Novel & Cerita Oh Mengapa Tak Bisa Dirimu Yang Mencintaiku

"Then let me go" "That's the one thing I can't do and I don't know why. Believe me Faith...I have thought of letting you go but then something switches in me and I feel like caging you forever. I cry nights alone feeling pathetic for what I am doing to you....but what can I do Faith?...I'm madly...insanely...obsessively in love with you since kids and I just can't seem to let you go....neither can I allow you to move on" he kissed my palm.

(You will never be happy. My voice dropped, filled with an aching honesty. "Main tumhe ek pati ka pyaar kabhi de nahi paunga... rishta nibha nahi paunga..." (I will never be able to give you a husband's love... I won't be able to fulfill this relationship...) I paused, my throat tightening.

"What do you want me to do? Kiss you every day and pretend to love you? Pretend everything is fine, that you are the woman of my dreams?" My lips tremble. "Why can't you? Why can't you love me as I love you? Why can’t I be the woman of your dreams?" I ask shamelessly. I bite my lip hard, hoping to stop it from trembling. "Why?" my voice breaks. I wish I could tear my heart open just so he can see how much he means to me. Despite everything, I still can't seem to get over him. Grey's brow furrows, his hands sweaty. "Well, you need to get over it because I can't return your feelings."

I am a human, who don't have desire, I have desire you "I've never have the hope of being with you or have you, I was just 16. I was so young and naive but I felt something different for you. I've hidden this love carefully for long not to hurt you ... "I know you never love me as a woman but restraining myself becomes an habit all because I don't want to hurt your feelings, I've never dream of having any hope of being with you. I don't want to hurt you and am being hurt day by day

{I think about us. I think about the way we laugh without reason. {I think about us, girl.} There will be no more lies. Somebody tell me why I feel like I'm dying. Lord, what's come over me? Oo, baby, I can't wait. You see I can't stop loving you. I can't help myself. I can't get over you. No matter what I tell myself I can't stop loving you, girl, no matter how hard I try And I can't get over you. And I don't know why.

Never! The steam fogged up the mirror, hiding my reflection from view as if even my visage was too much to bear. "Why can't I fucking live without you?" The words hung heavy in the humid air, a confession meant for no one and nothing but the silence. What was it about that man that held him so firmly in my heart? Why can’t he let me be?

I have never longed for anyone as I have for you, Not knowing, why this cracked heart just couldn't move on from you. You said we couldn't be together, then why this stupid king only dreamed of you? ...................................................

(I can't tell that I love you, I can't say that I have right on you How bad my compulsions are The destination is infront of me But I can't take any step forward) **** Fir wahi din thehra Meri shaamen roothi Khayal-e-judaai se mere mehram Meri saansein ruki. (My days stopped, My evenings are upset, Just thinking about our separation My breath hitched) These last shayaris really confused me. Why he don't want to confess his feelings. And at the last it was written "I CAN'T CONFESS" and "I AM SORRY IZZAH". He loves me but can't confess what is stopping him.

Because I still love him regardless I watch him pass me by everyday I stay to see him look my way But he never does Just because He does not love me I am sadden by the very thought That he will never be mine Because there is someone else more beautiful in his life He does not love me Thus why do I still care? Because I still love him regardless I should stop this love sick melody Stop singing the same old sad love song For I know that he will never love me But why does it feel right if it is wrong? He does not love me I am merely someone he knows but does not care for So why do I still love him? I do not know But I will still love him regardless I know I can't stop this feeling but still I c

(your love destroyed me, It broke me like that I died Nor I have left any desire to live Nor I wish to die This heart wants your togetherness Despite knowing it is impossible what ever it is asking for it pretends to be oblivious Your togetherness is not heaven Nor I am an angel But if you are with me I will imagine hell as heaven as well But the problem is You do not accept my togetherness And I can not accept anything except you " Shayari said thinking about her position in life (It is written by me, forgive me if I make mistakes in translation or in the poetry itself.) " Why do not you love me like I do Shauhar ji? Why? What crime have I committed? " Shayari screamed but got no answer ***