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Natasha's POV

The cake was the first wrong thing.

I saw it before I heard anything else — sitting on the dresser through the half-open bedroom door, twenty-two pink candles unlit, my name looped in careful icing. I'd told Ethan not to make a fuss. He'd promised something small. This was small. A cake, waiting in the dark, nobody around to light it.

Then I heard the sound under the sound.

Not the TV. Not music. Something with a rhythm to it, low and unhurried, coming from behind a door I'd walked through a hundred times without knocking.

I told myself it was nothing three separate times before my hand reached the doorknob anyway.

I wish it had been nothing.

Ethan's back was to me, his hands fisted in dark hair that wasn't mine. The woman under him arched her spine the exact way I did — because we'd been arching our spines the exact same way since before either of us knew what a body was for. Same collarbone. Same laugh, currently being spent on someone else's ceiling.

My sister's face turned toward the door before his did.

She didn't flinch. She didn't reach for a sheet. Noel looked at me over Ethan's shoulder the way you'd look at a waiter who'd brought the wrong order — mild irritation, nothing more — and then she smiled.

"Oh." She didn't lower her voice. Why would she. "Perfect timing, actually. Blow out your candles first, or should we finish?"

I heard myself make a sound I didn't recognize.

Ethan twisted around, and there wasn't a flicker of shame on him either — just the flat annoyance of a man interrupted mid-task. "Jesus, Nat. Ever heard of knocking?"

"It's your birthday, sis, not a crime scene," Noel said, sliding out from under him with the unhurried grace of someone who had never once in her life been caught doing anything she considered wrong. She reached for his shirt off the floor — his shirt, not hers — and pulled it over her head like she was claiming territory. "Don't look so tragic. It's not attractive on you. Then again—" her eyes dragged down me, slow, cataloguing, "—not much is."

"Get out," I said. My voice came out smaller than I wanted.

"This is Ethan's apartment," Noel said. "You're the one who let yourself in. Maybe if you'd been around more instead of at the gym pretending it does anything—"

"Noel." Even Ethan said it like a warning, and for one stupid half-second I thought he was defending me.

He wasn't.

"Don't start a fight in my bedroom," he said, tugging on his boxers, bored. Bored, like I was an inconvenience arriving at a bad time, not a woman standing in the doorway of the life she'd built for three years watching it get repossessed. "You knew this was coming, Natasha. Don't act shocked."

"I gave you a kidney." The words scraped out of me raw. "Six months ago I was on a table, Ethan. For you."

"And I've thanked you for it every day since, haven't I," he said, and the cruelty in his flatness was worse than if he'd shouted. "Doesn't mean I have to keep paying for it forever. A man has needs, Nat. Needs you stopped meeting a long time ago."

"What is that supposed to mean—"

"It means look at yourself," he said, gesturing, almost gentle about it, like he was doing me a kindness by finally saying it out loud. "You used to at least try. Now you just — spread. I used to hold you and feel like I was hugging a sack of something. I don't know when I decided I couldn't do it anymore. I just did."

The room went very quiet.

Noel laughed — not loud, just a small, satisfied exhale through her nose, the sound of someone watching a prediction come true. "See, this is the thing about you, Nat. You've spent your whole life waiting for someone to finally say what everyone's already thinking." She buttoned one more button on Ethan's shirt, unbothered, luminous, everything I had never once in my life managed to be standing next to her. "I didn't take anything from you. I just took the parts of being you that actually work."

"You're my sister." It came out like a question. Like I still, somehow, needed her to explain why that hadn't mattered.

"I'm your twin," Noel said, and something flickered behind her eyes for exactly one second — not guilt, nothing so generous as guilt, just recognition, cold and clean, of exactly how deep the knife was going in. "Which means I know precisely what you look like without the angles and the lighting and the clothes you buy to hide in. I've had to look at it my whole life too, Natasha. At least now it's doing someone some good."

I don't remember deciding to move. I remember the crack of my palm against her cheek, sharper than I expected, and the half-second of silence after it where I thought — stupidly, desperately — that maybe now, finally, something would land. That she'd cry, or scream, or show me anything at all behind that face we shared.

