188 Raja

重度の全身性エリテマトーデスを患い、余命はわずか三日。 188回目の救いを求める電話も夫に無情に切られたその日、私は検査報告書を抱え、終末ケアセンターの扉をそっと押し開けた。 「すみません、自分の火葬の段取りをお願いしたくて……」 ——わずか十分後。 彼らは嵐のように現れた。 まだ何も語っていない私に向かって、夫は無表情のまま平手打ちを見舞う。 弁護士であるその男の目には、一片の迷いもなかった。 「妹に嫉妬して、今度は難病の演技か？」 続いて現れた医師の兄は、私の手から診断書を奪い取るなり、一瞥して冷笑を漏らす。 「エリテマトーデス？そんな確率の低い病名、よく思いついたもんだな」 身体の痛みに震えながら、私は静かに再び受付へと歩み寄り、申請書と診断書を差し出した。 職員は、私の手首に浮かぶ赤い痕に一瞬だけ目を落とし、そっと視線を逸らす。 「家族はいません。 三日後の火葬を希望します。場所はどこでも構いません。誰にも迷惑をかけず、静かに幕を下ろしたいんです」

TRIGGER WARNING: The book contains highly explicit and detailed depictions of sexual abuse, including childhood abuse, grooming, and assault. It also addresses severe trauma, self-harm, suicide, physical violence, substance abuse, and emotional and physical pain. Reader discretion is strongly advise. -------------- Tales who have a strong obligation to live no matter what, was taken as a sex slave because of his mother's debt to an organization, and he was being subdued by what he despise the most, gangsters, but because of his poor physique he was tossed aside and will likely be killed. That's when he tried to murder the boss, if he'll gonna be dead, might as well take the boss to hell with him. His naive thinking and strong sense of living captures the interest of the delinquent Ra Ja. 'You completely turned me on. ' Is what he said after being stabbed by Tales on his left hand. Ra Ja then makes him as his personal bodyguard. Can't figure out what the man is thinking, Tales can't help but be wary as he devise a new plan to escape the lion's den while carrying the head of the leader. Will his plan be successful or will it go astray and takes him to unfamiliar bloody dark path? A lot of secrets will be uncovered. What he thinks he is now might not actually be him. But seems like he's not the only one scheming the next move. Raja kept making actions that will drive him mad, crush his will and push him to the corner with no escape. A thug of war with rotten love, prideful altercation and bloody relationships.