INICIAR SESIÓN会社で20億のプロジェクトをまとめた後、ボーナス600万を手にして、新車に乗り換えようとしていたところだった。 社長である夫の宗像研人(むなかた あきと)が、みすぼらしい粥の入ったどんぶりと、【ボーナス0円】と書いている給与明細を持って、私、須藤安奈(すどう あんな)の前に現れた。 「すまない、安奈。会社の赤字が本当に深刻でね。僕の手作りのお粥を君がプロジェクトをまとめたご褒美にしよう。資金繰りが戻り次第、必ず新車を贈るから、ね」 ところがすぐに、研人の後輩である女性、紀野愛雲(きの あいも)のSNSを見て、いつもはケチな研人が彼女に6000万のボーナスを特別に承認し、さらに4000万のBMWの新車を贈ったことを知った。 【業績が良くなくても、先輩が私を思いっきり甘やかしてくれるもん】 お金がないのは、ただ研人が私のために金を使いたくないだけの嘘だった。 私は騒がず、黙って彼女の投稿にいいねとコメントを残した。 【末永くお幸せに】 間もなく、研人から電話がかかり、焦った様子で言った。 「変に思わないでくれ。愛雲の母親が癌でね、同窓のよしみで特別にボーナスを承認したんだ。 車を買ったのも、病院への往復の時間を短縮して、仕事に専念できるようにするためだ。すべて会社の利益を考えてのことだ。 君が余計なことをするから、みんなに愛雲が僕たちの結婚に割り込む悪者だと思われてしまう。すぐにコメントを消して誤解を解いてくれ。前に君が行きたいと言っていた新婚旅行、一緒に行ってやるから」 私は【ボーナス0円】と書いている給与明細を破いた。 「もう行かない。市役所に離婚届を出しに行きましょう」
Ver másELLE
My muscles coiled and extended as I continued pushing my speed.
Was it really too much to ask for that I would be able to outrun my troubles? I did not think so, but then again, what did I know?
Kade and I collapsed onto the ground only thirty minutes later. We were both panting messes. I was surprised that we had been able to keep that pace up for over an hour.
“Are you ready to talk about it yet?” Kade asked, pulling me into his arms.
I looked into his handsome face, remembering the very first time that I had seen it. Goddess, it felt like such a long time ago, but it was not in all actuality. There had been quite a bit of life that occurred since then that just made it feel like a lifetime ago.
My eyes traveled over each feature. Gray eyes that could either be filled with many emotions or a cold as the tundra. His straight nose, soft lips, and angular jaw. It all made up his perfect self.
“This has to stay between us,” I told him.
He nodded right away. I never kept anything from him unless I was specifically told by Selene that I had to. Thankfully, that had only happened once. He understood the heavy burden that being privy to secrets could cause.
Kade’s fingers took my hair tie out, nails gently scratching across my scalp. I groaned with how good it felt. My mate always knew how to relax me.
“Dangerous threats are going to be worming their way into all of our lives. Ziyah’s going to be forced to face the Dark Fae sooner than expected, but I’m not certain how much sooner or the circumstances surrounding it. That leads to Brynn’s Vessel prophecy coming to fruition. I don’t know who or what evil it is that she’ll have to defeat, but I do know that it has some connection to Imeela. On top of that, Selene said that we need to begin working on our Council plan.”
I sighed and buried my face in his neck, inhaling his sexy scent, and allowing it to rush through me.
One wrong move and we could lose everything that we had worked so hard to build. Each of us had families now. Ziyah was pregnant, we had our twins, Brynn had Mira and was pregnant with Kalen, and even our closest people had their own families now.
‘Cheer up, my favorite human. Those are reasons why we’ll be successful. We fight for our families, love, and freedom. The others fight for power. The purity of our motivations empowers our will,’ Faye told me.
I could never have asked for a better wolf. She could be a pain in my ass and cryptic as hell, but she had always been my cheerleader, lending me confidence when I would get overwhelmed by reality and pulled under by fear.
