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Chapter 30 - Supposed to be reconciliation
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Endless Soul Chapter 31 - Cruel Word
One of the things that drives me the craziest about our relationship is that beyond the insecurities, the fights and the ups and downs? It's that, no matter how long two people have known one another, how long both people shared times with each other, it can still be so intensely hard to keep one another, especially when you know things aren’t working out lately.In relationships, with friends, in family situations, at work, or just about everywhere. Being honest with another person, especially about your feelings and the things that bothers you the most, is terrifying. It's super hard actually.And by honest, I don't mean just saying whatever's on your mind, no matter how unpleasant or potentially hurtful it may be. But just as there's a difference between "full disclosure" and "honesty," there's also a difference between "I'm going to tell you what I think you want to hear because I'm afraid to hurt you or lose you in that way, that’s why" and "I need to be honest about my feelings,
Endless Soul Chapter 32 - How one picture breaks it all?
I wasn’t able to read the letter.No, maybe I will never be able to read that, because watching it from afar or even thinking about it makes me sick to death.Five days after my birthday, unregistered phone number just sent me a photo of me and Lexus doing some wonders.I was startled, my phone’s tempered got a cracked on the lower part because my grip to it loosen-up. Nakatakip din ang kaliwang kamay ko sa bibig ko.Paanong…paanong may ganoong lumabas na litrato? It looks like someone took the means to shot a picture. And it wasn’t just an ordinary photo. It was sensitive, intimate, and sensual. Kahit pa sabihin na medyo blurry, my face was clearly shown, people who knows me will recognize me for sure, there’s no doubt. Ako lang naman iyong kita doon sa picture.It leaves no door to choose for more options.“Let’s break up.”I could feel a pile of emotions after emotions inside me but I really tried my best to hold it all because I fucking knew that if one single tear comes out, I’d
Endless Soul Chapter 33 - All Enough
Kahit isang konting silaw lang ng liwanag ay hindi ko nakita.Maybe, I was destined to live in darkness. Baka kasi masyadong na-enjoy ko iyong pagiging masaya ko kaya kailangan manatili na ako sa madilim na parte ng buhay.I always knew this would happen anytime soonest. But shit…bakit naman masyadong mabilis iyong pagbawi sa akin? Bakit…bakit naman masyadong mabilis magpalit ng panahon ang mundo?“How do you feel?” Conan asked me. Hindi ako sumagot.“I don’t wanna live anymore,” I said. Not bothered answering his first question. I then heard him sighed.“There’s more to life than your pain Tala, trust me.” He said.I began crying. It scared myself. It scares me how I couldn’t recognize how beautiful life is. Because I know, at this moment, pain is covering my entire system. I just want to put an end to this. Kasi mas madali na lang kalimutan ang lahat kapag wala na ako sa mundo.“C-can I just e-end this q-quickly?” I said stuttering with every words I said. Nanginginig ang buong kata
Endless Soul Chapter 34 - Left Alone
The emotional damage of the issue for me was too big. I wasn’t getting any better each day that comes. It’s getting hard with people’s trashy look to me. Nakakapagod palagi iyong ganoong senaryo.Lumuwas nga ng manila sina Mama at Papa gaya ng sabi nila. They were a bit angry, lalo na si Papa, pero nangingibabaw pa rin sa kanila ang pag-aalala at pagmamahal sa akin.They were even pulling some strings for me para sampahan ng kaso ang nagpakalat, but it wasn’t enough. Eris father was a senator, and I know how manipulative politics can be, they have all the means and connections, kaya alam kong mababasura rin ang isinampa nina mama at papa.That’s how the system works. If you’re in the seat of power, you can have it all. That’s how cruel the world is.Pumapasok na rin ako, but the days weren’t the same as before. Nandoon pa rin ang pandidiri nila sa akin, but I choose to ignore it real hard, thinking that it will vanish soon. Hindi naman tumatagal ang isyu, makakalimutan din nila iyon.
