I Cheated Myself Like I Knew I Would Novels & Stories

Don't forget your first payment is due on the first of next month. Tyler: [I really know I was wrong. All I can think about is our eight years together. I can't live without you.] I stared at 'I know I was wrong' and felt nothing but irony. [No. You knew you were wrong four years ago when you kissed her backstage at graduation.] Delivered. His chat stayed on Typing... for a long time. But nothing came through. Not long after, an unknown number called. I answered. Irene's fake-sweet voice came through.

Then I’ll wrestle them. And, argh! I hate myself before, even now. I have sinned Elise. I don’t know why I did it, but I cheated on her. I cheated, and I lied. And now, I have this feeling that things are unfolding behind my back. And when that time comes that is fully revealed, I hope Elise will forgive me.

Jesus, that's so complicated it makes my head spin. I'm so egoistic that I even helped Dean cheat, just because I wanted him. What kind of fucked up person have I become? Even if Nadine did the same to me, this is not how I am, not who I am. Although I'm single, I feel I pratically cheated myself. And even worse, my heart is breaking all over again, knowing we were both simply too drunk last night and he'll be back with her.

When Abigail noticed that Joshua was glowering at her because of me, she pouted and tried to explain, "That's not how I truly feel, darling. I just couldn't help myself because I love you too much." Joshua threw the diary at Abigail before roaring, "You couldn't help yourself, huh? That's why you purposely showed her this? This must be your fault. You must've said something to her to stir things up. That's why she lost faith in me. You're the one who resorted to deceitful tricks to chase her away!" Abigail was so frightened that her knees gave way. She slumped onto the floor, but she pretended to remain calm and unshaken.

"No. I didn't fuck him." Jimmy's features softened, but it's only for two seconds because my next three words are going to break it all over again. "But I cheated." "We were in a relationship and I did something with him. We didn't have sex, but it was wrong and I came here because I thought you were good. I felt you didn't deserve it. I figured I was a bad person, but now I see that—" I blink furiously. No way. I will not cry at a moment like this.

If I had not seen him toying with my car brakes in the past with my own eyes and heard how smugly he had laughed at my funeral with my own ears, I would have fallen for his act. The past was also repeating itself in this room. After the examinations ended, the class teacher, Nina Lee, had reported me for cheating. She had said my answers were identical to Dylan’s. When I looked at the two identical exam papers, I was unable to defend myself. In order to protect Dylan’s status as a top scholar and the Anderson family’s reputation, they sacrificed me without any hesitation. They forced me to admit that I had cheated and dropped out of school. In order to prevent me from telling the truth, they

he muttered, then turned and staggered out of the room like he couldn’t get away fast enough. I forced myself off the mattress, legs shaking, and peeled off the ruined shirt and bra as I walked. The second I stepped under the shower and twisted the knob, the tears came just as hard as the water. Hot, ugly sobs tore out of me. I was disgusting. I was no better than my husband. I had cheated. With a man almost half my age. I was pathetic, weak, vile.

She then ran away with that man and never returned to my life. As I witnessed how mommy broke her promise, it made me realize that she's been cheating on daddy even though he was still alive. That moment made me hate people who are cheating against people who only knew to give love and care to the deepest. But fuck this! This is effing crazy because I am one of the people that I hate most. “I hate myself! I hate myself,” I murmured. Mitch’s hand went to my shoulder, and I tapped it a few times. There's a smile on her face, and that smile made me feel that it's not too late to fix everything.

I didn’t wαnt to be thαt guy. But I wαs still so fucking hαrd it hurt. I shut the smαll bαthroom door αnd grαbbed myself‚ stroking with the kind of frustrαted pressure thαt should’ve been enough. But it wαsn’t. It never fucking wαs. Not when it cαme to her. It felt like cheαting myself‚ like punishing my body with something fαke while αll it wαnted‚ whαt I wαnted‚ wαs her. Only her. And she didn’t even reαlize it.

I shivered and then scowled at my reflection. I pushed away the guilt and the deep stab of grief that cut through me. It wasn’t my fault he was a cheater. I couldn’t have known he was a cheater. Up until that point, it had been everything that I had needed. Memories of my younger self, carefree and full of passion, flashed before my eyes. Cheater or not, he’d brought that part of me out when I thought it was completely gone, so while he was despicable, I couldn’t completely regret the night.