Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid Mga Nobela at Kwento

“Napansin ko kasi… kanina ka pa ganyan.” “Ganyan? Paano?” “Parang laging handang umatras,” he said gently. “Pero hindi umaalis.” The words hit closer than I expected. I swallowed. “Hindi lahat ng bagay safe lapitan.” “Hindi rin lahat ng bagay delikadong mahalin,” he said, voice low. “Minsan, unfamiliar lang.” I laughed quietly, shaking my head. “Grabe ka. Birthday party lang ‘to.”

Sprite nodded his head. "Sana maam maunawaan niyo na sa trabaho namin may mga bagay kaming hindi dapat sinasabi sa iba. Hindi dahil sa gusto naming mag sikreto, kundi dahil ayaw namin kayong mapahamak. What you don't know won't kill you."

May mga bagay na hindi mo sinasabi—not because they aren’t real, and definitely not because they don’t matter, but because the moment you give them a voice, you lose the ability to control what comes after. Words have a way of making things permanent, of turning something you can still deny into something you’re forced to face. And right now, standing just a few steps away from Adrian Del Rosario, I could feel every unsaid word pressing in on us, filling the space between us with a tension that was too heavy to ignore but too dangerous to acknowledge.

There was an emotion I couldn’t comprehend, at mukhang may nais syang sabihin sa akin pero pinipigilan nya nalang sarili nya. “Do you want to tell me something?” I asked. “I can listen, you know. Hindi ako magaling mag advice pero magaling akong makinig….just like that time at the shop.” He shook his head, “It’s better to be left unsaid.” “Ano bang sinasabi mo dyan? Why are you being so unusual these days? It kind of scares me, but in a good way.” I chuckled, making the air lighter. “You’ll know it soon.” And with that, he turned back looking at the sunset. I couldn’t ask more, letting the silence comfort me.

Wala na s'yang magagawa kundi ang sabihin dito ang totoo at ang lahat-lahat. Iniiwasan n'ya ang ganitong bagay at ginawa ang lahat na hindi malaman ni Courtney ang nangyayari para hindi ito ma stress sa pag-iisip ngunit sa palagay n'ya ay mas mabuti na siguro kung sasabihin n'ya rito ang totoo. Inalis n'ya muna ang bara sa kan'yang lalamunan bago nagsimulang magsalita.

To those things that are not meant to be. Atleast we tried, atleast...

Panimulang tanong nito. Kumuyom ang mga kamay niya, "it's better this way," walang pakialam na sagot niya dito pero sa loob loob niya ay gusto na niyang maglupasay at humagulgol. "Better this way? Leaving me without saying anything is your better way? Para ano? Para sa ibang tao na walang ibang ginawa kung hindi ang saktan at kamuhian ka?" For a moment yung better this way na sinabi niya dito ay gusto na niyang bawiin nalang at magsorry dito para tanggapin siya nito pabalik.

Sometimes silence is the best answer to every complicated thing and situation. "In another life, I would be your girl. We keep all our promises, be us against the world." Us against the world? Psss! Me against him kamo. Tsk!

Ang sabi nila may mga bagay na mas maigi pang manatiling nakatago nalang kung wala naman iyong magandang maidudulot. Ika nga, the things you don't know won't hurt you. But not for my case, not for me. It may work for others but not on me. The more I don't remember things the more my curiosity is eating me and I am scared that in the end I will really lose my sanity.

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinakalma ang sarili. "I need to go, let go Chris, please. Hindi na kita mahal." Kumirot ang puso ko sa sariling salita na kumawala sa aking bibig. "A-aah. Hindi nga pala kita minahal." Pagak akong tumawa. Nababaliw na ako? Ganun ba ako ka galing magsinungaling? Gustong kong sampalin ang sarili dahil sa mga sinabi ko, gusto kong bawiin pero hindi pwede.