You Drew Stars Around My Scars Novels & Stories

Bigla nalang akong nabingi hindi sa bomba, hindi rin sa putok ng baril o sa kung ano mangpagsabog kundi sa lakas ng tibok ng puso ko ngayon na parang lalabas sa dibdib ko at parang nahihirapan ako huminga. It was beating and racing so fast as I look at her.As her hair is flying softly around parang gumaganda siya lalo.Nahulog ang cap nito exposing her angelic face then suddenly her hair flew then I saw a scar in her neck but why did I find it cool? I was amazed by her scar. Parang may karera ng kabayo sa loob ko na hindi ko maintindihan.Her eyes, her smile and yung boses niya parang nagrerewind sa utak ko.

Pero sa labis na kabang nararamdaman ko ay hindi ko na naikilos ang aking mga paa. I was panicking. Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko dahil papalapit na ang mga ito. Pero nagulat ako nang biglang may humawak sa aking palapulsuhan at bigla akong hinila palayo sa kinaroroonan ko. Dahil sa malakas na paghatak nito ay napasubsob ako sa dibdib nito. Nawala tuloy sa pagkakaayos ang suot kong eyeglasses. Mabilis ko iyong inayos at agad na nag-angat nang tingin sa lalaking nagligtas sa akin. Agad akong napaatras nang makita kung sino ito.

He courted me hanggang ngayon sabi niya maghihintay siya kung kailan handa na ako. Nagpaalam akong sasagutin ko lang ang phone. I answered his call, and we talked. Napahinto ako sa may grand piano, umupo ako sa harap nito. Gamit ang malaya kong kamay ay inangat ko ang cover ng keys nito. Napangiti ako as I started playing it with my left hand it is Rewrite the Stars by Zac Efron & Zandaya but the version I played is Chad Graham cover.

_ I whispered to myself, my heart aching for the connection I had just rejected. **Reflections on Choices** In the quiet of my home, I thought about Jarren and the feelings he stirred within me. _“Why can’t I just let myself feel?”_ I pondered, my heart still heavy with confusion. **The Internal Conflict** I knew I had pushed him away, but the thought of letting him in terrified me. I wanted to believe that love could be different, but the scars from my past loomed large. _“Hindi ako handa,”_ I told myself, wiping away my tears.

I thought he would say yes but its the opposite. "No sweetie I can take care of myself" and he turn his back on me. I sleep with a heavy feelings and can't help to think about what happen last night halos madaling araw na ako matulog dahil binabagabag pa rin ako ng mga katanungan and its all about what happen to Noah on the past. I can notice bruises and scars on his body ang mas ikinabahala ko ay ang scars nito sa bandang dibdib and if i'm not mistaken it was from a bullet. I notice it when we visit his place in London when he was topless I wanted to ask him that time but I still don't have a strength.

I sing, and I stare at the man that I love. "And with every touch you fixed them Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh Things you never say to me oh oh Tell me that you've had enough Of our love, our love" My love, All this time I am the only one loving while he's playing with me. "Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

"Why do you let it live with a scar? You can pop off that scar by putting cream—" "I treasure this scar, Kaleb…" humaplos doon ang kamay ko. "Because of this scar, I was brave enough to conquer my fear, to surpass all the loneliness, and affliction I’ve been through…" "I want to know everything about you and our daughter. Please. I wanna know…" he begged again and again. Umangat ang mukha sa kaniya habang patuloy niyang hinahaplos ang naiwang pilat sa aking tiyan. I slowly closed my eyes as I reminisced the misery I've been through in the past six years…

Napahawak ako sa dulo ng damit ko at nilukot ito gamit ang palad ko. Naramdaman kong muli ang pagkirot ng puso ko na tila ba tinutusok ng karayom sa sobrang sakit. "Kaya ayokong ma-fall eh. Tanginang pag-ibig yan. Susugal ka pero sa huli.. Talo ka" seryosong sabi ni Scarlet habang nag pupuro ng vodka sa baso. I looked at her, she's different right now. I saw sadness in her eyes.

Itinaas ni Scar ang isang kamay, dahan-dahang ibinaba ng dalawang lalaki ang kanilang mga armas. Pinanatili ni Mara ang baril na matatag. "Mga papel, ngayon na." Dahan-dahang inabot ni Scar ang loob ng kanyang dyaket, hinugot ang isang manipis na sobre, inihagis ito sa kanyang paanan. Hindi niya inalis ang tingin sa kanya. "Amina. Kunin mo na."

Ang kapal ng mukha mo! Pagak akong tumawa. "You've taken everything! My leg, my future! Ever since that day, the color I'm seeing is red. Just like the fire flaming on my soul. You painted me red and I can't do anything to get rid of it. The stain remains like a scar on my skin. I suffered for a couple of years which is because of you! "You, son of bitch..." Itinutok ko ang kutsilyo at sinugod si Grellen. "You shouldn't have been born in the first place!"