“Now, I see why you needed to exhaust yourself,” he murmured, kissing my temple. “Well, it’s a good thing that we have such powerful allies. I know that won’t eliminate every risk, but I believe this is why the gods chose each of us and brought us all together. We’ll get through everything just like we always have, by having each other’s backs.”
I nodded and smiled at him. He was right. We would do it together.
There was a lot on the agenda for today. It was my very first time attending an Alpha meeting. Ziyah was excused because of the Dark Fae issue. There were shifters who had connections to them, and we did not want to run the risk of alerting them of who she was connected to.
We took a quick shower, sadly without shower sex because our impromptu run went longer than we had anticipated and got dressed.
I chose a navy dress that came to my knees and paired it with a silver blazer. The dress fit like a glove, and Kade definitely approved if the very slow perusal of it, mixed with the lust pelting the bond, was any indication.
My hair was put into a low bun. The makeup I chose was minimal but highlighted the features that my mate loved the most – my eyes and plump lips that he loved wrapped around his cock. He licked his lips as if he knew exactly what I was thinking about.
“You look fucking gorgeous, darling,” he told me with a growl.
“Thank you. I chose this look just for you today. It’ll give you something to focus on in case the Alphas try your patience. You look incredibly sexy yourself.”
And he really did. He was wearing a pair of black dress slacks and dark gray button-down shirt that really made the color of his eyes pop. His hair was tussled just the way I liked it. He was also wearing the custom watch that I gave him for his birthday.
A knock on the door came right before he could attack my lips. The frustrated growl that left him had me giggling. He glared at me and went to answer the door. I would just make up for it later. I grabbed my bag and followed behind him.
Ziyah would be watching the twins while we were gone today. According to her, she needed a distraction that would keep her active. I remembered what it was like carrying twins, but she was carrying an extra pup in her womb, and Fae pregnancies were typically rougher than a shifter’s pregnancy. Yet, she still felt she needed to be more active. She was definitely an adorable woman.
“We’ll make sure your mate is on his best behavior,” I teased my brother.
A single brow of his rose up in challenge. His arms were crossed over his chest, and his signature cocky smirk made its way onto his face.
Ziyah just snorted, knowing that her mate loved fucking with people, and there was no taming him. It was one of the many things that she loved about him. They complemented each other just like any good mates should.
“I’ve already incentivized him to keep his meddling to a minimum,” she said, winking at him.
I definitely did not want to know what she promised because there were many things that I never wanted to know about my brother. We were close but definitely not that close.
We said goodbye to the twins before we headed out. Apollo and Chris also accompanied us since it was common that Betas would also join the meeting. Caiathus came as my guard, seeing as how some Lunas did have personalized guards.
The meeting was at the Clear Stone pack, which was only an hour away from us, so it was not a bad drive.
The meeting’s locations changed each time, and the design of the schedule was at the discretion of the hosting Alpha. Sadly, that meant I would have to just be patient and wait. I hated being unprepared. It was a fatal flaw of mine. Not exactly fatal, but it was the same concept.
My phone started ringing with a video call from Ziyah. I answered it and saw our boys.
“Hey guys, the boys wanted me to call you before your meeting,” Ziyah said.
They were handsome little men who would be heartbreakers when they got older. Their wide smiles showed their matching dimples.
They were identical twins, but they had differences in their mannerisms. Gabriel was more patient, whereas Grant was more of a daredevil. Grant was more empathetic than his brother, which was interesting given that he was the risktaker. However, something that they both shared was an amazing heart that loved to see people happy.
“Momma! Dadda!” they said together. “Luck! Love you!”
They looked so proud of themselves, just as they should be. ‘Momma’ and ‘Dadda’ were not new, but ‘luck’ and ‘love you’ definitely were. They always telepathically sent us their love, so this was the first time they said it.
My smile could not get any bigger than it was right now. Being their mother was the biggest honor I had ever been given in my entire life. It was a blessing that I thanked Selene for each and every day.
“Thank you, sweethearts. This means so much to us! We love you too,” I told them.
“Yes. We do,” Kade agreed. “Make sure that you’re good boys for your Aunty Ziyah.”
