Novel & Cerita Love Yourself First

Wasak na wasak na ito at hindi niya alam kung makakayanan pa ba niyang buoin ito sa kabila ng mga salitang parang patalim na tumatama direkta sa kaniyang dibdib. Umatras ng isang hakbang si Anastasia. Humigpit ang kaniyang pagka-kahawak sa kaniyang pouch habang patuloy sa paghikbi. Tigmak ng luha ang kaniyang mga mata habang nakatingin sa kaniyang asawa na ngayon ay halos hindi na niya makilala. “I will never regret loving you, Fred. But I think, being separated will make our lives more peaceful and fine.”

Ayoko din naman madisturbo ang tulog niya kaya hinayaan ko na lang. The next morning something special happened between us. I made love to my wife the first time. I felt so lucky that she gave herself to me and I'm even surprised that I'm her first. What a lucky asshole I am? Totoo pala talaga ang sinasabing you cannot judge a person by the way she looks. My wife may look liberated but she's conservative, though it's not an issue for me if she's a virgin or not. I didn't marry her just because of that. I'm not shallow, but I admit I'm beyond happy after knowing that I'm her first. GLM calling...

At yun ang una kong gagawin, ang hanapin muna ang sarili ko at matutunang mahalin ulit ito. I wanted to love myself first. I wanted to heal, I wanted to be a better person and build a new life without anyone, without Tristyn, without ate, without Tanya and so on. Gusto kong lumayo muna. At ang unang gagawin ko ay ang kumbinsihin si Tristyn na pakawalan na ako't huwag nang hanapin.

Every single detail in that memo… it’s literally about her. Pero... bakit ang title ay My First Love? Napapikit si Clarissa. Parang may sumabog sa loob niya. Isang bagay na hindi na niya mabuo muli. I thought I was chosen. I thought I was loved. Pero ngayon... parang hindi siya mahalaga. Parang panakip-butas lang. Napatingin siya sa telepono. Parang gusto niyang ihagis. Sirain. Sigawan si Luis.

Bigla na lamang nya akong kinabig at mahigpit na niyakap. "I'm so proud of you... " she was sincere, I felt it in my heart.I smiled and wrapped my arms around her. Two months, three days, four hours, five minutes and six seconds since the day I let him go. Since the day I last saw him.. . It wasn't easy ofcourse but I need to keep going. He wasn't my first love but he was my true love. It was just so funny how my true love healed me from being broken by my first love and now I am trying to fix myself because the one who healed my heart, broke it again. Who gonna heal me now? Myself, myself alone. Ngayon ko mas minahal ang sarili ng lubos, dahil iiwan man tayo ng lahat we always have ourselv

Hanggang ngayon nga proud ako sa sarili ko kase kinakaya kong sikapin na mag trabaho at buhayin si Elizabeth na mag-isa. "Alam mo minsan kase kapag alam mong walang nagmamahal sayo di, mahalin mo ang sarili mo. Iwanan ka man ng lahat pero yang sarili mo hinding-hindi ka nyan iiwanan, kaya nga sabi nila love yourself muna bago yong iba kase pano ka magmamahal ng ibang tao yong sarili mo ay hindi mo mahal o di mo alam kong pano mahalin yang sarili mo." Nakatitig lang ito sakin na para bang nag-iisip o may kung anong inaalala.

Shit! Bumaba ako sa kama and not knowing that I have a woman in my bed, half naked. Tsk! I'm Landon Carter, the Casanova in town. Yeah? I know, I'm just playing fire but please? It's just a call of nature having these kind of stuffs. Well, I didn't force them, they're the one whose offering their selves to me. But fuck! That face of that woman keeps bugging my mind and my heart. I think that words 'love at first sight' is hitting me below the belt now. Lumabas ako ng kuwarto ko at naupo sa sofa. I close my eyes and try to calm myself. I sighed, ni hindi ko man lang nakilala ang bagong asawa ng pinsan ko. Tsk! Because I tried to search that girl in the party hall and ended up together with a

Ipinikit ko ang aking mata at hindi na lang nagsalita. Kung darating man ang araw na mahuhulog ang loob ni Lucas sa akin, hindi ko alam kung matatanggap ko ba 'yon. Hindi pa ako handa na magmahal muli. Liam is my first love. Tapos magkaibigan silang dalawa ni Lucas. Ayokong isipin ni Liam na pinili ko si Lucas kesa sa kaniya.

Nagtatanong ang nga mata ng balingan ako. I bit my lower lip.. tumingala saglit dahil muling naramdaman ang matinding kaba. Kung sakaling tanggihan mangungulit pa rin sa kanya.. hinding-hindi na siya titigalan at hinding-hindi na rin papakawalan.. ...Because Concepcion is my first.. She's my first love... and forever be my love.. Makulimlim man ang langit, salungat man ito sa nararamdamang kasiyahan babalewalain ko dahil nag-uumapaw ang kaligayahan sa puso...

Tanong ko sakanila at tumango naman sila. "I still have a question pala." Sabi ni Inigo. "Ano 'yon?" Tanong ko sakaniya. "Ano natutunan mo sa lahat ng 'yon?" Tanong niya. "Natutunan ko na 'wag muna madaliin ang pag-ibig, kilalanin muna bago mahalin ang isang tao. Mahalin mo muna ang sarili mo bago ka mag mahal ng ibang tao." Sagot ko sakanya.