I Feel Like A Fool Waiting For You นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Wait. . . . . . . Is this...ME?!

"At least meet my friends. Hang out, chill. Forget Christian, Nina." I hate how quick he is at this, at reading what’s in my mind. Or my heart. "I'm such a fool." I close my eyes tight, somewhat proud to say those words out loud, admitting it to the world. Yeah it's only Toffer but still, it feels like that. "You're just a girl who falls for the wrong person. It's okay, at least we can cross him off the list. Right? Instead of wasting our time waiting for a sign."

ᴊᴜsᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʀᴀᴘᴜɴᴢᴇʟ ᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ɪ ᴡᴀɪᴛᴇᴅ, ᴡᴀɪᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴀs ɪ ɢʀᴇᴡ ᴏʟᴅᴇʀ, ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪs ɴᴏ sᴜᴄʜ ғᴀɪʀʟʏᴛ ᴀʟᴇ

I’ll see you guys later love you “ I shut the door getting into the car with Jackie seems like she is in a better mood today music blasting she had a j rolled and smile on her face I get into the car and begin to state “ well look at you in a better mood today “ I say this knowing she is going through relationship problems as well she shrugs her shoulder with a little smirk I guess so she says then she ask have I talk to Arron because he followed her on i*******m this morning “ those words stung every organ in my body hurts I begin to say I texted him this morning I know he is going through family problems I say feeling like the biggest fool on the planet I turn the music up a little more.

I feel like such a loser right now. Before I leave I turn around to look at Matt. He doesn’t even care, does he? "Before I go, I want you to tell Sarah that she wears bad lipstick." With that, I turn around and walk away. The second I walk out, the tears I was holding back before, streamed down my face. God! I feel like the most foolish person in the world right now. How can be so stupid, how could I have trusted Matt again? He always does this to me and I foolishly act all blink and forget about it. Why do I keep doing this to myself?

Why do I always make a fool of myself? Oh me!! Screw me!!

Oh, look, my mantra has returned. Stupid. Stupid. STUPID! I felt the heat of frustration rising within me. How could I be so incredibly foolish? Just moments ago, everything had unfolded perfectly. Holly was cradled in my arms, her warmth radiating against me. I could still feel the thrill of our lips meeting in a passionate first kiss, a moment that felt electric and full of promise. Then, in an instant, my stupid mouth fucked it all up, revealing my secret in a careless slip.

The fool continued. “I want you. I want you so bad, I feel like I am going to lose it,” He whispered again. Why is he making this hard?!

I don't ever tell you how I really feel Cause I can't find the words to say what I mean And nothing's ever easy, that's what they say I know I'm not your only But I'll still be a fool Cause I'm a fool for you As the lyrics come out of my mouth, I was also thinking about Nick. I want just a little bit of his heart, not the whole of it but just a little bit but then tears filling my eyes again because I know wont. I wiped it away. I'm so stupid. Im trying to tell myself I'm not in love with him but...

I’m so fucked. And I can’t wait.