Endless Soul Chapter 35 - Catching Light
Hinang-hina akong pumasok sa loob ng kwarto habang hinahagilap ang cellphone ko. I called Cha and told her about what happened. kasama niya si Kaila, kaya sabay silang pumunta rito sa bahay.“Ang s-sakit…” I sobbed.Humarap sila sa akin, at dahil sa lubusang pagpikit ko habang umiiyak ay hindi ko na makita ng masyado ang itsura nilang dalawa.“Just cry it out, we’ll be there with you.” Kaila uttered before pulling me into a tight hug. Cha on the other hand sat beside me and caressing my bach while she was resting her head in my shoulder.Para akong batang pinapatahan nilang dalawa because I couldn’t stop crying. My body was shaking in pain and anger. Lahat ng mag sinabi ni Lexus sa akin kanina ay tumatak sa isipan ko, everything sank-in. and I never imagine that he will be the one who would break me totatlly.Gusto kong magpahinga pero iyong puso ay damang-dama pa rin ang kaninang pangyayari.“Shh…all things happened for a reason Tala, good or bad, trust me. But please know that we ar
Endless Soul Chapter 36 - You Have Done so Well
Lights…more lights…I never knew that a simple glimpse of light would give me hope.Namamanhid man ang buong katawan, ay sinikap kong mas mapalapit pa sa mga ilaw. Hanggang sa napalapit na nga ako rito. I see hope.May umilaw sa likod ko kaya mabilis akong tumingin doon kahit nanghihina at hindi na gaanong stable ang paghinga ko.“Tulungan n-niyo po a-ako…” halos mapaluhod na ako sa harap ng isang babae dahil sa pagod at hapdi sa lahat ng katawan ko. Mabilis naman akong dinaluhan ng ginang at inakay papasok ng sasakyan niya. I see no hesitation.Kahit puno ako dumi, he let me in. I was still shaking even after getting inside. Hindi pa rin kami umaalis, and it scared me baka abutin ako o kami.“Please l-let’s go, maaabutan niya ako, at s-siguradong p-papatayin niya a-ako, pagsasamantalahan niya a-ako.” I uttered. The woman gave me a scarf. Kahit taranta siya, she still managed to take care of me. Nang sabihin ko ulit sa pangalawang pagkakataon na umalis na kami ay nagmaneho siya ulit.
Endless Soul Chapter 37 - Shoot for the Moon
Conan made it all easy for me. I thought it’s going to be real hard, but it was actually a lot easier with him. And I like where is this thing is headed to. And for those days, I’ve learned how to like him as a man, but we aren’t really talking about that. Isa pa, hindi ko pa alam kung handa na ba akong magmahal muli sa pangalawang pagkakataon.Masyadong nasanay yata ako palagi sa presensya niya, lalo pa at lagi rin ako sa bahay nila dahil gustong-gusto lagi ni tita Cora na doon ako sa kanila. Gusto ko rin naman talaga pumunta dahil nakaka-relax tumambay sa garden nila.Kaya madalas kapag nandoon ako sa kanila ay naging bonding na namin ang magtanim sa garden nila. Conan’s family is very welcoming and kind. Parang naging instant ampon ako ng pamilya nila, kulang na lang ay papel.“Tita, nanawakin ko muna anak niyo buong araw bukas,” pagpapaalam ni Conan kay mama sa cellphone. “Okay lang po ba?” dagdag niya pa saka ako kinindatan.Napatawa na lang ako sa kanya habang umiiling.“Aba’y n
Endless Soul Chapter 38 - Destiny’s Way
On the month of February, exactly 7th day of the month – I passed the BAR exam. On the same day, Conan and I are officially a thing. I am happy of course, but I think my parents, nanay fely and tita Cora are happier as we announced them.I couldn’t be happier, imagine achieving your dreams steps by steps and having a man that supports you in all your doings, who understands your pain, who effortlessly makes me smile, and someone who loves me.I was achieving it one by one, though it was slow – I made sure it will be targeted anytime soon, and I just powerfully did.I had a great support system. I admit, it would be much difficult for me if it weren’t for their cheers and love, and I’ve made it all because they are with me in my battles. Indeed, I wasn’t all alone.After the tragedy, I thought people will just remember me as a girl in the scandal and will mock me always, or that any law firm here wouldn’t want to associate with me or accept me because of it.Pero may mga tao talaga na
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