She touched her cheek. Smiled wider.

"There she is," Noel said softly. "Knew you had one good hit left in you."

Ethan's hand caught me before I understood he'd moved — an open palm, hard, across my face, snapping my head sideways and lighting my vision white at the edges. I stumbled into the doorframe. Caught myself on it. Stood there with my cheek burning and my ears ringing and neither of them moving to help me up.

"You're pathetic, Natasha," Ethan said, straightening his collar like I'd wrinkled it by existing. "Always so much. Always needing to be managed. Noel doesn't need managing. She just is what she is."

"He means she's easy," I heard myself say, and it cost me everything I had left to say it.

Noel's smile didn't move. "I mean I'm what he actually wants," she said. "There's a difference between easy and desired, sweetheart. You'd know that if you'd ever been either."

I didn't argue. I didn't have anything left to argue with. I turned, and the door was heavier than any door has ever been, and I don't remember my hand finding the handle so much as I remember being on the other side of it, in a hallway, alone, with my cheek still stinging and my whole chest hollowed out like something had reached in and scooped out everything that used to live there.

Three years.

Three years, one kidney, and every version of myself I'd shrunk down trying to fit into the shape of a woman he could love — and it still hadn't been enough, because the entire time, there had been a smaller, sharper, better version of me sleeping four blocks away, waiting for her turn.

I don't remember the elevator. I remember the parking garage, fluorescent and empty, and my hands shaking too hard to find my keys, and the cake — I'd left the cake — twenty-two candles nobody would ever light now, sitting on a dresser in an apartment that used to have my toothbrush in the bathroom.

I got the car started. I didn't know where I was driving. I just knew I couldn't be anywhere that had a mirror.

The club found me before I found it. Neon bleeding through the windshield, the kind of bass you feel in your teeth before you hear it. I don't remember parking. I remember the bartender's face when I said whiskey in a voice that didn't sound like mine, and I remember not caring what he thought.

"Another," I said, after the first one didn't do anything except make the room tilt slightly, gently, like it was trying to be kind about it.

"Ma'am, maybe—"

"Did I ask." Not a question. He poured.

Four drinks in, Ethan's voice and Noel's smile had melted into the same sound, on a loop, sack, sweetheart, easy, desired — and I couldn't tell anymore which one of them was saying it, only that it was still true no matter whose mouth it came out of.

I don't remember standing up so much as I remember the floor deciding to move without me. Bodies everywhere, sweat and bass and neon, and I pushed through them like I was trying to get somewhere, though there was nowhere left to get to.

I hit something solid. A wall, I thought, except walls don't have a heartbeat you can feel through a shirt.

I looked up. Dark hair. A jaw set like it had never once apologized for anything. Eyes as glassy and wrecked as mine.

For one merciful, stupid second, drunk enough to believe it, I thought: Ethan.

"Take me home," I whispered, my hands already fisted in his shirt like it was the only solid thing left in the building. "Please."

I didn't wait to see if he was going to say yes.

My mouth found his, and instead of stepping back, he kissed me like he'd been waiting his whole life for someone to stop asking permission — rough, certain, one hand sliding to the small of my back like he already owned the space it occupied.

For the first time since I'd walked through that door and heard a sound that wasn't the TV, I didn't feel like a sack of anything.

I didn't know his name. I didn't ask it.

All I knew, with the last clear thought I had that night, was that he wasn't Ethan Clark.

And that, God help me, was more than enough.

I woke up to sunlight I didn't remember inviting in, in sheets that weren't mine, in a bed built for someone who'd never had to think twice about the cost of anything.

There was blood on the sheet beneath me. Cash on the nightstand, folded once, precise, like an afterthought someone had budgeted for in advance.

No name. No note. No him.

I sat there a long time, staring at money I understood, with a growing, sick clarity, was meant to be an apology — or a payment. I still hadn't decided which insulted me more.

I left it exactly where it was.

I didn't know his name yet.

But three weeks later, I would learn it — printed under a headline, above a photograph of the two of us that should never have existed, in a city that was about to decide I belonged to him whether either of us had chosen it or not.