It's Like I've Waited My Whole Life นิยาย & เรื่องราว

"Because I sort of expect you to be furious with me." "True. I am a little furious with you." I wrap both hands around the mug, steadying myself. "I've spent my whole life being told to wait for things. I'm good at it. That doesn't mean I enjoy it." Something almost like a smile ghosts across his face, gone as fast as it appears. "No. I don't imagine you do." "So how long is this version of waiting." "I don't know yet." He says it honestly, which is somehow worse than a clean answer would have been. "I know it ends before you're tired of asking. That's the only promise I've got this morning."

ᴊᴜsᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʀᴀᴘᴜɴᴢᴇʟ ᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ɪ ᴡᴀɪᴛᴇᴅ, ᴡᴀɪᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴀs ɪ ɢʀᴇᴡ ᴏʟᴅᴇʀ, ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪs ɴᴏ sᴜᴄʜ ғᴀɪʀʟʏᴛ ᴀʟᴇ

He then left me speechless. All my life I hated waiting. That's why I'm always late when going out with my friends, they were not on time, too. I didn't have the patience to wait for them. And this, waiting for his call, for the result was like a suspense part in a movie for me. I kept praying each day that he would let me work in his company.

Nothing could be seen except the dark dense clouds which were scattered all over the sky. Zia closed her slowly in order to calm that storm of emotions inside her but even her calmness started screaming at her those words of his 'I have waited for you throughout my life, mi vida and for you, I can wait for eternity' 'I have always yearned for you, your closeness, your touch and your love'

People had their lives to live, and no one was on the lookout for me, but in case someone saw me, I had my fake ID handy to produce to anyone with questions. Once outside, it was a warm day in London. I decided the noise of the park and kids playing on the grass was what I needed. There was something about the openness that made my heart twist in knots just watching them. I missed Ethan. Then I remembered another child, who would never walk on the grass or kick a ball. He was forever confined to a chair. The harder I worked at clearing the path for them, the more faraway the end seemed to be. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder and froze.

I would never do anything that would hurt my lady. “Hey, Pops.” Khalith showed up behind me. “How you feelin today?” He really was the best mix of the two of us. It had only been a week, but we were growing close. The similarities were crazy. “I’m losing my mind, honestly. I never thought this day would come. I thought I was going to be eternally waiting. It sure felt like an eternity. Your entire lifetime I’ve been waiting for this day.” The gravity of that weighed on me. “I just want to be the best for her. I’m seen as the lowest god in the pantheon. I still don’t understand why I was chosen, but I am grateful for her. I’m grateful she’s mine. That she didn’t reject me immediately.” Sorrow

And deep inside me, something stirred. “What was that?” I murmured, heart hammering. “Did something just… growl inside me?” I turned slightly, searching the air again. "What is this smell?" "Why does it feel like something I’ve been waiting for my whole life?" "And why, after all this time, does it feel like the answer is finally walking toward me?"

I sat with that for a moment, feeling the specific weight of it finding its place inside my chest. Twenty-six years of ordinary life: ordinary school, ordinary job, ordinary heartbreaks, ordinary Sunday mornings; and underneath all of it, this, waiting with the patience of something that didn't experience time the way I did. "My father knows," I said. Not a question. Reed was quiet for exactly one second too long.

"I have you, and for the first time in my life, I do not feel like I am waiting for the world to end. I am just living." I closed my eyes and soaked up the moment.

He went on. That was enough to snap me out of whatever phase I was in because I didn't even have the first idea of whatever was going on and was just trying to pick up the pieces of my life. There was nothing hurtful than waiting everyday and expecting a miracle to happen yet none came and it was almost as though you had to fight for it. I headed into the conference room where everyone was supposed to be gathered and waited for the test to begin. It wasn't supposed to be as hard as they had made it look.