Lelah Hati Ini Lelah Hidup Denganmu นิยาย & เรื่องราว

This is my destiny. No happiness. Just pain.

I love you and it hurts so much that I can’t be with you but I will never want to lose this for anything in the world. These were the words I had said.

The evening dawns on me, As for life, it laughs at me, I try not to see but am hopeless. "But I am alright, Since the pain is from you," I would hold it in my heart, As the last thing you left behind." "Your thoughts keep coming back to my head, I try to stop them but it's useless, You still live in my head, like a beautiful dream, Yet, to disappear from my world." "I wish you could see, what you mean to me, I wish you could see the world through my eyes. I wish you knew how painful it is to live without you,

But it seems like It also won't go away either. Feeling used, But I'm still missing you, And I can't see the end of this, Just want to feel your kiss against my lips, And now all this time is passing by, But I still can't seem to tell you why, It hurt me every time I see you, Realize how much I need you, I hate you, I love you, I hate that I love you, Don't want to but I can't put anybody else above you, I hate you, I love you,

"Zinda hu magar zindagi se dur hu mein, Aaj kyu is Qadar majboor hu mein Bina jurm ke saza milti hai mujhe Kisse kahun ke be-qasoor hu mein Meri khamoshiyon ka sabab hai ye ghum mere Phir kyu duniya samajhti hai ki maghrur hu mein Aaj phir shiddat-e-ghum ne rula diya mujhko Aaj lagta hai zakhmon se chur chur hu mein" (I am alive but not living my life, Why am I so compelled today??

I want you to smile when you remember me and not cry or shut down because of something that was out of our hands to avoid. Sofi, my Sofi, you must promise me that you will let me go and forgive me for hiding this from you and hiding to die away from you. But, I needed to die knowing that you imagined me studying or doing something crazy that would make me happy these two months and not, in a bed dying.

This is the end of what never even begun. I'm broken hearted.

“I’ve given you everything. My time, my soul and even my heart. Don’t throw it away, I can’t live without you.” To Be Continued...

Heart by heart. With all my love, Kavira Hiraeth💜

"Every second of every day." "Why did you tell me to be happy?" she asks. "How can I be happy without you?" "Because I love you," I reply. "And I want you to live. Even if it means living without me." She pulls back, looks at me with tears in her eyes. "I don't want to live without you. I want to be with you. Always." "That's not possible anymore," I say sadly. "You have a mate now. Someone who can give you the life I never could."