Novel & Cerita Never Knew What I Needed

Curled up like a cat in the chair, I stared out the window not sure what to do with myself now that I was alone. I’d asked for this, but it felt like the worst time in the world to get it. I needed answers and I wasn’t going to find them in here. Someone had to know what was going on with me; I just didn’t know who that would be.

--- --- She just didn’t know it yet. --- ---

She kissed my cheek and smiled sadly. "I know, sweetie. I know. But sometimes life doesn't give us what we want. Sometimes it gives us what we need." "What do I need? I need him And I want him that's what I always think you have have to accept me." I asked. She looked into my eyes and said softly,

"What do you need me to do? Just tell me. Whatever it is, I'll do it." My heart thudded against my ribs. That was the problem, I didn't know what to ask for. I didn't know what kind of proof could ever be enough. "I… don't know," I admitted, shaking my head slightly. "That's the problem. I don't know what would be persuasive."

I kept on walking not knowing what to do and where to go. Oh God please help me out.. _______________________

I sat on a chair beside the door and asked calmly,"What do you wanna talk about?" "I don't know why you're being mad at me everytime whenever I try to speak with you. At beginning,I thought it's because of... you saw me as an unknown person entering into your family. I thought it'll fade away as the time pass by but... it never did. I always longed for a sister Sam. When Sven and I started to date, he talked lot about you... I thought I'm gonna have a friend to talk to in future..." I cut her by asking,"When will this get end?"

The burn on my arm didn't feel any better despite running it under cold water, too. The sound of the water was all I could hear. Suddenly, I remembered that I'd yet to call off the wedding.

Nobody could ever even begin to stomach the idea of having your world turned upside down in a blink of an eye. I wanted to be the big guy. God knows I wanted to do this right. But how do I do that when I don’t even know where I stand? How do I do that when I don’t even know what it is I want? The only thing I knew right now was that I needed answers. I needed a lot of answers from Samantha. But I am not even sure if I wanted to see her. Maybe it was all too soon to try and figure a way out. But I was fuckin’ tired to be cooped out alone with my thoughts that were not making it even a tad bit easy for me. I needed some peace, even if it won't last for long, I just needed to forget for a while

And I didn’t know how long I could stay awake. I needed to fight. I just didn’t know how I was going to do that.

"I-I can't" "Yes you can...you can Ezhil...just meet him...he is all alone with no one beside him...he needs you Ezhil...he needs his brother" her hand caressed my hair. He needs me, my brother needs me...he needs me. "He needs me"