Gusto Ko Nang Mamatay Mga Nobela at Kwento

At that moment, standing silently in the corner of her room, I felt my spirit almost dissolve into tears. Suddenly, my mother’s voice rang out from the kitchen, "Sweetheart, dinner's ready! Come down and eat something!" “No need!” Leisha replied almost coldly, her voice tinged with obvious disgust and exhaustion. Downstairs in the kitchen, my mother seemed unaware of the shift in mood, busying herself with the dishes and cutlery. “That wretched girl! She actually had the nerve to die! It might be easy for her, but what about my poor Leisha, huh?”

Suddenly, a searing, gut-wrenching agony tore through my chest. It was a pain I had never felt before, a sense of loss so profound it stole the very air from my lungs. My wolf let out a pained, guttural howl. "The mate bond… it’s gone." "No!" My heart stuttered, panic clawing at my throat. I immediately called my assistant. "Find her. I don’t care how—track everywhere she’s been. And pull my mate-bond documents from the pack archives. Do it now!"

I mumbled inaudibly. "No," she stated bluntly. "Even if you don't give me the nectar, I will still take it by impetus." She said, I watched in horror as she clenched her fist, and I felt a strange force choking me more tightly. Without being told, I know my team is also feeling the same things. Black blood split out of my mouth, and I started coughing vigorously. I can feel my intestines and every organ twisting in my stomach, and I can feel them burning badly as if they were placed on a fire.

Two days since Nonna Carmela walked down the valley road with my translation folded into her apron hem, and the silence that has followed is the loudest thing I have ever heard. I press my palm flat against the open page. The paper is thin from being handled too many times, the purple ink of Giovanni Randazzo's stamp bleeding through from the other side. I have memorized every number, every letter, every stroke of the initial T that condemns a man I have met only once and understood completely in that single hour. The authorization for Lorenzo's death sits on my lap like an animal that has finally stopped breathing, and I am the one who killed it.

Sagot ko at bumalik sa pagkakasubsob sa unan. Napalikwas rin ako agad ng may mapagtanto. Hindi ko dapat siya iniiyakan. Eh ano ngayon kung mahal ko siya. Matagal ko ng hinintay na malaman at makamtan ang hustisya sa pagkamatay sa mga magulang at ngayong nalaman kong totoo ngang buhay ang Papa ko ay ang hustisya nalang ng Mama ko ang kailangan. Ang hustisya ay hustisya. Walang mahal mahal. Kung hindi siya ang para sa'kin then hindi.

I couldn’t believe someone could just throw away this delicious food. I had never ever thrown food away in my life, even when it was expired or rotten. I made sure to always finish it no matter how badly it tasted or how painfully my stomach ached after I ate it. At least it was food.. it was either I ate it or I starved. “Eww,..Disgusting.” I paused to see a teenage blond girl in a pink jacket. She was eyeing me with raw disgust. “People like you should just do the world a favour and just disappear.” she sneered before walking away.

“Kung ang magaganda nga, hindi lahat kagusto-gusto. Paano ang mga pangit na tungkol sa akin? Eh ‘di lalong hindi kagusto-gusto.” Nagbuga ako ng malalim na buntonghininga. “Hindi rin naman lahat ng pangit, hindi na kagusto-gusto. Pero kung tingin mo, hindi ko magugustuhan lahat ng bagay na tungkol sa ‘yo, kahit na maganda man o hindi . . . eh ‘di hindi ko gugustuhin. Hindi ko pipilitin sarili ko.” She gulped as her smile vanished. Sa pagkakataong ‘yon, alam kong iba na kaagad ang iniisip niya.

"I'm really sorry.. I guess I'm really an unlucky person. I guess I am the incarnation of death itself.." Bawal siguro akong magmahal o mamuhay ng normal. Bawal mapalapit sa kung sino man. Dahil lahat ng taong napapalapit sa akin, biglang nawawala. Lahat sila iniiwan ako. "It is you driving them to their end by crossing the line. You know that you can't touch them if you don't have special connection. It is not my fault if you keep losing them because you keep breaking the Taboo!"

Parang may something sa loob ng katawan ko na s'ya palang ang nagparamdan. "Kaya kita inaya dito kasi gusto ko 'tong gawin bago ako mawala sa mundo. Kasama ang pagkain ng marami sa dying list ko. I want to eat like a king. Yung bigla nalang akong mapapagod sa kabusugan. Yung mapapadighay nalang ako at masasabi kong worth it ang paglaki ng t'yan ko." wika n'ya saka muling kumain.