Novel & Cerita Kalau Ku Seorang Diri

I say with certainty. Walking out of the ruins I make a smooth change into my wolf, galloping into the crisp morning air. One sentence repeating itself in my mind over and over: You are all alone. You are all alone. You will always be alone, and you deserve it. That is why they left you.

"I was the type of person who needs company to do stuff like, you know... I grew up in a town where I was always surrounded by people. And I moved to a school where I barely knew anyone. I had friends, but they were busy with their lives as well. Whenever my obligations at school extend to nighttime, I tend to be alone and, of course, lazy cook for my dinner. I always go to this cafe to have dinner. It was always this cafe. I would endure my growling stomach and walk from the campus 'til I arrive here. The food's good, the ambiance is nice plus the music, this place was perfect for relaxing and unwinding. It saddened me that I was enjoying visiting this place alone, doing things alone, eatin

I bundled myself at the corner of the sauna and let my mind wander. Where was Laura? Did she know I was kidnapped? At the hospital, were they aware that I was gone? Or they had already found a replacement for me? Right at that moment, loneliness crashed on me hard, as I realized that in this world, apart from Laura, I had NO ONE! It was always me against the world, Alone!

I wouldn't bear it too long in that case. I am not sure why this place becomes a safe place for me. It is away from people. Away from the noise. It feels more like a home to me. I found words when I am alone here. Sometimes, I dont. Oftentimes, I imagine I am the only one left living on this planet. Just me. Because it often feels like that.

The beige cushions form a sunbathing area, but I choose not to sit. Instead, I squat down, wincing slightly from the pain, and begin rummaging through a blue cooler. The ice has all melted, leaving the cans of beer and soda floating in lukewarm water. Lost in my thoughts, I stare into the distance, Sandro's cutting words echoing in my ears. "I'd be better off if you never even existed." Is it possible to accomplish everything on your own and then some? Have you ever felt the need for something or someone? Just for a fleeting moment.

My indecisiveness was raising its ugly head. It was moments like this that I could really feel how lonely I was and how partially stupid my decision to live life solo without any friends was. I should have someone who I could call during times like this, but I didn’t, and now I have to make my own decisions, and I would have no one to blame if it all went wrong.

I am sure the moon and Selene were comforting her, even if she didn't know why, they were still there for their children. "You never have to be alone again if you don't want to. I am here for you, and no matter how long it takes for you to accept me as I am, I will wait. If you want to stay away and don't want to know anything about me, I will still wait," I said quietly. I know that there is no one else for me in this world, and even if she doesn't let me into her life today, I will still wait.

"I don't belong here. Take me with you." "The killer is out to get me. A single weakness is all he needs. The last time we were together you saw what happened. You're not safe with me. I need to sort this out on my own, and I don't need you to distract me from this. I'm not going to be moved by tears, I won't give in to any amount of begging or groveling. Do not call me in any minor circumstances, unless you find yourself in dire need of my help which I hope is never. Are we clear?" I lost it at that time. "I can't...I can't do this alone. I'm so lonely. They look at me like I'm some criminal."

his voice tapered off, coming out low towards the end. A thick air of loneliness surrounded Kudaisi as he fell silent; unraveling the mask of confidence and self-assuredness he usually had on all the time. For the barest moment I felt what he was feeling and it nearly overwhelmed me. It was like being alone in the middle of a raging storm, lost and alone, but struggling forward due to sheer force of will. I thought I saw the warm smiling image an aged old woman in my mind’s eye, but I couldn’t be too sure as the feeling stopped at that moment.

​As I stood surrounded by hundreds of people, utterly and completely alone, one thought echoed through my shattered heart: ​If even my mate believes I don't belong… then where in this world do I go?