I was back to my solitary life. I did not know how much I missed it. But it was odd being back around other assistants. They treated me too delicately. They seemed to avoid the subject of love or death all together. It was getting too frustrating so one day I asked. "Alright, spit it out. Why have you all been acting like I would break at any moment?" I asked and they hesitated. "We are worried about triggering you. We heard you husband died," one of them said and I paused, recalling I had infact told one of them over the phone that.

Doja cat was blasting through my subwoofer as I danced around, singing: “Can you kiss me more, we're so young boy, we ain't got nothing to lose..” She's one of my favorite artists. I made eggs for breakfast and inhaled them quickly. “Is it that I'm starving or are these eggs just too good today?” I said to myself,licking my plate clean. After breakfast, I tidied my room, but an overwhelming wave of exhaustion hit me. My body felt like it weighed a ton. “ I'll set an alarm for 10:30am, just to be safe.” I said, yawning,setting it on my phone before dozing off.

I didn’t feel like talking to anyone, but the only person I wanted to talk to was the one I probably shouldn’t be calling right now. I thought about texting Ty too, but even that felt pointless. If Eli still didn’t know the truth, what were the odds Ty would tell me anything? Today already sucked. And it had barely started. I forced myself out of bed and into the shower, dragging my speaker and a full army of hair products along with me. If nothing else, it was going to be a hair day. Music heals the heart, they say. Let’s hope that wasn’t a lie. I clicked on the playlist Eli had made for me a while back, it felt fitting today.

Korbin suggested. Connor shrugged, not caring about the activity as long as they were together. He was happiest when he was with Korbin, even if it meant embarrassing himself at the batting cages. "You just shrugged your shoulders again, didn't you?" Korbin teased. "Maybe," Connor laughed. "It doesn't matter to me what we do. I'm cool with whatever you wanna do." "Cool beans. We'll do that on Saturday. I have to do some cleaning after school on Friday. You can come hang with me, and we can grab something to eat after," Korbin said.

"Dear, who are you talking to?" His calling me that made my face heat, but I played along. "No one important, honey. Go get some rest." Before Jason could explode, I decisively hung up and immediately blocked him everywhere. After that, I let out a long breath. It felt like something that was stuck in my chest for ages finally came loose. Nathaniel brushed my hair gently, a smile tugging at his lips. "Feeling better? Don't worry, there's something even more satisfying coming. Rest early. Tomorrow, we'll have front-row seats to the real show."

Gilbert froze for a second and asked, "What's wrong?" "It's nothing," I replied softly. "I'm just tired." He gently tried to reassure me. "You've been working too hard. Don't stress too much. Let someone take you home to rest, okay?" I looked at him and asked, "Aren't you going home?" He paused before he smiled, "I still need to keep company with my friends. But after the wedding, we'll have a happy future ahead." Hearing his words, I sneered inwardly.

I know that are not there I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again If I am telling the truth Watching my friends break their hearts into two Makes me jealous, I know that it's cruel But what can you do? And it's not fair I keep on writing a sequel to stories I know that are not there I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this I just wanna feel something, I

I shouldn't have said nothing now I'm sitting here all alone still feeling sorry for myself. I cleaned up the kitchen put my food away then went upstairs took a shower put my pajamas on got in the bed and just cried myself to sleep. The next morning when I woke up I still was angry and sad I'm glad today was my day off from work because I didn't feel like doing anything. so I just laid in bed all day listen to Alexa playing old r&b songs like Fantasia if you don't want me don't talk to me go ahead and Free yourself if you don't want me don't talk to me go ahead to someone else.