Their ‘Alpha determination’ look fell across both of their features, so I knew that they would definitely do that. They were always really well-mannered. There were days when they pushed boundaries, but it was a lot less than we had been expecting. We knew that our future pups would not have the Fae-like qualities, but we would never want them to be something that they were not.
We told them goodbye and hung up. I was glad that we got to see them before we went in today. It filled up my happiness meter, which I certainly needed today. This meeting would not going to go as planned because certain dangerous activities of an Alpha would be brought to light.
Ziyah was great for them, and they definitely loved her. They had been Team Ziyah since the first time they met her. Both of them were great students who worked very hard to practice what she taught them. Even Caiathus had been surprised with how easily they were mastering the techniques that she was teaching them.
“How are she and the triplets doing?” I asked my brother.
I saw the momentary frown on his face with that question but was not certain what caused the frown. He had not mentioned anything happening.
“I underestimated what she meant when she said Fae pregnancies were hard on the mother. She tries to play it off as not being a big deal, but the morning sickness even wakes her up in the middle of the night. Not to mention that her body is constantly uncomfortable, but she said that her mother had some special tea that would help. Something about it also seems to be triggering her visions,” he explained with a sigh.
I had always thought my morning sickness had been bad, but at least it never woke me up in the middle of the night. It made me wonder if there was anything that I could do to help her. I could always reach out to her mother and ask.
It was easy to see how much it pained Dante for her to be miserable like that. Kade hated what I had to go through, and mine was just typical pregnancy shit. Well, except for the shortened pregnancies.
“I would venture a guess that it is the Fae magic inside of the triplets that is acting as an amplifier,” Caiathus explained after a moment of thought. “A trick that I learned from my mother when she was pregnant was that massaging peppermint oil onto the abdomen before bed will help the sickness. This will be the very first time that there have ever been triplets in our entire family. The only other multiples are my father and uncle. You should be proud of that,” he said, clapping his shoulder.
The smug look of satisfaction on his face could have been seen a mile away. My brother was a highly competitive person, even beyond the competitiveness of an Alpha.
He grabbed his phone, sent a message out (I would guess to his mate about this), and put it away with a smirk.
“What can I say? I’m just thorough,” he said.
“And had to one-up,” Kade retorted. “We had twins, so you had to go and get three. Goddess, there’s going to be five Alphas between our two packs. Nobody will fuck with them.”
Holy shit. He was right. There would be five Alphas. Two Shadow Wielders with some Fae magic in our pack. Then three hybrids to the Trelinin line in their pack.
One thing that I knew for certain was that this next generation for all three packs would be filled to the brim with power. Kalen was already showing Vessel power in the form of a neat shield that protected Brynn once already.
Jackson and Imeela’s children were bound to be powerful too. That was what Faye had said at least. Something about a divine blessing, so I had no idea what that would entail.
We pulled up to Clear Stone’s border. The male patrol was very buff, so I would put money on him being a beast in the ring.
“Alpha Kade, Luna Elle, Beta Apollo, and Luna’s guard for the Nightshade pack. We also have Alpha Dante and Beta Chris for the Shadow Falls pack,” Kade informed him.
He checked his roster and checked us off. Security had to be even tighter for Alpha meetings because there was leadership from multiple packs congregating together. These types of events were attractive to the crazies.
“Welcome to the Clear Stone pack. Follow this road all the way down to the packhouse, and there’re attendants there to help you find where you need to be,” he greeted us before waving us through.
There was anticipation winding its way through me. I felt like something was going to happen today. It did not feel like anything would be wrong, but something good would happen. I always welcomed the good and told the bad to fuck off.
