I Didn't Know My Own Strength Novels & Stories

“I didn’t know the truth until it was too late.” “You should have known,” he said, stepping closer. His expression was a storm of sorrow and anger, a storm I couldn’t escape. “You should have fought harder.” Each word felt like a blow, reverberating through me and dredging up every moment of self-doubt, every memory of failure. My knees threatened to buckle under the weight of his grief, but I forced myself to stay standing. “I didn’t know how,” I whispered, my voice breaking. “I didn’t know what I was capable of.”

I’m sure he wants to appease his people by handing me over to them. It hurts though… I know I have to stand up for myself but I can’t help to want to depend on him. Tears sting my eyes and I blink them back. I’m not weak… well, I am. But no one has to know that apart from myself. Only when I accept how weak I am will I be able to grow stronger. You can’t be strong when you don’t know how it feels to be weak and it doesn’t feel good.

Now what? "Then what am I supposed to do? I want to remember," "You don't even know why you did so in the first place," "Because I wanted a chance at life? To begin afresh?" In an instant, I found myself clutching the gates once more, yearning for an answer. "Perhaps. However, that's not the point," "Why?" "I believed you were stronger than this, Kaleya. I believed I was strong enough," My brows furrowed. "I was never strong," I clarified, stating the obvious, as I had never been capable of fending for myself. To claim that I was strong would be nothing short of shocking, given my history as both a disaster and a disappointment on the battlefield.

With all the power in me, I pushed so hard, and I wasn’t minding if my arms would be off in the next few minutes. To the shock of my life, the door opened so wide, and it was time for me to run as fast as I could, but my Strength was too weak. I fell down flat, holding the door, and I crawled bit by bit. Coming up to my feet, I staggered with my head down and my arms lingering, breathing heavily. I looked left and right, and to make another step forward, I fell down flat again. “No, I can’t just give up here, I can do this” I whispered to myself.

"Remember - you're not alone anymore. If you need me, follow the path deeper into the woods. I'll know you're coming." I stand on shaking legs, but something has changed inside me. The tea, the charm, the knowledge that I'm not crazy - it's given me something I thought I'd lost forever. Strength. Not the kind that comes from being fearless, but the kind that comes from deciding to stand up anyway. "I won't run anymore," I say, the words surprising me as they come out. "I don't care if I'm not ready. I won't spend my life hiding from shadows."

No one can know. Hell, they already see me as weak, fragile and nothing but a woman who holds no power. If anyone found out, they would use it, I guess I was wrong. I do have a weakness, not something or someone people can take to hurt me with. No, the memories of the past, and now, the truth, the truth I never knew existed.

一 My mother came close to me at the edge of the pool. 一 In the good things in life, no matter how much they try to make me sad I always get stronger, no matter what the obstacle I know I will always win 一 I spoke firmly. 一 This was the woman I raised you to be, look at me 一 She asked and so I did 一 Never let anyone try to put you down, always remember where your strength comes from. 一 I know mom, the Beatrix from before doesn't exist anymore, no matter who she is, nobody will try to humiliate me because I know my worth.

“You leaving me did not make me stronger. What made me stronger was when I decided I wasn't going to be able to depend on anyone. You continue to come into my business, continue to show up when I do not need you. What made you think that? You're unable to reach that category of being my lover, it would end and crush everything. I wouldn't have run out of the temple if I felt like I needed you in the first place. “I was kidnapped and a moment I was kidnapped and I let myself out along with Victoria.” I knew I could do it by myself without cheating. I unmarked myself from the mark that you gave me. What gave you the decency in this world to think so highly? Look at yourself, right now! I think

“ I’ve done jobs at our father’s company that even men wouldn’t dare to take on, I pushed myself past my limits.” “But I never let myself see that strength. I only saw my flaws. I only saw how I didn’t measure up. I constantly beat myself up, over and over, for being weak.” My fingers trembled as I rubbed my legs, staring into the fire. “When we started training, you kept telling me to reach deep. But I thought there was nothing there—nothing inside me worth reaching for. Sometimes I would desperately want to shift just so you’d stop disturbing me, but deep down, I didn’t think there was anything to shift into,”

I had to do better. I cannot keep drifting like this, I told myself. I have to find a way to stay there. I have to endure it. All my life, people had told me I was weak. I had heard it so many times that it had almost become truth to me. But there were moments when I had seen what I could do without even trying. Moments when power had slipped out of me on its own. I know I carry something, I thought. I know it.