My secret lover
But now, he was completely different.
I hated getting lost in my thoughts so much, plunging into a whirlwind of memories and feelings that seemed to consume me entirely. And in that moment, I realized how I was starting to hate Christmas, a time that used to be filled with light and joy, was turning into a personal nightmare. I had nothing to celebrate, nothing to be grateful for; the essence of Christmas seemed to have evaporated from my life, leaving only a deep void. There was no reason to smile, not even a sweet memory to warm my heart.