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I have to… Kate felt her weight getting heavier as she walked toward the rescue boat that had been waiting for her. You must do what is right. She talked to herself as she sighed heavily. She didn’t know what to do. Not really, she actually knew. She needed to fix the mess she created and must be responsible for the consequences of her actions. She just didn’t know where to start and the deep gaze she felt from behind didn't help her to decide at all. It seemed to pierce through her like a thousand sharp needles, reminding her of the happy events that had unfolded on the island that she was about to leave behind, for an unknown exact reason, she was about to know.

"But how do I find my way back, Cali? How do I untangle this confusion and make sense of it all?" Leaning forward, Mrs. Cali's voice was gentle yet firm. "You find your way back by embracing the unknown. Allow yourself to explore, to connect with your present experiences, and trust that your true self will guide you." Her words struck a chord deep within me, igniting a flicker of hope amidst the fog of uncertainty. "So, it's okay to feel lost?" I asked, seeking reassurance. Mrs. Cali nodded, her eyes filled with compassion. "Absolutely, alpha. Sometimes, it is in those moments of vulnerability and uncertainty that we uncover the most profound truths about ourselves."

Karen says. “I need your help to communicate with her,” Kate says. “You have to ability to do all of that on your own,” Karen says. “I cannot focus enough to do it. I need to know why the wolves are screaming at me in my head. I need to know about my past, and I need to know who I am,” Kate says.

~ KATALEYA ~ I sit there pondering on the words that Jose had spoken, the picture he had shown me… but I feel like I’ve seen it before… not exactly, but… there’s something. A familiarity about it, but I don’t know where or how… I am sure I’ve not seen it but then my mind is saying something else. I don’t know! It’s… infuriating. I sigh, pouting as I try to calm my mind, which is spinning.

he mumbled and tightened the hold of his clenched hand out of resentment. Kathy walks into school with the chilly breeze blowing against her cheeks which dried her tears. She is always like this, a petite, feeble figure. She detests herself. She is only a weakling. Maybe if she took the mental fortitude and told her feelings to Aaron, things would not be that way. It is possible that he will acknowledge her or reject her. Basically she will end this miserable state of hers.

I felt like I needed to do it because o Kevin and my family but on another hand I felt like I was just confusing myself even further and setting myself up for disaster. "I guess it's still important," I said, thinking. "I mean there's no other way for me to get the upper hand here and it's going to help me with that. The only problem is just the fact that I keep getting myself confused with my feelings, I have no idea if all this is just cussed by some crazy desire for the villain or if it's actually for real... It can't be for real, right?"

“That is because I can’t feel myself. It’s like I am living the rest of my years for him and our child. I see myself blowing up in rage with the tiniest of things. It’s not even the serious stuff that gets me riled up. That is how fucked my mental state is. I love him, but I never got to know myself and figure out what it is that I desired out of life. Getting burdened with looking after our home and being a full-time housewife, had me reeling. You should ask yourself questions like, who are you? Do you truly know what you desire and stand for? If you can answer that without doubting yourself, then I think you are good to go.” “I truly cannot answer those questions.” I reached for her hand.

Bummer. Now Kat was the one who wanted to freeze, not with just disappointment but with utter frustration and confusion. She couldn't even stay still, though. She felt more fluid and capable of movement than ever, especially violent movement. Hysteria was crawling up her throat, making it difficult to think straight. "Okay, I do see it," she said shrilly. "Now what does it mean? Why am I seeing it? Does this mean they're coming for us? I don't—"

Kata expresses but with her tone, I can tell she is unconvinced of her own explanation. " Come on kata, it's not like he is doing manual labour at the office. He even said it himself that he gets alot of freedom at the office." I say, "I don't know, maybe it's me. Maybe I am not enough. Maybe there is something wrong with me." I whine, my thoughts running through a thousand scenarios. " Lila, there is nothing wrong with you. You are beautiful, sexy, confident. That man is an idiot." Kata says, trying to boost my self esteem.

“YOU’RE AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN! There, I’ve said it. Doesn’t it feel better to say it out loud like that?” “All right! That’s it! Go back to your room. No dinner for you today, young lady! I want you to ponder carefully about all the terrible things you said here!” “I do!” Kate shouts, tears now flowing down her cheeks freely. “Every night and every waking moment I’m here, I ask myself: What did I do wrong? Why am I being punished like this? And it’s so frustrating because no matter how many times I ask myself, there’s no answer. You know why? I understand it now. It’s because I never did anything wrong.”