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The Mistress
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Ruins of a Sinner The Handprint of Depression
SINABI na ni Zach na hindi siya makakapunta ngayong gabi sa apartment ko. Busy daw siya sa wedding preparation nila ni Joven. Malinaw naman sa akin ang message niyang 'yon.Kaya hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko kung bakit sa kabila ng sakit, nando'n pa rin 'yung maliit na pag-asa— na baka matapos niya kaagad 'yung kailangan nilang gawin ni Joven— o baka gumawa ulit siya ng palusot sa fiance niya 'tapos ay didiretso siya rito at susurpresahin ako.That little hope inside me made me hold on to Zach. Kahit sinabi na niyang hindi siya makakapunta, mas pinili kong pinanghawakan 'yung maliit na pag-asa na baka piliin ako ni Zach.Pinanghawakan ko 'yung posibilidad na pumunta pa rin siya sa apartment ko gaya ng ipinangako niya sa akin. Kaya kahit hindi sigurado, nang makarating ako sa apartment ko galing ng university, kaagad akong naghanda ng pagkain.I prepared dinner for the two of us, just in case Zach would choose to come over. I cooked his favorite pininyahang manok, the same level
Ruins of a Sinner Trying to Hide the Pain
FRIDAY came and I haven't heard anything about Zach since Wednesday when I had a break down because of so much jealousy and pain.Naghintay ako ng paliwanag niya kung bakit nagsinungaling siya sa akin. He said he couldn't come over to my place that Wednesday night because of his and Joven's wedding preparation. But then, I ended up hearing them fucking each other. Sabihin na lang natin na kaya ako tumagal sa ganitong klaseng relasyon ay dahil sa mga excuses na paulit-ulit kong tinatanggap mula kay Zach. That's how I get by as a mistress and how I discarded my conscience. As long as Zach was making excuses for us to work out, I promised to myself that I would never let go. This was how masochistic I was- since from my relationship with Nick up until now.Sasabihin ng iba ginusto kong maging kabit dahil pinili kong manatili, kahit toxic, kahit may nasasaktan na iba at kahit hindi naibibigay sa akin ang tamang pagmamahal na deserve ko. But what people don't understand was how toxicity co
Ruins of a Sinner The Answer for 'I Love You'
Nagpalakpakan muli ang audience nang itaas ni Rupert ang kamay kasabay ng pagdikit ng drummer sa drum sticks nito at tatlong beses pinalo sa isa't isa.The electric sound of the guitar filled the room along with the high-pitched beat of the cymbals. Then, the steady deep beat coming from the base drum started the steady tone that was followed by the base and rhythm guitar. Rupert hold the microphone stand and gave the audience a serious and mysterious gaze.Hindi ko mapigilang humanga sa confidence na mayro'n si Rupert sa pagpe-perform. Halata kasi na totoong confidence 'yon at hindi lang pinepeke para magmukhang magaling katulad ng palagi kong ginagawa. He's really good at this and he's really enjoys doing this. Sana all."This song is for a woman I recently met. This is for her who always look at me with her sad eyes."Napaawang ang bibig ko sa sinabing iyon ni Rupert. He didn't say a particular name and he didn't look at me. But why did it feel like he was pertaining to me? Sa dami
Ruins of a Sinner The Limitation She Challenged
FlashbackMasama ang loob ko kay Nick dahil sa ginawa niyang pag-iwan sa akin sa kalagitnaan ng ginagawa namin para kay Ate. Nagmakaawa ako sa kaniya pero hindi niya man lang ako pinakinggan.Kaya ilang araw ko na rin siyang iniiwasan at hindi pinapansin. Scratch that— iniiwasan ko siya at mukhang wala siyang pakeelam. Kaya lalo akong naiinis. Sobrang nagseselos ako sa biglang pagiging sweet at maalaga niya sa Ate ko na hindi naman niya ginagawa noon. He's being too attentive to her. Dahil ba buntis si Ate?Ang nakakatanga lang, ni hindi gumawa ng paraan si Nick para kumustahin ako matapos niya akong iwan noong gabing iyon. Mukhang pabor na pabor nga sa kaniya na nagtatampo ako nang ganito kasi mas may oras siya sa Ate ko.At hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko matitiis na 'wag sabihin ang relasyon namin ni Nick. Ilang beses nang sumagi sa isip ko sabihin kay Ate Agatha ang totoo 'tapos ay papiliin si Nick. He said he loves me, that's why, I'm enduring this setup.Pero, unti-unti na
Ruins of a Sinner Safe Haven
