Kalau Ku Seorang Diri นิยาย & เรื่องราว

I suddenly remember the song called We and Us. I flashed out a smile as I looked beside me. The mug across me remained untouch, but let's just say that you are sitting across me and reminiscing with me. I'll only do this once, so I'll just let myself become delusional even just for once. Perks of being alone. You can do everything without being ashamed or embarrassed.

My nerves are on edge. If I weren’t stiff as a board and freezing to death, I’d be jumpy, but as it is, when I hear the faint step or skitter of rock, I clutch the quilt tighter and try really hard to think about anything other than the fact that I’m all alone, no one knows where I am, and I’m practically human. And it was all my decision.

Each person eats alone, lives alone… as if we are strangers under one roof. So please, act like me, or they will notice. I am a quiet person. I do not like getting close to my family. I spend most of my time alone… without friends, without real connections just me and my silence. It may sound sad, but it is easier than trying to belong to something that does not give you a place. Take care of yourself.

I didn’t know how I’d survive on my own but I didn’t care. As long as I was far away from them. “Beasts like me,” I whispered to myself, “we are meant to live alone.”

I've been gone from California for nearly 48 hours and now I'm just here, all alone. Does anyone know what its like to feel completely alone? Even around people you have known for years but know that they don’t give a damn about what’s going on inside. That even when you feel you’re at your best you can’t seem to do anything right. Everything you do just doesn’t work out. You try your hardest and still fail. And no one is there to pick back up the broken pieces. Loneliness is a horrible thing. It’s a cold feeling. No one should ever have to feel lonely. It consumes you slowly shaking you.

Outside the window, people pass by in their winter coats, absorbed in their own lives, their own dramas. I sit alone with my cold tea and shaking hands and the strange, terrifying relief of having finally said the things I needed to say. Even if she didn't hear them. Even if she never will.

I felt calm cause no one was going to notice me or my monstrous face like my course mates chanted. "I can cry alone, no one is gonna see me whimper" I thought aloud. I walked towards a huge karaoke machine. It looked quite old and there were several cartons around it and I thought no one was going to spot me if I hid there. I sat behind it and crossed my legs together and leaned against the karaoke machine.

Alone. In the depths of the secluded cabin, embraced by the serenity of nature, Tina found herself grappling with the heart-wrenching consequences of her impulsive actions. The weight of her regret settled heavily upon her shoulders, branding her with the scars of remorse. She sat alone, surrounded by silence, lost in a labyrinth of her thoughts, tormented by the choices she had made.

I felt exposed, vulnerable and timid again just like when we were in the car! Tears pricked at the corners of my eyes as i struggled to hold myself together. The world around me seemed to fade away, leaving only the echoes of my own doubts and fears. In that moment, i felt like she was disappearing, lost in a sea of uncertainty. " Can you just leave me alone". I wishepered slowly.

And I don’t know what that means. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I don’t know who I am anymore. I just stand there, surrounded by celebration and noise, feeling completely alone.