Her Raging Flame - (Tagalog)

SAVANNAH'S POV

"Let's end this relationship" Levi's words were like a sharp knife that pierced my soul from many angles causing me to feel pain all over my body

"I...I don't understand, did I do something?" I managed to say as I tried to hold onto his hand, he pulled away from my touch as if I were a poisonous plant and stepped back.

"I don't have to explain myself to you, this is what I want," He said, not a hint of remorse or pity in his voice. Tears began to roll down my face as I began to understand the extent of the issue at hand.

I struggled to find my voice as I asked him, "Is...Is there someone else?"

"No" His reply was quick and cold. I expected more but it never came. "Levi, please don't do this to me, don't do this to us" I pleaded as I fell to my knees in front of him.

"There is no us Savannah" My mouth dropped open at his choice of words. They were delivered with a harshness that shattered my heart into countless fragments, I could not bring myself to think that Levi, who loved me so deeply was now pushing me away, without any explanation.

Tears continued to stream down my cheeks as I pleaded with him to stay, to give us another chance. But it seemed like he had made up his mind because he wasn't even looking at me anymore. His eyes were very cold and distant.

As Levi turned to leave, a surge of desperation filled me up, I had to at least know why he was leaving me. "Please, Levi, tell me why you are suddenly doing this. At least tell me what I did wrong," I begged.

But Levi remained silent, and that alone spoke such loud words. It was enough to make me realize that he had made up his mind and I just couldn't change it.

He walked out the door without a backward glance and I was all alone in the bedroom. A room that was filled with so many memories of us, memories where we made love for the first time and of the nights we went to bed cuddled up after a misunderstanding.

Realization hit me when I realized that it was over now. How could he throw all that we have away? How could he let go of my hand?

Slowly, I fell to the floor, my sobs echoing in the silence. The weight of his words and absence pressed down on me, suffocating me with grief and confusion. How could everything we shared be so easily discarded?

And just like that, a life I had envisioned with Levi was suddenly a closed chapter and all that was left was a life of loneliness ahead.

*****

I found comfort in the bottle of red wine after hours had gone by since the breakup. Each gulp made me feel so alive and disgusted at the same time. The tingling sensation surged through my throat, intensifying with each passing second.

I clenched my mouth tightly, desperately trying to suppress the impending force that threatened to escape, but despite my best efforts, the urge grew stronger, overpowering my grip.

I couldn’t hold it back any longer and vomited right there. "Crap" I exclaimed as I stared at the red wine I had just consumed.

I had been feeling nauseous for a while now but didn't throw up. I went to the mall and just decided to get a pregnant test strip to test it last week but never got to take it.

Could I be pregnant or I was just overthinking things? Whatever it was, I had to find out. I rushed into the walk-in closet and began my search for the pregnancy test strip, I found it sitting at the bottom of the Dior bag that Levi bought for me on Valentine's Day last year.

I rushed into the bathroom to take the test and after, I let it sit on the table while I waited for the result, trembling with fear as what would happen if I was truly pregnant crossed my mind. Five minutes was finally over and I reached for the pregnancy test that had the clearest positive result I have ever seen.

I am pregnant? This wasn't the next step after what just happened today. What was I going to do now? Nothing made sense at that moment. How could this be happening to me? I had always been cautious. I wasn’t ready for a baby, not when Levi was no longer in my life.

I managed to reach out for my phone to tell Levi that I was carrying his child. My fingers trembled, and tears blurred out my vision, I began searching for Levi's number on my phone but it was out of reach. I searched everywhere and other social media but I couldn’t gain access to him. He had blocked me.

But I knew fully well that I just couldn't do this alone, The weight of responsibility settled heavily on my shoulders. As I sat there, tears streaming down my face, the nausea returned with a vengeance. My body convulsed, and I felt the familiar tingling sensation in my throat. The reality of my situation hit me like a tidal wave.

Now the morning sickness, and the throwing up every day all made sense. How would this change my life? Would I be able to pursue my dreams while raising a child?

Doubts and fear rained over me like they were threatening to consume me. Yet, amidst the chaos, I wiped my tears and took the first shaky breaths, I made a silent vow to love myself first, before anyone else. This was not going to end my dreams. It was a new chapter. Life threw me a curveball, but I was ready to face it. Slowly, I rose from the bathroom floor and vowed that I would get my revenge on Levi Carson, even if it was the last thing I did.