Hinihingal na nagising ako mula sa masamang panaginip na iyon. May eyes were wet because of tears and my chest is moving up and down because of my deep breaths."Ava?"Unti-unting nawala ang takot at sakit dahil sa bangungot na iyon nang makita ko si Zach sa gilid ng kama ko. Nakayakap siya sa baywang ko habang nakaunan naman ako sa isa niyang braso. We were both naked under the sheets."You had a bad dream?"Kiming tumango lang ako at kaagad niyang pinunasan ang mga mata ko. Pinatalikod niya ako nang pagkakahiga saka niyakap. He caged me in his arms in spooning position like we always do."Anong oras na? Hindi ka pa ba aalis?" wala sa sariling tanong ko habang kinakalma ang sarili.Zach's arms around me tightened. He even kissed my shoulder and head before pulling me closer."Nah. I won't go anywhere, Ava. I'll stay until Sunday with you."Napaawang ang bibig ko. Akmang haharap ako kay Zach nang pigilan niya ako sa pamamagitan nang paghigpit ng yakap sa akin. He even wrapped his legs
Ruins of a Sinner Denying the Reality
Napaawang ang bibig ko nang bigla niyang hawakan ang aking kaliwang braso kung saan nando'n ang hindi pa ring humihilom na sugat na ginawa ko sa aking sarili. It was still covered with bandage and the stinging pain was still there.Tumiim ang bagang ni Zach habang hinahaplos ang nakabenda kong braso. He didn't ask me about it or what was the reason of my punctured arm. He didn't also ask me about what happened to me last Wednesday after he stood me up to fuck Joven."Don't let yourself get hurt again, Ava. I don't like it when you're hurt."You're hurting me, Zach. You're hurting more than any kind of wound."Hindi mo ba itatanong kung bakit ako may sugat?"Sa halip na sagutin ako, paakyat na gumapang ang kamay niya mula sa nakabendang parte ng braso ko paakyat sa balikat ko. He caressed my shoulder before his other hand caressed my hair. "I miss you so damn much, Ava."Kaagad akong napapikit nang bumaba ang labi niya sa labi ko. He kissed me fully, with so much ferocity and I got los
Ruins of a Sinner They Both Know
I LEAN comfortably on my leather sofa seat on the right most corner of the vintage cafe as I munched on my red velvet cake. My eyes never left Zach who was now sitting, three tables away from me, with three gentlemen in semi-formal attires. I was enjoying myself as I witnessed how professional he is in dealing with his client. A smile would immediately spread on my lips when his gaze will turn to me and then he will cock his eyebrows at me as if checking if I'm alright.Actually, kanina pa hindi nawawala ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. Yesterday, the whole Saturday was about Zach and I enjoying ourselves inside our villa. Then, I woke up from Zach's kisses and ticklish caresses. He made me breakfast in bed and we took bath together. Sunod no'n, inaya niya akong ikutin ang buong resort and I really did a good time- because this is the first time in the span of our almost one year of relationship that we actually acted like real couples. We hold hands in public, he made me laughed with his no
Ruins of a Sinner Their Wrong Little Bubble
NANLALAKI ang mga mata ko nang marating namin ni Zach ang dulong bahagi ng beach ng resort na 'to. Hindi katulad sa may bukanang bahagi ng beach, 'yung malapit sa mga villas, walang katao-tao ang bahaging ito. The bed of white sand and the sound of crashing waves were the things that greeted the both of us. No noise. No polluted air. And no trace of trash or plastic. Parang nasa ibang lugar kami bigla kahit na ang totoo ay nasa kabilang bahagi lang kami ng beach. My eyes scanned the whole place and my smile stretched on my lips when I noticed the magnificent rock formation on the most right end of the place. Pero mas lumawak ang ngiti ko nang mapansin ko ang tila isang malaking cottage na nakaset-up sa gitna ng buhangin, gamit ang puting kumot at kawayan. Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko nang mapansin ko ang isang pathway na patungo sa cottage na 'yon gamit ang mga nagkalat na piraso ng petals ng rosas. I sighed dreamily as I noticed a set of table for two on the side of the cottage. Mala
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- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 9: In Another Universe III
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 8: In Another Universe II
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 7: In Another Universe
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 6: Torture
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 5: Triumph
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 4: Lie
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 3: Wrath
- Ruins of a Sinner Special Chapter 2: Regrets