Here went nothing…
研人はぶつぶつと一通り言い募り、安奈の手を掴んで自分の顔を叩かせようとした。その様子に周囲の人々が集まってきた。安奈の顔色はますます険しくなり、手を引き戻して、嘲るように鼻で笑った。「私たち、もう終わったって言ったでしょ。もう二度と私にまとわりつかないで」かつて彼女が彼に夢中だった頃、彼は彼女の真心を地の塵に踏みつけた。今更、彼女の愛はもう消えている。その状況で、彼はどうして自分の謝罪と復縁の申し出を、安奈が受け入れると思うのか。研人は安奈の非情な言葉に、心を刃で刺されたような痛みを覚えた。今この場で話し合わなければ、次の機会はもう二度とないと分かっていた。研人は唇を噛みしめ、あの時盗み聞きした真実を口にした。「安奈、僕が君と一緒になった時、確かに利害から出発していた。しかしその後、僕は本当に君を愛そうと努力した。ところが、君と義母さんの会話を盗み聞きしてしまった。君が僕と結婚したのも、僕の金のためだったんだ。それ以来、君が金の話をするたびに、そのことが頭に浮かぶ。だから僕は、君に真心を捧げられなくなってしまった」安奈はようやく合点がいった。かつて自分を悩ませた疑問が、今日ようやく解けたのだ。――なるほど、研人は金に不自由していないはずなのに、いつも自分に厳しく、あらゆる理由で節約を迫ってきたのは、金がないのが本当の理由ではなかったのだ。本質は、研人が自分のために金を使うのを惜しんでいただけのこと。あるいは、彼女が利益を得て、自立する力をつけ、彼の支配から抜け出すのを恐れていたのだ。それは研人の望むところではなかった。安奈はふと笑った。「盗み聞きしたなら、全部聞けばよかったのに。どうして途中でやめたの?母が言った言葉だけ聞いて、私が最後に何と言ったか聞こえなかったんじゃない?私があなたと結婚したのは、決してあなたのお金のためじゃない。だから母にお金をせびれと言われても、私は断ったの。私の給料も、歩合も、全て、私は何の不平も言わずにあなたにあげたのに。それでもまだ不満なの?」安奈はもう一度、首を横に振った。文子は確かに少々金に汚かった。かつて安奈自身もその点をひどく嫌い、文子はいつも度量が小さいと思っていた。しかしあの頃、認知症を患っていた文子は、あの人たち
研人はその言葉で、かつての自分がいかに愚かで、救いようのない男だったかを思い出した。そんなことをされて、安奈が傷ついて去っていったのも当然だ。「安奈、僕が今何を言っても、君が受けた傷を償いきれると思っていない。しかし僕が本当に反省していると信じてほしい。僕は今、全ての真実を知った。君が当時僕を助けてくれた人だ。僕が紀野愛雲に良くしていたのは、彼女が君の手柄を横取りしていたからだ。僕は彼女が自分の命の恩人だと思い込んでいたから、特別に扱っていた。もし君が本当の命の恩人だと早く知っていれば、彼女にしていたように、君にしただろう。いや、もっと良くしていたはずだ」しかし安奈は嘲笑いながら首を横に振った。「私たちの間は、最初に一緒になった時点からもう問題を抱えていたのよ。紀野さんの出現は、ただ導火線に火をつけただけ。彼女の妨害がなくても、私はいつかあなたのもとを去っていたわ」以前なら、安奈は愛雲が自分の結婚を壊したと恨んでいただろう。しかし三年間の経験で、彼女はもっと広い世界を知った。そして次第に、恋愛から抜け出していた。彼女は研人をはなれてからやっと気づいた――研人は最初から自分を愛していなかったのだと。研人は彼女と結婚することに承諾したのも、彼女が彼にもたらす利益だけを見ていたからだ。彼は生まれつきの極端な利己主義者だ。彼には心がないのだ。だから安奈が注ぎ込んだ全ての真心は、この巨大なブラックホールに飲み込まれ、一片も残らなかった。一度の失敗に懲りて、安奈は今ではもう人を愛することが怖くなっていた。だから全ての心を仕事に注いでいるしかない。愛雲の名前が出ると、研人の瞳は暗くなり、すぐに怒りを込めて言った。