All Chapters of His Soul & His Shame: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

"What are you guys doing in there!" Izzy's voice drawled out accusingly making my blood boil at the way she is trying to picture the situation." What does a girl and a boy do in a public toilet, Izzy?" I throw the words at her with the intention of making it clear that whatever she is planning in her head about Ezra and her are not going to happen." Ummm…I didn't think…" I didn't let her finish and just held Ezra's hand smiling sweetly at her and left the washroom. Joanna's mouth opened wide at our conjoined hands and her eyes wide with surprise and awe shining. " That's my girlie!" She beamed at me getting up from her chair and engulfing me in a bear hug. I didn't know she was pining for Ezra and I." It's time you guys eventually held hands and showed each other off." Joanna beamed with happiness and pride like we are her children. " Stop it, Joanna!" I grumbled, taking my place at the table and Ezra followed behind me and sat down still holding my hand tightly like he doesn't

" Fay! What are you doing here!" Izzy's voice reached my ears when i'm reaching for the champagne glass. Alex is talking business with some old people and I'm bored out of my mind. It's been half an hour since we entered the hall and iam successfully avoiding her and him but I guess i don't have luck." Same reason as yours, Izzy." I snap, hiding my sneer with the glass and taking a large gulp of the bubbly liquid to cool down my anger." Why are you snapping, Fay!" She is trying to be nonchalant and innocent like she doesn't know that I am coming here and she didn't even already see me outside.How much she can fake! I thought she is a genuine and loving person but now she is showing her true colors like a chameleon." I am not snapping at you, Izzy. I'm just already bored and excuse me." I started walking blindly not wanting to wait and listen to her anymore. I Am running out of my patience and I don't want to create any scene here.Iam not going to cry over him anymore and I don't

" Is he still outside?" I asked Joanna who is entering our new apartment. She came with me when I left the next morning after the gala. My heart couldn't bare to be in the same place as Ezra and not be with him. " Yeah! As usual. Why don't you go and talk to him, Fay!" I know, I should talk to him and tell him to go back home and stop waiting for me as it's impossible to ignore him and see him waiting for me outside our apartment every single day since four months back.I know he is trying and repenting, he never chased me but still waits outside my apartment and walks with me to the subway and back to the apartment.My heart aches seeing him trying to get me back but the hurt we both gave to myself stops me from approaching him and forgiving him." It's not the best idea when I'm not sure if I can forgive him. If I go and talk to him then I will repeat the same toxic cycle." Joanna nodded her head in understanding and went to her room to freshen up.Izzy and I broke ties with each o

" Wake up! You sleepyhead. '' Joanna banged on my bedroom's door making me groan in annoyance. I was up till late at night talking to Ezra on the phone and dreaming about him and the way his hands and mouth felt on my body. I was shamelessly having erotic dreams about Ezra and I am darn horny right now and also super annoyed at the fact that I can't do anything about it. Why don't I send Ezra a sexy picture and provoke him to come and have his way with me? It's a great idea and it will work. I mostly sleep naked all the time and right now I am not wearing anything so it will be helpful to tease Ezra. I retrieved my phone from the nightstand and pulled down the duvet slowly showing my b**bs slightly, he can see half of them. With a big grin on my face and biting my lip, I clicked a picture and sent it to him and waited for him eagerly to text me back but my phone rang startling me. Ezra is face-timing, I answered the call not showing him my face but a duvet-covered body of mi

Ezra's Pov:I can't believe Fay is sitting beside me and i'm taking her on a date. Date! I never in my dreams thought I would be a date kind of guy but with Fay i would do anything even if I have to change into a fucking clown then I will happily do it.Being with Fay makes me a different person and keep my demons at bay. She hasn't seen the real me and i am not planning on showing it to her because when i'm with her i forgot that side of me who is cold, calculated and ruthless. " Where are we going, Ezra!" Fay bounced on her seat making her dress to slightly ride up her thigh making her milky skin available for my eyes.I was 0n the brink of losing my control when we were kissing in Fay's apartment but I need to do everything according to her and I want to give her a fairy tale she always dreamed about and ate my ears off when we were kids." Baby girl! Slow down! It won't be a surprise if I tell you." She pouted her pink lips making me chuckle.I never believed in relationships and