I Never Thought Of It That Way Novels & Stories

He asked and once again I was quiet For someone who hasn’t thought about fun or having fun. Would I ever think about love or giving someone a chance? It had not once crossed my mind, I never thought about it ever. Even when I tried to think about it at that moment. It just felt really odd.

Maybe she was still too young to see it, still too naive. I thought to myself without speaking, 'As if we were ever really family.'

"I don't believe you" "You can choose to think whatever it is that you want, that is the truth. I don't know why I did it but when I saw those shirts, I only thought of you, and since we didn't get shy wedding gifts I don't know, I added a note but you know what forget it, I am just a whore so throw it out, I don't think I care that much, alright?"

What was i even thinking? Oh right... I wasn't thinking. I was just so overwhelmed that a person like him would want to date me back then in eleventh grade. Begin the shy, clumsy nerd that i was, always wearing oversized sweaters and leggings and my constantly pulling geek glasses, people never looked at me or spared me a second glance, so when he gave me his attention, i felt like i was in cloud nine. But I'm not that person anymore, so who does he think he is coming from no where and claiming to want an us. Especially not after what he did to me that night.

I look away first. And for the first time since yesterday— I don’t think about what he said. Or how he said it. I think about why. And I don’t have an answer. Not yet.

I'm lost in my own thoughts while they all carry on with their talk. It's just like a week ago when Ever came to visit me in our house. We talked normally and somehow forgot about our silly fight; we even discussed the start of class. He told me he was thinking about changing his strand, which perplexed me and even pushed him to think about it right away because the first day of class was approaching, but he just laughed at me and told me not to overthink it because he said that he had already handled it. I didn't ask further because I knew Ever was skilled at making decisions, and I even assumed he was joking because he really wanted to be an architect and thought that he was already seriou

I didn't wait to give her answer. That question had no answer. We weren't friends—friends do not fuck each other. We weren't family in any way. I'd never thought of it that way. “Um…I'm…I'm just a friend” I lied, turning back at once. My eyes narrowed as I stormed towards the exit. “You don't really know him, do you?" My heart tightened. I had never thought of it this way…never had I tried to see things from this angle. As I barged out of his house, his car was just driving into the doorway.

The misunderstanding would disappear. The more I thought about it, the more I felt that it was not a big deal. In fact, I was even a little excited.

I thought…" I cut him off. "You thought I was joking because it was April Fools' Day? Or that I was just throwing a tantrum? Either way, from your perspective, I have no one to rely on and I'm easy to persuade, so my feelings never really mattered. Isn't that right?" His expression froze. His lips parted as if he wanted to explain, but nothing came out except hesitation. "No… that's not what I meant. I just… I just…" I thought.

Irritating thoughts started circling my head. Why did Amelia or Dad or anybody else never told me? Why did they never tell me that Asher was that famous? Heck, why didn't I ever thought about it? I closed my eyes as a really intriguing thought racked in my brain. I just hope it wasn't true. I didn't want it to be true.