Self Deception Meaning Novels & Stories

“Desisyon mo, Kristoff. Ang iyong kalayaan, o ang kanyang pagkakabilanggo? Ngunit tandaan mo, kung pipiliin mong manatili, sisiguraduhin kong hindi ka na makakalakad muli. At panonoorin mo kaming dalawa sa bawat sandali ng iyong natitirang buhay.” Ito ang sikolohikal na laro ni Sebastian—ang sirain ang pagkatao ni Kristoff sa pamamagitan ng pagpapakita rito ng sarili nitong kahinaan. Ang Debt of Life ay hindi lamang tungkol sa hininga; ito ay tungkol sa kung gaano karaming dignidad ang handa mong isuko para mabuhay.

Sabi niya. Napaiwas ako ng tingin. Naramdaman ko ang mahinang pagtusok ng kung ano sa dibdib ko ng marinig ang magpakatotoo. Totoo naman ako sa sarili ko. Totoo ang pinapakita ko. Totoo ang pagmamahal at kabaitan na pinapakita ko. Pero alam ko sa sarili ko, may parte sa pagkatao ko na nagsisinungaling. Una pa lang, nagsinungaling na ako sa kaniya.

Na dapat ay walang halong kasinungalingan ang sasabihin ko. I didn't say any words. Pakiramdam ko ay patas lang kami. Hindi ko sinabi sa kaniya na pinagbabawalan na ako ng Mommy niya, at hindi niya naman sinabi na ayaw pala sa akin ng Mommy niya! Actually, his deception was worse than mine, because from the start he had made me believe that his mother was willing to help willingly, when the truth was completely different. "Immanuel, you're not doing well in the company. Alam 'yan ng babaeng 'yan!"

Mabilis kong inayos ang sarili at bumaba, naabutan ko pa si Drei na patapos nang kumain. "Sinong tumawag sa 'yo?" "Si tiya," pagsisingungaling ko, tumango siya at nanahimik na. Pretending has been second nature to me ever since I took on my first mission—deception, after all, is a skill I've long since mastered. But this... this is different. This isn't just another role to play or another mask to wear. This time, the lines between the lie and the truth blur, and I'm not sure which one I'm supposed to believe anymore. Masyadong mahirap magpanggap kapag 'yong taong mahal mo na ang kailangan mong protektahan.

"You're a fraud, a liar, a manipulator. You've spent the entire day pretending to be something you're not. You're a charlatan, a con artist, a fake." Damon, his face pale, his eyes wide with fear, stared at her, his silence a testament to the truth of her words. He knew that he had been playing a role, a role that was necessary, a role that was painful. But he also knew that he was a fraud, a liar, a manipulator. He had been caught in his own web of lies, his carefully constructed facade crumbling beneath the weight of his own deceit.

Nilingon ko s'ya muli para lang makita ang kulay tsokolate n'yang mata na seryosong nakatingin sa 'kin. "Doctor, people like me, we don't really change. We change our persona to deceive others but not because we wanted to change ourselves to become better. We don't get better, we become more evil." May talim at diin sa bawat salitang sinabi n'ya. Napaawang ang labi ko ng dahil don. He openly admits that he isn't capable of changing but I think that's quite impossible...ngayon n'ya lang 'yan nasasabi.

"I can't assure you that I will be able to-" "No, my dear. Huwag mo kasing pangunahan ang mga bagay-bagay. The more you doubt about yourself, the more you fail. So better say 'Kaya ko'. Okay?" Na-pokus ang atensiyon ko sa kaniya. Pinangaralan na ako ng kapatid kong walang binatbat ang talino mula sa akin. Well, that's not the matter from the first place. Pretending is a sin. It's not just about fooling others but fooling one's self too. Ayaw kong manloko at mas ayaw kong lokohin ang sarili ko.