Kalau Ku Seorang Diri Novels & Stories

I whispered to the emptiness while watching the colorful sky brought by the fireworks. I found myself crying due to envy for my happy neighbors, contrasting with my feelings of loneliness and sadness. Will it always be like this? Will my new year always be like this? Will I always be alone in welcoming the new year? Will I always end up crying every new year? Will it always be like this?! For Pete's sake, I'm so tired! I'm so tired of feeling alone all the time. I'm so tired of being independent all the time. I feel alone. Yes, I know my grandma is there for me, but I still feel like I'm alone in this life. I feel like I'm the only one fighting the challenges of life. I fucking feel alone!

The beige cushions form a sunbathing area, but I choose not to sit. Instead, I squat down, wincing slightly from the pain, and begin rummaging through a blue cooler. The ice has all melted, leaving the cans of beer and soda floating in lukewarm water. Lost in my thoughts, I stare into the distance, Sandro's cutting words echoing in my ears. "I'd be better off if you never even existed." Is it possible to accomplish everything on your own and then some? Have you ever felt the need for something or someone? Just for a fleeting moment.

Just to have someone’s arms around me and tell me I wasn’t alone. But I never did knock on that door, not with anyone. I’d take a couple of deep breaths and remind myself that I was all alone in this world, and I’d pull my big girl panties up and go back to bed without a word. I take a deep breath in the darkness tonight, and it feels different somehow. Everything here feels different. And maybe I’m different, too. Maybe tonight’s the night I can finally knock on that door and reach out. Maybe tonight’s the night someone will actually be there.

I should not be too forward " Is it going to hurt "oh God I could do this all day " No... I'm just gonna, um , like finger you once sorta " finger? I'm cool with it I sit on a chair and slowly part my leg. I've never been fingered allmy life but t here right now the person that i have always crushed on is going to finger me. Oh i raise the towel all up to my belly and spread my legs as wide as I can.

“Or at least, I don't think that there's anything you can help me with. “I've been really confused lately. I don't have a sense of direction. I don't really know what I'm going to do with my life. I'm all alone. “I don't think there's a whole lot you can do about that though. I'm not sure that there's anything anyone can do about that. I'm just by myself and I have to find a purpose. I have to do this on my own.”

In my sixteen years of existence, I learn how to value freedom that no one can have unless you do something to break through. It's hard to be alone, fighting alone. I'm still grateful to have lola and tita Gisselle. They're just my guide in taking the path. I am the one who's responsible of doing things along the way. The one who needs to survive, and the one who needs to stand alone on her own shoes. I don't want to depend on them. I want to be independent. Huminga muna ako ng malalim nang nasa tapat na ako ng pintuan. I slowly opened the door and turned on the switch. Brightness overruled at the four corners of the room.

My indecisiveness was raising its ugly head. It was moments like this that I could really feel how lonely I was and how partially stupid my decision to live life solo without any friends was. I should have someone who I could call during times like this, but I didn’t, and now I have to make my own decisions, and I would have no one to blame if it all went wrong.

I bundled myself at the corner of the sauna and let my mind wander. Where was Laura? Did she know I was kidnapped? At the hospital, were they aware that I was gone? Or they had already found a replacement for me? Right at that moment, loneliness crashed on me hard, as I realized that in this world, apart from Laura, I had NO ONE! It was always me against the world, Alone!

' People say I try too hard, people say I come off really awkward' 'You know I mean no harm, I'm just trying to be myself but' 'Sometimes I get confused, Cause I can't read social cues' 'Threw my inhibitions out the door, I don't have an excuse' 'I am just living in my youth, don't know why people don't like me more ' I have no friends but that's okay, I don't need them anyway' 'I do my best all alone, and I just rather be alone, rather, rather be alone' 'I have no...' Howard hurriedly picks up the call, getting his out of his pocket. "He...hello? Ahhh...yeah? Okay! Yes...yes! We are going to work on it right now." he puts off the phone and...

In the empty room, I spoke only to myself. Like a madman.