Bakit Nais Ni Bugan Na Mamatay Novels & Stories

Am I dead? "You've been a good girl and I'm so proud of you, my little Mita," she said with a smile on her face. "Mom, I miss you so much but why were you here? Am I dead?" I asked her and she smiled at me. "Not yet Sweetheart, it's not your time yet, I'm here because I know how troubled you are right now," she said and she wasn't even wrong. I am troubled. I know that. "Mommy, I don't know anymore, life is so cruel, and sad these past few months," I said to her while she was brushing my hair with her hand.

I felt so lonely. I felt as if I am the only person on earth at the moment. My life had suddenly turned tragic without my nanna. Was this how death really take people away without even asking for permission? If he wanted to take someone from me, why would it be my nanna? Was I the one who offended him or nanna herself? Whichever way it was, he could have just asked for my own opinion, I would have offered myself to save my nanna. My nanna never deserved death, so why? Zaila had been with me since my mother died, it is, since forever. My mother died in childbirth.

Problema nitong lakaking toh? "Shit!!bakit hindi nya sakin sinabi!!"Sigaw nya sabay sabunot sa sarili. "Huh?what do you mean?bakit naman sayo saaabihin ni mommy na may baby sa tyan nya?"kunot noo kong tanong sa kanya. "Dahil nay nangyari samin bago mangyari ang pagkamatay ng magulang mo!"Sigaw nya at napahilamos ng mukha!

Hindi ko pa rin maintindihan ang dahilan ng nanay ko, kung bakit kailangan niyang itago sa akin ang bagay na iyon. "Paano kung oo, sasama ka sa kanya?" Tila nag aalangan na sabi ni mama. Nangunot naman ang noo ko, kaya ba niya itinago at ayaw niyang pag-usapan namin dahil baka kunin ako ni Mr. Buenavista? "B-Bakit naman kailangan na umabot sa ganoon, mama?" Nahihirapang wika ko.

"BAKIT AYAW MONG MAGPAKITA SAKIN KUNG TALAGANG BUHAY KA?" "Buhay ako. Hindi ako mamamatay. Di ba't nakita mo ako sa airport? Aalis ka na pala. Bakit? Tatakasan mo ba ako ulit? Iiwanan mo ba ako ulit?" "MAY NANGYARI LANG SA EROPLANONG SINASAKYAN NAMIN KAYA KAMI NAKABALIK. PERO KUNG HINDI, NATITIYAK KO, HINDI MO NA KAMI MAGAGAMBALA PA SA AMERICA."

Sigaw ni Papa. Mama sobbed in tears and covered her eyes. Dad came over to hug her. "Alam ko, sobrang nasasaktan ka sa pagkawala ng anak natin, and up to this day, you still can't accept it. Even I, can't accept it, Nat. Kaya kahit kitang-kita ng dalawang mata ko kung paano sumabog ang sasakyan habang nasa loob ang anak natin ay hindi padin kita pinigilan na subukan muli ang paghahanap. I let you if that's what you want. If that's what will calm you down, if that's the only thing that can give you hope to continue in this life and with this family. Pero ito? na ginagawa mo? Hindi kita mapapaburan dito. This is not right. The child needs her family."

"Grabe ka naman. Hindi ko naman inakalang hihimatayin ako kagabi. Sana ginising mo ako para nakauwi ako agad o kaya sana hinayaan mo na lang ako doon sa sahig— "At kapag namatay ka doon, ako ang lalabas na killer. You should be thankful that I let you sleep in my condo. Pero kapag naulit pa 'yun, malalagot ka talaga sa'kin, Bakery girl." Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya at sa tawag niya sa 'kin. Ang lakas yata ng tama nito sa ulo. Dinugo lang ang ilong, mamamatay na agad? May namamatay ba sa gano'n?