I Never Thought Of It That Way Novels & Stories

But somewhere deep down underneath all of it one thought sat cold and still and wouldn't move no matter how hard I pushed. Oh God, I thought. Please don't let it be who I think it is. Please....

"Well, I thought--I thought..." "You thought what? Tell me, what were you thinking?" "I thought maybe after that you wouldn't want me. And that it was better if I just pretended to stay dead. You ought to have moved on. That's how it's supposed to be. That's how life is supposed to be."

Keenan's POV: As we pull up to the bar Adam gets giddy like a kid in a candy store. I look at him and laugh. "Why are you so hyped up right now? it's just a bar. " "Because bro. it's not just a bar. it's a new bar for our kind. " "I still don't understand. " I said shaking my head and getting out of the car. "Maybe you'll understand when we get in there. " He smiles and patted my back.

I had a lot of ifs in my head but I wouldn’t let them get to me. “Think about it. I’m not saying you should make a decision immediately.”

I thought about what she just said and tried weighing it in my mind, if this was to be the reason it was most definitely a smart one. "So you see, you are just overthinking this." She said, As much as I didn't want to admit that fact to myself, I had no other choice than to do so. It was funny that I had never thought about it that way to myself. It was really funny but at the end of the day it comes down to what we know and what we didn't and this was something I didn't clearly know.

༒ ℑ𝔪𝔯𝔞𝔫༒ I don't rush into it. Not this time, not like before when everything I said came out of anger, sharp and messy, driven by emotion instead of thought. That version of me got eaten alive in this world, chewed up and thrown around like I didn't matter, like I didn't have any control over my own life. That version of me is gone. Now, I think first.

I felt deflated by her answer, but I am sure I could think of something. “Did you have something in mind?” “Well, more just a thought really. I am just not sure how it would benefit the pack.” “Why don’t you tell me, you never know. It is always good to think outside of the box. That is where some of the best ideas come from.”

“We're not going to talk about what just happened?" “I don't know what to say about it". He said. My heart sped up slightly again, and I felt dizzy. “Start with what you think about it." “What do you think I think about it?" I stared at him blankly. “I can't believe you'd even think about something like that". “I can see why you'd say that". I replied, smiling faintly. “No, you don't get it". He said, a little sharply. “I can't believe you can, I never thought you would. And hearing that you can now is just weird, like I've never known you before."

I felt everything they did but they didn't know I was awake, just not fully conscious. "When do I get to go home?" I was trying to be sleek by making that the first statement I made after a long while of unconsciousness but sadly, nobody even heard me. It was all in my head. Fucking head. Then a randomly weird thought popped in my head. I hadn't even previously thought about it, oddly. I think about all things foolish but me just having the thought was weird. I'm losing my weird bone? Nope, I don't think so, nope, nada, never to not be weird. So I returned to my weird thoughts.

I tried to think of something but nothing was coming to my head. “I have to think of something real quick.” I muttered to myself as I was in deep thought.