Cinta Mati Bersama Kekecewaan Masa Lalu

                        ~JESSICA~

“Damn that Albert! He's a fucking scum of a man and he's not even worth your tears. He's not even worth you. It's his loss baby girl. He lost!” Grace, my step sister, said angrily after I told her I caught my boyfriend of three years cheating on me with my best friend.

“And Isabella is a snake! That snake! That sneaky bitch! I knew it, I suspected she didn't really like you. She just got close to you so she can have access to Albert. That fucking snake!” Grace lashed out at Isabella too.

“I feel so broken and hurt. I thought he really loved me but he's just using me. He said it to my face that he's just using me. I shouldn't have gone to his house without his notice and I wouldn't have seen him with Isabella” I lamented.

“So you prefer to keep being in the dark while they have fun and laugh at you behind your back?? Look, it's a good thing you found out already. It's time for you to move on with your life. I never liked Albert for you anyway, he's too stingy, controlling and demanding.”

“I wondered how you couldn't see it, I wondered how you couldn't see that he's not the right one for you” Grace said, hugging me because I was starting to cry.

“I was too deep in love to even see the signs that he wasn't the one for me. I feel so stupid right now” I said.

“You'll be fine. Just go and take your bath, dress up and I'll take you somewhere to chill out” she said and disentangled from the hug.

“Hope it is not one of those clubs you do sneak out to at night?” I said and she feigned surprise.

“So you knew!” She exclaimed and laughed.

“Yes, but I never told mom” I replied.

“Why didn't you say a thing about it to me??” She asked.

“Maybe because I didn't want to??”

She grinned.

“Well, I'm taking you to one of those places to chill out,” she said.

“Sorry to disappoint you, but I'm not going” I said and wiped my eyes.

She frowned. “You must come with me. Besides, it's friday. Let's go party!”

“Only if you drag me with a rope, then maybe, yeah” I teased and we laughed.

           But later that night, I willingly went into the bathroom to take my bath and change into a dress I felt was club-like.

I really needed to chill out, so many things were happening at once and I prolly needed a drink or two to clear my head. Plus, I wanted to know how it feels being in a club.

 I've never been to one before because I'm always the stuck up, reserved, calm and shy girl. Tonight, I want to loosen up a bit.

Grace was waiting for me in the sitting room when I came out of our room. She had taken her bath and was fully dressed.

Her eyes sized me up and down and she shook her head unimpressed.

“First of all, Sis, those glasses of yours need to go!” She frowned.

“I can't see properly without my glasses!” I retorted.

“It doesn't matter. It's going to be dark and you don't need to see much” she replied.

“If I'm not using my glasses, then I'm not going” I said and she sighed loudly.

“Okay, can you at least loosen your hair and allow it to fall freely on your shoulders? And don't you have a sexier gown to wear? You look like a primary school teacher, no offense” Grace said and I moaned to suppress my frustration.

“I swear I'm gonna kill you” I said to her and she laughed. 

“I'm sorry, but I'm gonna tell you the truth,” she said, still laughing.

“You know I don't fancy sexy dresses,” I said.

“And I would have given you one of mine if only you're chubby like me” she replied and I rolled my eyes.

“Grace, I'm not going there to look for a man. I don't even want no man around me now. I'm just going there to take a few drinks and clear my head, nothing more okay?” I said but she just stared at me mockingly.

I took the opportunity to stare at her and she's looking beautiful as always in that short, sexy red dress and heels. She looks exactly like her mom, beautiful, a very nice body shape and average height. Sometimes, I even get jealous of her beauty as I was the direct opposite.

I was tall, flat on every side, an average face and straight. Probably the reason why Albert left me.

I shook the thought off my head. I wouldn't think about him again.

“Let's get going already” I urged Grace to stop me from thinking about Albert.

“Alright, alright, let's go” she said and we walked out of the house and locked the door.

Just for tonight! I'll have fun just for tonight and go back to being the serious and reserved girl that I am in the morning.

The ride to the club was short and we stepped out of the cab after paying our transport fare.

I could hear the loud music from outside the club and I cringed. I am going to have a long night there!

When I stepped into the club, I realized that Grace was right and I shouldn't have come with my glasses as it was useless as I still couldn't see clearly in the dim lights at the club.

I rolled my eyes. I should have just stayed home, and why do I sense something dramatic coming up soon??