If I Can't Love Her Novels & Stories

I can't bear it if there's something bad happened to her. I will not let something terrible happen to her. Absolutely not. Especially now that I have admitted to myself that I love her. I looked for her everywhere but I couldn't really find her. Where is that woman now? When I see her, I will punish her for making me worried. I will give her tight hugs and kisses. I was suddenly surrounded by what I thought. So this is what love is like. It makes someone corny.

"Feeling used but I'm still missing you And I can't see the end of this Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips And now all this time is passing by But I still can't seem to tell you why It hurts me every time I see you Realize how much I need you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you I don't want to but I can't put Nobody else above you I hate you, I love you I hate that I want you You want her, you need her And I'll never be her......." (Note:"I Hate U, I Love U" is a song by American singer and rapper Gnash featuring American singer Olivia O'Brien. It was released on February 17, 2016)

It made me sick. I pushed him away. He frowned and signed, "Honey, you're acting strange. Nothing worries me more than seeing you upset. Your happiness is my happiness. Oh, how could I ever live without my wife?" For the first time, I didn't respond to his affectionate words. Perhaps sensing something amiss, he signed again, "I love you, dear." Then, he hugged me tightly once more. After a long moment, he finally let go and said he had work to do.

"What do you mean by 'you cannot feel?" "There are things I cannot share with you, but this I will tell you. I am only capable of feeling two emotions: pain and pleasure. I cannot love you, not because I don't want to, but because I don't know how to. I can't. So most of the times I like to feel this two little emotions as much as I can, just to remind me that I am still a living being"

Every word he spoke were thawing at her heart and she could feel every single thing, she stood for a moment as tears trickled down her cheeks, she wanted him but she couldn’t have him. “But, I can’t love, I’m incapable of that.” She finally spoke, forcing herself to not break down at his whim. “You can, you’ve loved me. You’ve loved me for who I was even when you barely knew me, you’re really capable of love and you have the widest heart I’ve ever seen.” He interrupted her as he walked closer to her. Placing his palm on her cheek as she closed her eyes to feel his touch and every part of him. She couldn’t deny the fact that she was crazy about him and she misses him.

She doesn't know how to let herself be loved. But I am here. I am patient. I am stubborn. I am in love. And one day, she will know. ---

I can’t love anyone again. Personally, I think I am incapable of loving anyone ever again. My heart is on lockdown, and I will not release it to have it torn wide open. “Attraction,” I offer for the word that best fits. Although, I do care about her. She’s an easy girl to care for, especially with everything she is going through. I mean I care about her kid sister, but this is different. I can’t make any sense of it. Not right now.

Dammit, I can’t lose her. -

It makes me really sad. [3.6 Failed at suicide. Why can't I even choose to die? Life is unbearably painful. I can't go on.] [If there's a next life...] The black ink had blurred from my tears, and the words beyond it had become unreadable. I muttered, "Even though you already know, I still want to tell you that I really love you. I love you so much that I wish for another life with you." For a moment, it felt as if Samuel were standing right beside me again—still the lively, confident young man I remembered. I couldn't look away, mesmerized, unwilling to wake from the illusion.

Uncontrollable. And I didn't know how to deal with things I couldn't control. "She'll come around," I said finally. But even I could hear the doubt in my voice. "Eventually, she'll understand." "And if she doesn't?" Silas pressed. "You can't force someone to love you, Kieran. No matter how much power you have." I looked back at my phone. Elara was still sitting the chair. "I don't need her to love me," I said.