「紀野愛雲は大嘘つきだ。彼女は何年もの間、命の恩を横取りしていた。僕がそんなに良くしてやったのに、彼女は恒一と組んで僕を陥れた。まあ、彼女は金を掴んだが、ギャンブルにのめり込み、半年もせずに全ての金をすってしまった。去年、彼女に再会した時には、足をへし折られ、通りで物乞いをしていて、僕のことも分からなくなっていた。くそっ!これが天罰だ!あの時、彼女は恒一と組んで、君が僕を裏切ったと言い、僕はその場の怒りで君を殴ってしまった。本当に申し訳ない。もし君がまだその恨みを晴らし
研人の足が止まり、その瞬間、全身の血液の流れが止まったかのように感じられた。彼の視線はその子供に釘付けになった。まだ幼く、二歳くらいに見えた。子供の父親のウォルトンは優しげに二人を見つめ、研人が見つめていることに気づくと、礼儀正しく彼に会釈をした。安奈は何も言わず、子供を抱いて、ウォルトンと楽しそうに話しながら立ち去っていった。遠くまで行ってから、ウォルトンが振り返り、まだその場に立って失望した様子の研人を見て、笑いながら安奈に尋ねた。「安奈さん、あの男性は誰?」安奈の目には何の感情も浮かんでいなかった。「私の元夫」この三年間、彼女はとっくに当時の全てを忘れていた。かつて彼に密かな恋心を抱いていた日々も、自分が目を曇らせて間違った人を愛しただけだと思っていた。ウォルトンは驚いて口を押さえた。「彼が君の元夫?じゃあ今回はよりを戻そうとしているんじゃないか?なんてことだ!安奈さん、俺と子供で彼に誤解を与えてしまったんじゃないか?すぐに彼に説明に行くよ。俺の子供はまだ小さくて、誰にでもママと呼んでしまうだけなんだ。君は今も独身なんだから」安奈は笑って彼を制した。「大丈夫よ。どう思われても構わない。誤解されたままでいいわ。その方が厄介払いになって丁度いいもの」ウォルトンは心配そうに安奈を見つめたが、彼女の態度が固いのを見て、無理には言わなかった。ただため息をつき、彼女の腕から子供を受け取った。ウォルトンの妻は、安奈と仕事の話をするのを待っているところだった。……安奈は仕事の話を終えると、すぐにホテルに戻って休んだ。彼女はここに来たのは休暇ではなく、出張だったのだ。だから、しっかり一晩休んだ後、すぐに階下で食事をし、次の視察の準備をした。すると、案の定、彼女は再び研人と出会った。研人は彼女の前に立ち、元々口数の少ない彼は、しばらく沈黙した後、目を赤くして言った。「安奈、君の子供はもう二歳になったのか?でも、僕たちが別れたのは三年前だ。どうして君はすぐに他の男と子供を作れるんだ?」安奈は疲れて眉間を揉んだ。「私のことはあなたに関係ない。宗像さん、あなたには私を問い詰める立場もない。私たちはとっくに離婚してるんだから」その言葉に、研人は取り乱し始めた。「しかし離婚の
「知り合いだ」「知らないわ」二人はほぼ同時に答えた。「知り合いだ」と言ったのは研人だった。関係を必死に否定したのは、安奈だった。その冷たい言葉が安奈の口から出た瞬間、研人は心に穴を開けられたかのような激痛に襲われた。皆の好奇の目を前に、彼は口を開きかけた。二人の激しい恋愛と、その因縁の物語を語ろうとした。しかし最後には、安奈の冷たい眼差しに直面して、彼は全てを飲み込んだ。「ああごめん、知らないんだ。僕の記憶違いだ」彼は笑顔を作って同意した。しかし顔を伏せたその時、彼は長く抑え続けてきた感情を抑えきれず、涙が激しく溢れ出た。「宗像さん、どうして泣いている?何かあったのか?」研人は手を伸ばして自分の涙を拭った。しかし涙は川の水のように絶え間なく流れた。彼はエールが差し出したティッシュを受け取り、すすり泣きながら言った。「大丈夫だ。ただ、君たちのような良い友達に出会えて、とても嬉しいだけだ」研人は嘘をついていなかった。ここで再び安奈に偶然出会えたことは、この人生最大の幸運だった。彼はこのまま一生、安奈と完全にすれ違ってしまうのではないかと危惧していた。