Novel & Cerita I Got A Feeling That I Just Can't Erase

He hates me. But the more I try to convince myself, the more I feel the undercurrent of doubt. The memory of his touch isn’t something I can easily erase. It lingers, gnawing at the edges of my resolve. I shake my head, trying to dispel the thoughts. I have to stay focused. I have to stay in control.

I am feeling a certain someone. Close.

I was looking at him without blinking as my eyes didn't want him to disappear from my sight. And when the car started to move he turned his face towards me but he became too late in that as the car moved ahead before anyone of us could see each other properly! I was completely shattered and wanted to cry out loud to lighten my heart but nothing came out of my eyes. Suddenly I fell out of energy, my knees wobbled and my back hit the door to gain support. Why am I feeling so heavy when the person whom I never wanted in my life is finally leaving me? Why am I not feeling free even after getting liberated?

I've been chasing that happiness for life yet I still can't get it, and now that I'm tired of running towards it, I won't even entertain it if it'll go to me willingly. He kept on whispering sweet words in my ear to make me feel better, but despite his efforts, I just ended up staring at the white ceiling, I still can't forget about everything. Will I still be able to forget? Because I don't think so. It's already tattooed inside my mind and it's already hard to remove. It can even stay for life.

uttered Erito feeling slightly guilty. “I know… The matter about feeling is an uncontrollable aspect. As I can’t force you to love me, to have the same feeling to me, I think the same thing goes to you. You can’t force me to stop this feeling either. You can’t force me not to love you, Erito…”

Just immediately I had this thought dampen my heart and I could do something right within me. It feels like something heavy and I could understand it. Unfortunately, since he doesn't see anything I think I would just have to do the needful quickly. I need to erase him from my mind and I know that would indeed be almost impossible, because I am used to everything that is him. Now, I feel my chest is pounding for him just like how it is for my mother. Things would have been this clear even from start, but I made it clumsy, now it becomes so difficult for him to man up to me.

Adrenaline rushed through me. I don't want to torment myself this badly. It's the room I never entered before. "Let me get my laptop," Adrian said as I snapped from my thoughts. “Huh? Oh, okay.” I looked at him and gave him a nod. I stood outside the room as he walked out with his laptop. I am grateful that I don't have any negative feelings left for him. I stare at the floor with faze at how in one day all those years feelings, that fondness and endearment I treasured dearly, fade away.

"I didn't know how to leave. All I knew was that there was no reason to come back." "I was fuckwit to make you feel that way." "I think those feelings were only temporary. I get depressed really quickly. But even when I didn't remember a thing about all this, I could feel you and our connection."

“That’s what scares me.” I sit up slowly, forcing him to release me. The sheets slide down, cool air brushing my skin. I don’t bother covering myself. It feels pointless after everything we’ve shared — bodies, blood, fear. I look down at my stomach again. Unmarked. Perfect. “That thing,” I say quietly. “When it tried to erase you. I felt something rise up. Like anger — but bigger. Like something old waking up.” Ezra sits up too, resting his forearms on his knees.

Interested. “You can’t hold something the system has already removed,” he said. “then why can I still feel it?” I shot back. that made him pause. Just for a second. and that was enough. because it meant this wasn’t complete. not fully. not perfectly. there was a flaw. and I had found it. “You think this place is absolute,” I said. “But it’s not.” The ground trembled. stronger now. the pulse Irregular. Unstable. “You’re still here,” I continued. “If it removed everything unnecessary”