Novel & Cerita Mamatay Na Ako

Ezra I turn 16 in a few days and my mother is hopeful that my mate would be able to feel me on that date. If I am being honest I don’t want a mate and even if I had one I imagine I would be rejected. I believe like my sister that our mates were probably in our home pack and were lost when our pack fell during the war. I have a huge secret that would definitely get me rejected and I am okay with that.

"S-Suerini-ity A-Alt-a-amer-a.." "I said no!" "P-please..." I held on my knees for strength as I struggled to cry the words out. I wasn't even halfway through the rejection but pain was already consuming me from my legs. "I-I, S-Suerinity A-Altamera, r-reject y-you," I clutched my stomach when I felt my heart being clenched. I was having a hard time breathing and I was losing consciousness. Slowly, stars began to revolve around me as pain after pain assaulted my body. "A-Alpha S-Salaza--."

Hindi na ako nag abala pa na buksan ang aking mga mata para tignan siya. After everything, I'm still weak. I can't lie to myself that I am weak. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupulutin kung wala sina Fauve at ang crew. Hindi ko alam kung makakayanan ko ba kasi walang wala na din ako. I lost all of them including myself. I lost everyone.

I want the light to come back, but I can't accept it. I'm so overwhelmed by the pain I open my eyes to find any kind of light, but It's gone. I no longer feel warm or safe. I feel cold and alone. I want the pain to stop, but I will not become a monster. I can't become what killed my mother. What will that make me? My mother never got to live a life, it was cut short for no fault of her own.

—crossed his features, showing a rare glimpse of emotion: "Even you think that way?" The words were soft, almost wounded. Through my tears, I asked the question that had haunted me for years: "I just want to know what you said." I stepped closer to him, close enough to see the flecks of gray in his eyes. "What words could be so powerful that they drive people to die rather than live with them?" I remembered Mom's final moments—how she looked at me with the same terror as Ethan, then turned and ran. How her legs pumped frantically as she raced toward the silver pit.

Light exploded from the medallion, emerald and gold, burning away the violet corruption as the seed disintegrated in my grasp. The illusion collapsed. My mother’s face shattered like glass, peeling away to reveal nothing but swirling darkness beneath. The Void recoiled, howling in fury as the ground split open, fissures racing across the wasteland. “You would destroy a piece of yourself?” it roared. I staggered to my feet, shaking, empty, and free. “I chose my son,” I said. The light flared brighter, the medallion sealing itself with a sharp, resonant chime. The Dead Lands went still.

I like that we are on the same page. "And Mary," my face twisted into something dangerously close to grief, "We find her. If she’s still alive… we owe her that. We owe her more than that. We owed her safety! Safety?” Silence fell again before Jerome asked, “What if she’s not?” My gaze burned. “Then we bring down the whole god-damned web.” What if she's not? Those words tasted bitter. Very bitter and I hoped to the goddess for their sake that those words were not true.

If she said my mother was dead, then my mother was dead. “No, please, No,” I sobbed loudly and fell to the floor. Uncontrollable tears trickled down my cheek as my whole body was filled with pain. I couldn’t imagine that my mother was dead and gone. “No, this can’t be true,” I said, not wanting to accept it. But what if she was dead?

“Kung hindi dahil sa kaniya… baka totoong patay na ako ngayon.” Napatingin sina mama at papa kay Jedrick. Tahimik lamang itong tumango. “Hindi ko po siya pwedeng pabayaan noon,” simpleng sagot nito. Napayuko si Kyrine bago muling nagsalita. “At… nagpanggap akong patay.” Biglang natahimik ang buong sala. “Anak…” nanginginig na sambit ni mama.

tears pooled in my eyes as I reminisce all those painful moments. " Nasasaktan ka po oo kaya ng sinabi mong gusto mong mag mahal ng iba hinayaan kita. Because you said loving a dead woman feels like you're also in the grave, dying." Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko dahil hindi ko na mapigilan ang hikbing pilit kumakawala sakin.