Too Stunned To Speak Novels & Stories

Tutal mukhang wala naman akong makukuhang impormasyon dito. "Speechless huh?" He said as a statement. The confidence of this brute! But yeah, he is right. I was really speechless. I wasn't prepared for this. Napatayo ako at aalis na sana pero bigla niya akong napigilan. Mabilis niyang nahawakan ang bewang ko at hinapit ako palapit sa kanya. Sobrang lapit na kahit nakadamit ako nararamdaman ko ang init ng katawan niya.

Kinabahan lang pala ako sa wala! Ilang beses pa muna akong napalunok bago nakapagsalita. “Naging sobrang busy kasi ako nitong mga nagdaang linggo. P-Pasensya na.” I pinched my thigh when I stuttered. Hindi pa rin kasi humuhupa ang bilis ng kabog ng dibdib ko. “Does my dad giving you a hard time? Sobrang dami ba ng pinapagawa niya sa ‘yo? I can talk to him if you want--”

Agad niyang nilagpasan si Dia, lumabas ng kwarto, at hindi na lumingon. Natulala si Dia. She stood frozen, her mind completely blank, her body unable to move. She was too stunned. Too overwhelmed. Too… broken. Napalunok siya nang maramdaman niya ang sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso niya. It was so loud, so painfully loud that it echoed in her ears. At kasabay no’n, ang alaala...isang pangungusap na paulit-ulit na bumabalik sa kanya.

What the hell! My jaw dropped. My mouth hunged open upon hearing those from him. Tila hindi agad nagproseso ang utak ko. Sa pagkabigla ay tila nagmalfunction at hindi na nagproseso ng ilang menuto. Natahimik ako at walang kahit na anong salita ang lumabas sa bibig ko. Nabato ako sa kinauupuan ko. I was......... speechless!

I thought we will forever be happy, no problems. “Tell me what you heard on the call. I will explain it all. Just calm down. Let’s talk without shouting, please?” His voice was pleading, almost breaking apart in front of me. But my head was pounding, my chest constricting. I felt sick. I felt like throwing up. My body rejected the chaos of the moment, and I knew—I just knew—that I wouldn’t be able to talk properly to him. I couldn’t calm myself, not while he was standing there, not when the air between us was so sharp it cut into me.

I was too stunned to speak when I saw Tita Danica in front of me, she’s alone. I tried to utter some words as fast as I can but I failed. My brain is still occupied by Dame’s words earlier. My hands started to feel clammy and I’m already sweating bullets. I feel like there's a hurricane inside me, my stomach is turning upside down. I feel nauseated because of nervousness. “Do you want to talk, hija?” she asked as she gave me a small smile. Her eyes are encouraging me to say 'yes'.

"Shantall, actually, I- I, hindi ko naman ginusto ito, h-hindi ko s-sinasadya, basta n-naramdaman ko n-na lang and I tried to s-stop it but I c-couldn't so..." Hindi ko pa man nasasabi sa kanya kung ano talaga ang gusto nyang malaman, ini-isplika ko na agad ang sarili ko, and I was stuttering while doing it, my hands sweating cold and slightly trembling because of nervousness. This could turn out bad, at ayokong mangyari yon. She notice my uneasiness, making her brows pull together.