Novel & Cerita Bad Thinking Diary Chapter 1

Amelia screamed. “Keep reading,” Nate said. She flipped the page. It had all the stuff he loved about her, including the things she did to annoy him. She flipped to the second page. Which said how much he liked her butt. “Very funny,” Amelia said. Nate smirked at her reaction. She kept flipping the pages. The book was full of things that made her laugh. She finally reached the final page of the book and paused. Her heart started to hammer against her chest. She felt like her whole world was spinning.

Was Keagan messing with my head? Fuck this, I thought and retrieved the book from the carpeted floor. Automatically, i dusted the covers and flipped it open. But as my eyes ran over the words on the page, my pulse quickened and bile rushed to my throat. –Dear diary… It felt like a stone had dropped into my belly and blindly i found myself walking backwards until I plopped onto the edge of the bed. My fingers shook and I began flipping through the pages, my eyes wet with tears, fingers shaking as I read through, trying and failing to make everything untrue.

' Dear Diary, I found myself conversing again with my dear friend, reminiscing about an old memory that we had almost forgotten. About Love, Struggle, and Prayer. It shook me a bit at first, making me reconsider. Can I? Should I? Can I fight, disregard all the negative thoughts in my mind? But I am afraid alone. What if the struggle doesn't end beautifully? Not for me, but for him? Should I fight? Considering that the future at stake is not just mine. But also his?

Chapter Fifteen: bad girls get punished No, this can't actually be happening to me. I actually can't believe this! Damien Blackwood kills people! This isn't one of my wild, low-key insane fantasies of him being a psycho in a suit, of him living a secret life as a ruthless mafia boss- I wasn't turned on in this situation, That's why fantasies should be just that- fantasies. This has by far been the worst day of my life, after the day I found out that mom had been shot dead.

It's as if all of the exam tension had sucked all the words from my brain. Urgh... I hope this chapter wasn't that bad... I mean I get it that it was bad, but not THAAAAAAAT bad... I will have to come back edit it somehow... Sigh... RARE We all waited.

“It was so stupid.” “What was?” “My plan,” he gripped her finger in his large hand, “I was thinking he’d go away, and I’d swoop in. I would go your father’s house, it was why I was there. I’d congratulate you on your graduation and offer to take you out for dinner to celebrate. I would flirt with you a bit and you would fall for my charms and then we would be together.” His swallowing was loud, “in my head, I guess, I didn’t consider it would hurt you. Arriving to your parents’ house, hearing the sobs as your heart broke, was like a smack to the face. The reality of the situation far outweighed my romantic fantasies.”

Just space. She wrote at the top of a new page, pen moving slow: _Chapter 1_ _The day I almost broke_ She paused. The ink dried while she remembered. The night she’d cried in the office bathroom at 3 AM. The day her hands shook so bad she couldn’t hold coffee. The moment she realized she didn’t remember the last time she’d done “nothing” and felt okay about it. Under it she wrote: _Chapter 2_ _The day I decided not to_

Chapter 7 I like to think of myself as a very rational woman. Fuck! Who am I kidding? I'm the kind of person therapists makes millions from. In less than twenty-four hours, I had made a string of bad decisions that were more than enough to qualify me for my own reality show. And now, I was standing right in the middle, the consequences staring at me in the form of two really hot men. At least I've got good taste in men. Jesus, Daisy. Focus!

I felt Dione retreat as I made this decision as she stated clearly that she wasn't going to be responsible for my actions if Kieran finds me. With trembling hands, I slowly pulled away the elastic band that kept the boom sealed and opened the first page. At the very top, there was a date and a month: 27th April The pack is starting to get worried about my mental state. I can already hear rumors going round that I'm slowly loosing it. I want to prove them wrong, but I can't. Not until I find it. When I find the.... Before I could even read another word, one of the loudest and most vicious roars rented the air, shaking the entire house and even dropping things that were on the counters.

“Don’t... Theo, don’t underestimate him. He’s dangerous. He is not completely cured from his sickness. He was just released by his mother. You know her, she is very much of an evil Queen. I have met her before, she is sicker than Chase. They all are not normal." He didn’t respond right away, but I could feel the tension in him. I couldn't understand why he was not reacting and repressing all it. “You don’t understand,” I continued. “He’s not normal. He’s mentally ill… some kind of psycho. I saw it. I read it. He has been obsessed with me since we were teenagers. For some sick reason he wants me. I don't know why he is targeting me.” The images came back all at once. The diary. My name was wr