まさか天がまだ一度だけ、やり直す機会を彼に与えてくれたとは。――安奈にさえ会えれば、すべてが変わる。彼は信じていた。安奈の自分への一途な想いに甘えれば、心からの謝罪さえあれば、必ず彼女の心を動かせて、彼女に再び自分を受け入れさせられると。皆が研人を慰めている間も、研人の視線は常に安奈に注がれていた。しかし安奈は彼を一度も見ることなく、終始他の者と談笑し、時折スマホを確認していた。三十分後、安奈は眉をひそめ、立ち上がって別れを告げた。「会社の用事があるので、先に失礼するね。また今度会いましょう」研人はその言葉に慌てた。安奈が行ってしまえば、次にこんなに良い機会で再び彼女に偶然出会えることはないかもしれない。研人はなりふり構わず、すぐに彼女の行く手を阻んだ。安奈の氷のような瞳が彼に向けられた。研人は唇を噛んだ。「同胞だし、連絡先を交換してくれないか?あるいは、名刺を一枚でも……」彼はただ安奈との繋がりを断ちたくなかっただけだ。安奈は鼻で笑い、手を振ってきっぱりと断った。「申し訳ないが、見知らぬ方と
悲しみが私を押し潰されそうだった。母は私を一人で育て上げるのにどれほどの苦労をしたことか。それなのに――私は母にこんなにも辛い思いをさせてしまった。「母さん、一緒にここを離れるわ。二度と戻ってこない」私は先輩の朝比奈に連絡を取り、入社契約書にサインした。彼女は私のために住まいも用意してくれた。この間、私は母のそばに寄り添い、毎日栄養満点の手料理を作った。母の顔色が徐々に良くなっていくのを見て、ようやく安心できた。この間、研人は一度も母を見舞いに来なかった。花束や贈り物、そして謝罪の言葉を届けさせてはいたが。【愛雲は一人で入院していて、世話をする者がいない。だから
「君はこんなに長く眠っていて、何も口にしていなかった。僕が粥を作ったから、熱いうちに飲め」彼は保温容器を開けた。中には白粥が入っていて、粒がはっきりとし、脂っこさのない清らかなものだった。彼はスプーンでひとすくいし、熱を吹き消して、私の口元に運んだ。結婚して七年、彼がこれほど私に気を配ったのはこれが初めてだった。けれど私はその好意には応じず、スプーンと茶碗を一緒に叩き落とした。粥が床に散らばった。研人の顔に失望の色が浮かんだ。薬を交換に来た看護師がそれを見て、彼の肩を持った。「ちょっと、ご主人はあなたを助けるために、瓦礫を運び続けて、全ての指はすりむけました
「ああ!私の鼻が!」愛雲は殴られて歪んだ鼻を押さえ、悲鳴をあげた。研人はそれを見てすぐに焦り出し、私を一喝して突き飛ばした。「義母さんがどうしてもひざまずいて床を拭くと言い出し、終わったら僕たちにお駄賃をくれと言い出したんだ。愛雲は義母さんの相手をしてやっていただけだ。君は人の親切も分からずに、手を出すとはどういうことだ!すぐに愛雲に謝れ!」愛雲の鼻からはまだ血が流れていたが、彼女は満面に陰険な表情を浮かべた。「研人の顔に免じて、彼女が謝れば許してあげる。告訴はしないわ。ただし、ちゃんと誠意を見せなさいよ。土下座して謝罪することよ!」研人は愛雲の血を拭きながら、
耳がキーンと鳴った。頬に感じる痛みに、私はぼんやりと研人を見つめた。私たちが結婚して七年。私は彼を数え切れないほど助け、数々の困難を共に乗り越えてきた。なのに――彼は私を信じない。それどころか、愛雲が何気なく口にした一言で、私が彼を裏切ったと疑い、手を挙げて私を殴った。たとえ私はとっくに彼への想いを断ち切っていたとしても、この瞬間、全身に深い失望が押し寄せるのを感じた。七年間の献身は、所詮ただの笑い話だったのか。……まあいい。本来なら、研人に愛雲と恒一の行動に気をつけるよう忠告しようと思っていた。しかし彼が私に少しの信頼も寄せていないのなら、余計なことに
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