Novel & Cerita Sudah Dibantu Tapi Tidak Tau Diri

I dоn’t knоw hоw I соuld do it. Mауbе I can step іn front оf a саr when I’m оn thе street again. All I know іѕ I can’t dо thіѕ аnуmоrе. I knоw I’vе ѕаіd this a million tіmеѕ, but nоw I саn’t. Plеаѕе hеlр me. I nееd tо ѕlеер. *Day Twelve:

“Or at least, I don't think that there's anything you can help me with. “I've been really confused lately. I don't have a sense of direction. I don't really know what I'm going to do with my life. I'm all alone. “I don't think there's a whole lot you can do about that though. I'm not sure that there's anything anyone can do about that. I'm just by myself and I have to find a purpose. I have to do this on my own.”

I didn't need help. I couldn't be helped.

Fuck! How did I not know all these things? I was not able to say a word, my heart clenched in my chest. How did I not know these things? How come I wasn't told? “You didn't tell me,” I said. “What is the point of letting anyone know?” She didn't look at me. Her face was stern. “Maybe I could help him?” I was watching her gaze. “Help him? How could you help him when he keeps blaming himself for what happened? What could you do? I doubt there was anything that anyone could.”

“I may not know if you’re sexually confused or just going through some kind of a phase but if there’s anyone who could help you out with it, it’s you yourself.” “I wish uncle Paul was still a part of this family.” I spat out of the blue. I was leaning more on relying to other people regarding this matter. I’m certainly aware of the fact that if there’s anyone who could help me understand myself, that person is none other than myself, however I can’t deny the lingering concern that I needed some sort of guidance. Uncle Paul was the only person I know with the most knowledge and quite the experience that could help me understand myself even better.

But still, I was deeply in need of help as I wasn’t so sure what they had in mind to do to me. Fuck!!!!

“I did something I think I shouldn’t have done, and I don’t know what to do, Autumn, please help me.” TO BE CONTINUED…

I just couldn’t back up my claim completely. I took a step back as I tried to think about what I can do. If they were able to take down Eric and his warriors, what could I do? I was completely out of my element here, with not even the slightest clue about what to do. “Believe in yourself.” That voice I heard earlier spoke into my head. I didn’t know who was speaking to me, but I felt like I needed to listen to it. Easier said than done though. Not knowing how that would help me, there was only one option I had.

I was so helpless. ***

I dоn’t knоw hоw I соuld do it. Mауbе I can step іn front оf a саr when I’m оn thе street again. All I know іѕ I can’t dо thіѕ аnуmоrе. I knоw I’vе ѕаіd this a million tіmеѕ, but nоw I саn’t. Plеаѕе hеlр me. I nееd tо ѕlеер. *Day Twelve: