Here I Come Again On My Own Novels & Stories

I will get away from here, again. No one can will stop me. -------------------------------------------------------

I say, to no one, to everyone, to a version of myself four thousand years gone. I keep walking. ~~~

I had come here determined to earn something on my own‚ without anyone knowing. So who was this “he”?

Me I am also tattered Shattered Am I No it’s just a bad in dream What I get Is living life Like a different being Dirt makes me look clean Cleaner than many In life’s stream But I will repair self And also mend Parts of my shell Come celebrate this day With me Sounds silly It’s strange life ways We don’t know When we are meant For another weep So smile this day With me I again repeat Come orange mangoes Come bananas kiwi Come let’s eat with me I share food For not in food But in your human life I more believe I have little more money I will give what I hold I am at top today within Just a smile away From destiny Don’t break my day Let me too smile From within My way Enjoy sun rise again What

And I stood there— Breathing hard. Alone again.

“You’ll come back! You have nowhere else. You’re barren and you’re old and you’re nothing… nothing without me.” My voice cracked, but I kept shouting anyways. Even though I knew I was alone in the house. “She’ll come back soon. She has to.” I staggered into the living room and sunk into the couch. Waiting…

My mother's remarks were like a broken record that was playing in my mind multiple times. "You love yourself, Astra." I said to myself, giving comfort because of this fck situation of mine. I walked from nowhere. It was like I was none of myself. Later on, I saw an available bench. It's also lonely. Hence, I went there and gave my baby bench a companion. Heck. I am very close to craziness. "I'll live on my own already.." I just realised how difficult it is to live by yourself. No other companion and no one is willing to help you.

It was at the far east side of the town, at the very edge of a not so good neighborhood. I wasn't supposed to be there, people might say but it didn't bother me. I came for a specific task only: to seek and to conquer. It was the perfect place to see new faces, meet unexpected friends and be just you-- no one matters but yourself. It was just me and me alone. The song shifted into a more solemn one. You'll never know what hit you Won't see me closing in I'm gonna make you suffer This Hell you put me in I'm underneath your skin

Being me this age, going through this on my own sucks. ---------------

“No one will hear you.” Fuck, what have I done to myself?